howdoiliveanymore

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talks with my friends who are going to kink parties and having t4t orgies and doing petplay and then goes to sleep in my childhood bedroom and dreams of the snow, and rain

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[howdoiliveanymore]

Sometimes I have really strong cravings to teach a sub on how to take my whole strap down their throat. Training them and giving them praise, slowly building up towards face fucking for my own amusement. Bringing them deep into submission and rewarding them with praise and orgasms for being able to take so much of my strap like a good slut.

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NEVER be vulnerable. FLUSH your medication down the toilet. LIE when people ask how you’re doing. SUPPRESS your feelings. ALWAYS be irritable and abrasive. MAKE SURE you push away anyone who’s close to you. CANCEL your therapy appointment.

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had to use the safeword cuz my tummy is rumbly

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mood

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Looking back, it’s funny getting told you’re manipulative by a parent when you’re a child.

Like girl I can’t manipulate you, I’m 7.

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I dontr think im fit to be around anymore i just want to JO 1 last time and sleep forever more

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hitting yourself with a hammer until really deep bruises form is a form of masturbation

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ggot horny thinkin bout sum1 crackkin my ribcagge openwiiv fhem big bone scisssors earllier uhoh

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When the mental illness is actually debilitating and interferes with normal daily function instead of being just a silly quirky label i got

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i would like to abuse substances and get hit so hard i get scared

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Alex Stoddard

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oh! i should totally tell them about- *glances at my "am i being annoying" meter in the corner of my vision* ...i often find such peace in silent reflection 😌

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[howdoiliveanymore]

i love an crave violence i need to beat somone up