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Danarius' Notes

Danarius' notes from each session of Eat Your Young

Month one:

Signs of anxiety, as expected.

Generalized exhaustion

Burning sensation tied to markings

Fog of the mind

Physical tension, described a feeling of being squeezed

Stiffness in joints. Expected, after the intensive nature of the ritual

Supplemental notes.

Train bodily awareness He must disconnect himself from his pain if he is to be of any use.

Month two:

Distant

Discombobulated

Still in pain

Joints still stiff

Anxious

Lyrium-induced hallucinations — Mild

Limited vocabulary. Reminder to teach eloquence. He must stand out from other slaves.

Fears disobedience. Good progress

Supplemental notes

Awareness is becoming easier for him. He learns very quickly, considering he was born a slave. This is excellent progress.

Month three:

Catching on to the pattern of our monthly assessments.

Limited knowledge on weeks and months.

Consistent pain caused by the markings

Noted nausea — Clarified; Disgust

The markings seem to glow at random. Clarify this response.

Supplemental notes

Fenris shows a profound sense of curiosity. This must be quelled as quickly as possible. Occasionally I forget how young he is. His age has been very useful in his training. Incredibly adaptable. Disappointing that Fenris reacted so intensely to my lucrative agreement to loan him to others. Correct this behavior, as it will make such endeavors far more difficult. All in all, this is going quite well. He is quite a handsome young man. A beautiful specimen.

Interim notes:

Fenris has shown an incredible capability for brutality, when he focuses. He can be quite vicious in his training, though he occasionally hesitates when given an actual mark. Aptitude for disassociating himself from his actions. This is quite promising, but requires refining. The first of the sleep deprivation trials has gone well so far, though he will have to learn to fight against hallucinations. It is disappointing, but I suppose I should have expected them to be intensified by the lyrium.

Month four:

Shows a general dislike for Hadriana. Understandable.

Bodily awareness has improved, but still needs work.

Continues to hesitate against those I actually ask him to kill. Disappointing. Correct this.

Fenris has been ordered to stop completely in battle when I, a guard, or the instructor calls 'Heel'

Supplemental notes

Fenris shows quite a lot of terror at the idea of disobeying me, or generally displeasing me. He relies almost entirely on me alone. This is going quite well.

Month five:

Fenris has become more comfortable with our monthly meetings.

Shows difficulty putting his thoughts to words.

Fascination with the plants and flowers in the garden

He is having some difficulty reigning in his thoughts; Regularly caught up in his head.

The burn given with such audacity by Magister Ardoris' sister is healing well

Still shows difficulty in pleasing my guests. Supplementary lessons may be required once more or more often.

Touch from others causes increased burning sensations from the markings

The markings have a range of pain. Create a pain scale to track this on any given day.

He's awfully dramatic.

Supplemental notes

There's that curiosity again. I really must do something about this. Any information he requires should be at my behest, not of his own will. His voice seems to have healed as much as it ever will. Unfortunate, it occasionally grates on my ears.

Interim notes:

The text on this particular page is written in an angry, frustrated, nearly frantic hand.

Fenris has been in the infirmary for the better part of a week, due to his contemptible and unprompted actions. Eight of my servants dead, including the instructor. I will get to the bottom of this outburst. If he thinks he won't be punished, he is sorely mistaken. Although, it may be difficult to think of anything while under such heavy spells. Foolish, selfish boy. I'll have to come up with a suitable punishment.

Month six:

Fenris must be feeling a sense of audacity, today.

Surprising awareness of the magic in his mind keeping him awake

Decent bodily awareness despite his injuries. Could be better. Correct this.

On a promising note: He does seem to find some pleasure in killing. It needs to be redirected toward those I actually tell him to kill.

Expresses a sense of guilt for taking pleasure in it. Encouraging.

Shows understanding of previous training; that being call and response. Self-humiliation seems to be going well.

Supplemental notes

All in all this has been a very frustrating month. Five steps forward, two steps back. I must sort out this insubordination. My subordinates are not as skilled with punishment, he regularly shows less fear if they are the ones dealing him damage. This is good in some way, showing reliance and abject horror for my particular reprimands.

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Anonymous asked:

I bring more questions!

If you were to describe yourself in one sentence, what would you say? (You better be nice to yourself!)

If you had to enter a sparring session with someone who would you spar with?

Would you purposefully scare someone during a scary scene in a film (knowing they would laugh afterwards)?

Have you had any lustful fantasies?

Do you prefer neck kisses or shoulder kisses? (Asking for... Reasons 👀)

Are you normally the first one to give a hug to your partner or do you wait for them to give you a hug? Is it also the same for kisses?

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"Welcome back, it's always a pleasure to see your curious questions."

Fenris takes a moment to think on that, and smirks. "I can describe myself in one word. Sturdy."

"I'm not certain why I would 'have' to enter a sparring match with someone. If I'm meant to choose a fight I know I would win, I would fight Cassandra. Her Seeker training is very obvious, and I imagine a hard habit to break. I'd wager she was only taught to fight in a specific style." "If I wanted a challenge, however, I would spar with The Iron Bull. I often do, in fact."

"Purposefully? Perhaps. I can, on occasion, have a sense of humor."

"I've had many lustful fantasies."

