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more about “the doll”

ooc: hey!! there’s some more important info abt lucy that i wanted to share + some not as serious lucy fun facts. this is kind of lengthy so everything is under the cut 💜

personality / misc hcs

she hates that she has to be addressed by her callsign. she wasn’t called her actual name for years—she was only addressed as Subject Number 27 in the lab—she wants to be just lucy again.

lucy calls her brother “jem” a lot because when she was first learning to talk she had trouble saying “jeremy” so she said “jemmy” instead.

she and scout butt heads a lot because of how ideologically different they are, but they love each other dearly. they both are very protective over the other.

she shows her affection through acts of service. she’s very bad with her words.

lucy loves loves LOVES tea and sweet foods and drinks.

besides her work uniforms, she doesnt really have any clothes of her own. she has a couple of dresses (all gunne sax) gifted to her by spy for her 16th birthday.

the work/combat boots she wears are horrifically beat up. they’re worn out because they’re all she wears. she has another pair of shoes and mary-janes as part of her uniform, but these shoes in particular are cherished by her because they were the first piece of clothing she was given after being rescued from the lab.

because she didn’t grow up in boston for too long, lucy doesn’t really have a bostonian accent, but when she says certain words, it kind of slips out.

lucy has a slight gap in her front teeth. her teeth didn’t grow in properly. she was playing baseball with her brothers when she was four, and a stray pitch knocked one of her baby teeth out and the other lodged into her gums.

as part of her training for her “psychic abilities” she had to learn how to do multiple complex actions or tasks at once. this is the reason why she knows how to play multiple instruments (piano, fiddle, some woodwinds), why she’s very skilled in ballet, why she’s a skilled singer.

lucy was told that fighting is a lot like dancing. she really internalized it. she moves very gracefully and fluidly the field—however, normally she moves very stiff and awkwardly.

lucy was taught different languages in the lab as part of her “educational enrichment.” she’s best with french and struggles a little with german. she tries to teach herself russian (mainly for heavy)

lucy is mixed. in my hc, her ma is filipino.

she is not comfortable in her own body. she feels like she’s somewhere in between being a girl and being a boy but she doesn’t know how to express that properly.

lucy is ace.

lab related

lucy is incredibly pale due to being stuck in that dark lab for a decade. dark circles under her eyes are more visible because of this.

she has high pain tolerance due to training procedures in the lab. they needed to make sure she could still use her abilities even when her body was under high stress or running on incredibly low amounts of sleep or being dehydrated or dangerously hungry. many of her natural body “cues” are not normal. the mercs need to keep her in check because of this.

lucy has a really weird relationship with food because of the lab. even though she hated what they forced her to eat, those foods still bring her comfort.

she had to mature way too fast and way too soon. she felt she had to “kill” the child that she was in order to survive in the lab. but that child never truly “died” so lucy is in a really bad balance of being fiercely independent or concerningly codependent.

she has bad dreams nightly. her nightmares involve her being found by the AiHB and them killing or torturing the people she loves. or it’s her death in the lab. someone else being experimented on and she can only stand there and watch. her being unable to save someone because she can’t overpower their attacker. she would calm herself down by going to find scout or sniper or spy to make sure that they were there and safe and well.

lucy had to keep a journal in the lab. there were drawings and written entries in it. scout took the journal, then spy stole it from him and he keeps it with him after that. they both wanted insight on her mental state. scout never learns spy stole it from him—he just thought he lost it. lucy does not know that this happened.

lucy becomes very paranoid over her privacy. of people listening to her conversations in secret, hidden cameras.

she becomes especially sensitive to the mistreatment of animals.

she has oddly specific fears and all of these are because of the lab—she’s afraid of black vans, she’s afraid of dotted fabrics. the sound of EKG machines.

she was terrified of men in white coats, so she was terrified of medic. she wouldn’t talk to him, she couldn’t be in the same room as him. he mistook her genuine fear of him as her trying to intimidate him. after that, he actively makes sure to assure her he is nothing like the men in the lab.

