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howley and aziraphil are here to save the world

howley and aziraphil are here to save the world

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I DONT WANNA PAY BILLS I WANNA USE MY MONEY FOR FOOD AND LIL GIFTS FOR MYSELF AND MY LOVED ONES

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I just reada really good fic but halfway through I realized "oh shit this is really familiar.... didn't I write something like this once?" And as I kept reading I kept predicting what happened next and the further I went the more convinced I was that they'd ripped off my story-

like, copied the ENTIRE plot and re-written it, just better than I had? The characters were more fleshed-out than mine were, and the POV was more interesting, and the pace made more sense- but it was MY STORY?

So close to the end I was like "holy shit.. do I message them? Ask if my story inspired theirs? Should I be angry? Flattered?" Cause their tags and description didn't mention me AT ALL, which, sure, it's fanfiction to begin with, but if you're using my work than at least credit me as inspo, right? Just to be courteous?

But I get to the end of the final chapter, and it's not finished, and I'm kind of disappointed cause I never finished my story and I was really immersed in their version now and had been looking forwards to seeing how they tied up my loose ends- so I scroll to the bottom to leave a comment, and.

It's MY URL.

IT WAS MY STORY THE WHOLE TIME.

THE ONE *I WROTE*.

In *2013*.

And FORGOT ABOUT

BECAUSE I WAS SO INSECURE ABOUT MY SLOPPY, SHALLOW, AMETEUR WRITING

And I'm just sitting here now staring into space thinking about every shitty story I've ever written now like

IT WAS ALL GOOD?

IT WAS GOOD THIS WHOLE DAMN TIME??

I'M A GOOD WRITER?????

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im being so serious when i ask this, but, how has dick's characterization become so opposing to his actual character? like how in the world did this pervasive and frankly invasive depiction of him become so popular? where in the world did people get these scraps of personality that they've frankensteined together to create this fucking weirdo that shakes his ass for criminals and is the biggest attention seeker? for decades we have had pretty consistent source material that continually establishes that dick is quite serious and a leader, and also someone that cares deeply for people and has the skill set and willpower to do literally anything for them. how has this fanon characterization that's quickly becoming canon happen to him?

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NOBODY FUCKING MOVE.

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this is the representation nepo babies deserve

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lineless dickroy

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i honestly still think about this post daily

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A Man of Few Words

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Me: You know how when you were a kid and you’d wish that you’d get sick or injured in a way that would justify why you didn’t live up to your potential?

Everybody, apparently: No?

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“Living weapon” covers a lot and all of it is hot

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What finally put the nail in the coffin for me on the concept of "biblical inerrancy" was fully realizing how impossible it is for the meaning of any written piece of language to be consistent or even intelligible across times, places and cultures

I have sat through sermons about Jesus's teaching that you have to be "like a little child" to enter the kingdom of heaven that interpreted it as meaning, like, "innocence," or pure unquestioning belief like a child's belief in Santa Claus, but in college I took a 300-level course on Ancient Rome, and realized that being "like a little child" would have meant something totally different for a Roman or Roman-influenced society

The Romans were ridiculously hierarchical. Like, present-day American society is hierarchical but the Romans took it to the next level. Everything was all about your position on the totem pole relative to everyone else.

And children were at the bottom of the bottom. They were completely without legal rights, as in "the head of household can legally just kill his son and it's fine because he's the father."

that class made me realize just how much of the actual teachings of Jesus are centered on subverting social hierarchies, and just how intense they are about it. and this is no exception: it is a statement about upturning society so that the least valued people are most favored by God

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Self care is writing fan fiction that you are the sole target audience for.

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"How do you write such realistic dialogue-" I TALK TO MYSELF. I TALK TO MYSELF AND I PRETEND I AM THE ONE SAYING THE LINE. LIKE SANITY IS SLOWLY SLIPPING FROM BETWEEN MY FINGERS WITH EVERY MEASLY WORD THEY TYPE OUT. THAT IS HOW.