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I'm holdin' on (Baby)

Mama's got a lot to learn (It's heavy)

I'm holdin' on (Catch me)

Mama's got a lot to learn (Teach me)

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It won't be long

Till I forget to call every time that I'm drinking

And you ain't the love song

I can't keep from singing

I gotta be honest

If you really believe that's the truth

You never loved me like I loved you

You never loved me like I loved you

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But I'm afraid of being sober

'Cause the first thing I do when I'm alone

Is start touching myself to the photos that you used to send me

I should have deleted, but kept it a secret

Is that crazy to do?

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I miss you in ways I hate to admit.

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i bet tomorrow will to...

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I want to tell you how much I miss you, but I know that even if I did it wouldn’t make a difference

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Please don’t.

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“I loved her as best as I was able, given the paucity of my experience, a form of immaturity which led me into mistakes, and misunderstandings and misreadings: confusions which, in the course of our time together, broke us apart. When we argued, I felt like I was sprinting through hip-high water, impossibly slowed, saying the wrong things, again and again and again. All my life had been spend reading books and writing poems and these were not the same as reading a person’s concerns, fears, insecurities. For three years, […] we flailed, trying, failing, apart as much as we were together. We said good-bye beneath trees beside the lake. Dogwood petals fluttered in the air. […] I left and I felt smaller and sadder than I ever had.”

— Paul Guest, from One More Theory About Happiness: A Memoir (HarperCollins, 2010)

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“I wish I could talk to the version of you that loved me, just one more time. But I can’t and I never will”

—

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texts

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“We will always have that” by M.O.W.

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It’s not that I won’t fall in love again. I think I can. I’m silly and naive like that. I fall so damn easily. Even though I know I’ll never love someone the way I love him but I think I can love again. But I do know that, it’s not worth it because no one will ever fall for me. It’s always going to be the same story for me. Unrequited love. You see I fall too easily but I’m so fucking hard to love. So it’s better this way, being alone.

— I don’t think I’ll make it if I love someone without being loved again

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i'll be here listening

to your favorite songs

and pretending that

they don't belong

to you in my heart

but everything belongs

to you in my heart

and the music is

just noise to me now

and i long for silence

almost as much as

i long for you

-mars

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“I think we love who we love and there’s not a damn thing that can be done about it.”

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I'm my happiest when I'm dissociating while watching romance anime