addressing the RED and BLU lucy of it all

so when i was first making lucy’s character, i had the comics in mind more than i did the game. there are implications in the comics that are different from the games. the most important one to lucy is the whole “spy is a deadbeat” thing

because in the games its heavily implied (but. basically canon.) that the father of RED scout is BLU spy. the father of BLU scout is RED spy.

but in the comics, RED is kind of written as if they are the only team. making RED spy the father of RED scout.

so for me i have been treating comics lore lucy differently than game lore lucy. she has the same story no matter what—she will always be scout’s little sister and second child of the spy, but the exact semantics of her differs.

because i realized kind of quickly that both a RED and BLU existing in the same space at the same time would be a little problematic logistically. because both lucys work as assistants to the administrator who is authorized to go down to the respective RED/BLU base that her brother works for. but i feel like both teams would definitely realize “wait, if she works for the administrator…then she…”

so there IS. a RED and BLU lucy, however they do not/cannot in the same timeline. they’re in parallel timelines to each other.

because this is something that is interesting to me, both lucys have knowledge of the other but they don’t realize that.

they both think that the blips they see or things they hear are not related to an “alternate timeline.” they both simply think that they’re experiencing side effects from their meds or their psychic abilities.

how did this happen? a procedure performed in the lab went horrifically wrong. lucy’s abilities at this point are wildly out of control. she unintentionally caused a power surge and lucy almost died due to the machines she was hooked up to.

this event happened at the same time across the main RED lucy and BLU lucy timelines. there’s more about this but it gets kind of even more confusing but. anyways does this at all make logical sense? probably not! is this at all necessary? absolutely not but im keeping it in bc i think its cool lol

RED lucy and BLU lucy

RED lucy prefers to act as support, usually acting as the team’s second sniper or giving medical aid to anyone she sees in base. RED lucy is a lot more defensive than offensive. she uses her abilities more for self-defense or disorienting the enemy to allow someone to get out of a dangerous situation. she avoids the frontlines she’s more afraid of getting killed on the field or getting captured because she knows she’s easy pickings to the other team.

BLU lucy would be found on the frontlines near her brother. she feels much “safer” there, because she thinks it would be easier to kill or capture her if she’s alone. she uses her abilities to cause major distractions to lead the enemy into surprise attacks.

RED and BLU lucy both consider sniper to be one of their closest friends. they both consider pauling to be a sister figure.

i really like how a lot of people portray BLU as being more serious than RED. so that means BLU lucy is a much sunnier person. she processes her trauma in the lab differently—she cracks more jokes and laughs more easily about it. her viewing it as a fucked up joke is how she ignores/suppresses her trauma.

they both are left handed.

okay this was a fucking lot lmao if you have any questions i will gladly answer them. thank you for reading or getting this far 💜

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what’s the most absurd/funniest “sibling squabble” you and scout have had?

Oh man, we have a lot of those. We're so different from each other at an ideological level, it makes us butt heads a lot. Even if he drives me crazy sometimes, I still love him. But one of the funniest–at least to me–was this time he took me to the batting cages. I'm not that good when I come up to bat. I think that's because I'm so weak. But Jem kept teasing me. That's just how he is, that's how he shows his affection sometimes, but I'm not like that, so it can really get on my nerves.

Anyway, for some reason he walked in front of me. He might have been trying to get one of the baseballs, and he was saying something that annoyed me, so I kind of...socked him in the gut with my bat. He laughed about it afterward–said he deserved that one.

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the dark haired girls with the guns

@mothnem @medicsss @eld-red

TADAAAAA it's Phoebe/Butcher ( left ) Yvette/Spy ( top ) Kennedy/Fencer ( right ) and Lucy/Doll ( bottom )

i know Lucy is taller than everyone in this image but i had to fit them all so. she sitting.

