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i dont care if it always hurts, i would find you in every universe, in every timeline, i will always wait for you

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to love someone is firstly to confess: i'm prepared to be devastated by you.

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I'm built different. like incorrectly i think

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i think I bother everyone by being alive

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— nizariat

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— Lana Del Rey; Cinnamon Girl

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Being traumatized from an early age is strange.

I long for a home I never had.

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I can’t believe I forgot the most important rule: everybody lies

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mood for the night.. :/

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i thought i was gonna be dead before i turn 18 and now im 24 and have no idea what im doing with my life

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I just want to be soft

Why am I so angry, so harsh, so violent, so destroying.

It’s unfair

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"It's all in your head." - Thank you Janette, that's why it's called mental illness. It cannot be in my ass.

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I can feel my heart struggle with each contraction because deep down it knows that there’s not a single molecule in my body that wants to continue living.

Every breath I take hurts because my lungs know it’s not worth breathing life into a body that doesn’t want it anymore.

I died long ago. My existence is just a bad memory that you try to bury somewhere far away but it’s always haunting you.

It’s always there telling you what a fuck up you are and how you’ll never be enough for anybody and how no one will ever love you the way you love them and that dying will be the best thing that’s ever happened to you.

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Wanting someone 2 love you like you love them when you have bpd is so shattering