BUT TADAAAAA SURPRISE GUYS this was so fun... i love u all.... osjfbdbwbr your ocs are all so pretty and cool :c

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this may also be a dumb question but did the nickname “the doll” come before or after the crocheted doll either way it’s fitting (not in a bad way just like in a “it makes sense” way :) )

ooc: not a dumb question!! her callsign being “the Doll” came around the same time of you making the lucy doll

originally lucy’s callsign was going to either be “the Wildcard” or “the Ace” and i think it was only at the beginning of the year that i committed to the doll. i think subconsciously crocheted lucy is why i came up with that. so either way it was bc you made crocheted lucy!!

also if you guys dont know what im talking about:

this is literal doll lucy. my very good friend @waterisasoup crocheted her for me last year :)

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on the good/evil alignment chart where do you think you are? (like the lawful good, lawful neutral, etc. one)

Oh, aren’t these the alignments used in Gargoyles and Gravel? Miss Pauling loves that game.

I don’t think I’m…is it called true neutral? So I’d say that I’m lawful neutral, then.

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this may be a dumb question but what’s your favorite animal?

That isn’t a dumb question. I don’t think most questions are dumb. Most of them.

I’ve always had an affinity for perceived pests—mainly rats. Many rodents are incredibly misjudged. They’re smart creatures, and they aren’t unhygienic like people think they are. Did you know that pet rats don’t see us as humans? They treat us as if we were one of them.

And yes, I know, it’s probably really funny that rats are my favorite animal…given my history.

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As a lab rat, what was the most traumatic experience that you went through

Well. To quote my brother, “Say goodbye to your kneecaps, chucklehead!”

(ooc: in order to pick out what parts of the lab were traumatic to her the most, she’d have to think about her time there. she prefers not to.)

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What was your first impression of Kennedy?

That first week out of…there…

I was so scared. Of everyone. I only wanted to be around Jem—he was the only one I trusted at the time. I don’t think I even spoke my first day on base.

I didn’t have short hair yet—it was still really long and knotted. Using my hands to get them out hurt. I think Kennedy must have seen me trying to brush my hair with my hands. At some point that day she came up to me. She didn’t even say anything to me, she just held up her hair brush and gestured for me to sit next to her.

I already liked her because she made my brother smile. But her doing that for me…she was one of the first mercs I trusted.

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what are your thoughts on the events leading to and following expiration date regarding the poor choices made by soldier?

Well. I mean. If Soldier hadn’t teleported bread for three days straight, I don’t think Jem would have gone on that date with Miss Pauling. Conflict and stressful situations can bring people closer together. Actually, now that I think about it, I don’t know if that was an actual date. So at least there was one positive to that entire…ordeal.

I am choosing to be nice right now, because that’s what good teammates do.

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if you were going to die in any way, how would you prefer to go?

This is a, uh. Really interesting first question to answer.

But if I’m being honest, I’m kind of the youngest. Youngest in my family, youngest out of all the other mercs…it’s likely that I might outlive them all. I guess I don’t want to be alone when I die. I try not to think about things like this too much.

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ooc: my friend allie drew me a lucy i love having friends my friends are all so cool and creative

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ooc: hey guys i made a lucy playlist!! this one is for spotify but u also have an apple music one i will gladly send if u would like me to :) i will also gladly explain my song choices/what the story of this playlist is that is all

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ooc: this is the fullbody of my pfp! again lucy was drawn by @ homkamiro over on instsgram!! please go check her art out if you have an instagram account she is awesome

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Eugenia-Louise “Lucy” Elbertson

Class Title: The Doll

Class Emblem(s):

Full Name: Eugenia-Louise Elsie Elbertson

Age: 16 as of 1969, 19 as of 1972

Female, She/Her pronouns

Lucy is the younger sister of Scout. She is seven years younger than him, and was born in early august, making her a Leo.

She works very closely with Miss Pauling and the Administrator, but is authorized to do “field work” with the mercs due to her combat history. Apart of her combat history is the ability to cause auditory and visual hallucinations via bringing the subconscious mind to the conscious mind.

Lucy sees Miss Pauling as her older sister. Sniper she considers to be one of her closest friends. Spy became a (reluctant) mentor to her.

lucy’s story is much more detailed in this doc. in it, several fics that i’m working on have been linked in that. i’ll be posting updates on any fics i may write on this blog, and like probably on my main @eld-red

my lucy pfp was drawn by @ homkamiro on instagram, and i have been losing my marbles ever since i saw her. i love lucy, if you will.