He clears his throat. "You seem terribly interested in this sort of thing. On days when I am not in immense pain, I think... hm. My neck is particularly sensitive, even compared to the rest of the markings."

"There is generally more direct communication when it comes to physical affection. Generally, my partner will ask whether or not touch is painful in that moment, and we'll go from there. I initiate on occasion, though."

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Anonymous asked:

(Sneaks in here like a spy 🕵🏻‍♀️)

Hello! I come with some questions!

If you could invite anyone to a dinner party who would you invite? (It can be someone you know or someone famous).

How would you react if you suddenly could use magic?

How do small signs of affection (like hand holding, gifting things you like, cooking for you, ect) make you feel?

Who do think doesn’t appreciates themselves enough and should appreciate themselves more?

And, have you ever seen or read something that made you want to try it? (This can be sfw or nsfw, it’s up to you)

(I shall now sneak away while the Pink Panther theme plays in the background 🚶‍♀️)

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"That's a lot of questions..."

"I'm not really one for parties, so I wouldn't know where to start. I suppose it might depend on what sort of party. A more casual affair would simply be myself and Hawke, with perhaps Varric or Isabella for cards." "I think that may be the only sort of party I enjoy, really."

"If I could use magic? To be fair, I'm certainly using some form of it, if only due to the markings. But if I were suddenly able to cast spells? My first worry would be possession. I've been controlled too often in my life to fall prey to that again. I suppose I could ask Moira for help, she's well-versed in not being possessed." Unlike Anders.

"Small signs of affection? I'm afraid it depends on the day. Gifts are strange, I wasn't often given things for nothing in return when I was younger. If I'm given gifts, I prefer for them to be practical." "Cooking for me is another one I find strange, and mildly unsettling. Occasionally I end up simply staring at the cook out of habit. Poison is not uncommon in Tevinter."

"That question has a simple answer, amatus. You." Love yourself, Ms. International Super Spy.

"There are many things I've discovered that I think I'd like to try. Certain kinds of food or drink, studying astrology, leatherworking past simple fixes for my armor. There are many things in this world to do."

"I shall await your return, my love."

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Kisses, kisses, kisses ❤️

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Logging onto Tungle.hell to ramble about Danarius in the year of our lord 2024.

Sensitive subjects ahead!

Still here? Okay.

I gotta talk about the AUDACITY of Danarius.

This man gave Some Random Elf immense, untapped power.

How did he expect to be able to control him forever? Simple! Break him!

He's obviously had other slaves, and we can glean that he's a sadistic motherfucker, so I doubt he's a stranger to controlling through fear and pain. So he took this kid, fucking ripped him apart, and went "Yep, that'll stop him from betraying me!"

Except that he taught Fenris how to fight, and he taught Fenris how to fight REALLY WELL. In fact, he basically made a fucking perrepatae with lyrium powers.

Personally, I think Fenris would've escaped eventually, even without the Fog Warriors. Something else would have gotten between he and Danarius, something would have clicked. You don't just teach someone strategy and survival skills and expect them never to go "Actually, this sucks, bye!"

Except that Danarius did expect Fenris to stay. He also expects fucking everyone to bow down to his whims, even some random fucking Doglord (endearing) in Kirkwall!

I am 100% confident that Danarius had never expected Fenris to leave of his own free will. He probably thought he'd smashed every ounce of free will Fenris had. Because he's a privileged dickhead who thinks he can get away with anything with enough money and/or magic.

So this motherfucker took one look at Fenris tearing someone apart with his hands and went "Yeah, this'll go well for me."

The reality is that control like that is so easy to break if the person is given a better option. The fact that Fenris was able to see a life without Danarius after being separated in Seheron is indicative of that imo.

But, even when faced with a Hawke who is obviously on Fenris' side, he STILL THINKS HE CAN WORK SOMETHING OUT. No matter how nice you play Hawke, Danarius will still be like "You sure you don't want to betray your friend and sell him into slavery? I have money!" As if Hawke gives a fucking shit about this piece of trash who abused their friend for so god damn long.

Danarius' plan was doomed from the start, because he taught him intelligence, even if he couldn't read. There's also something to be said for Fenris' intelligence, honestly, but that's for another post.

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"Man, why is Fenris looking over his shoulder all the time?"

"Man, why is he always acting like he's being watched?"

"Maybe it's because of the hunters, but he's like that even after Danarius is dead!"

Idk maybe its because MINRATHOUS HAS A PANOPTICON (also other various ptsd things)

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Been wanting to redraw this for a long time.

A while back, I found a post about the idea of Fenris' markings healing like tattoos. As someone with tattoos, I know how they heal and what they look like before they're all clean and wiped off. In this case, poor motherfucker did not get the cleaning treatment.

I do not like drawing nipples, deal with it.

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0 people asked for my opinion but I'm going to give it anyway because I cannot help but psychoanalyze characters I share mental illnesses with <3

Idk about messing up his ambush, we've seen through his character that he's Not Exactly Subtle (In the comics he makes that comment about "Why sneak when we can just beat the shit out of them?"), but otherwise I definitely agree with all of this.

Fenris shouting into the mansion does very much feel like he's psyching himself up, to me. No going back now, he's here and he even has backup this time (Potentially including another mage).

Also saying "Your pet demons cannot stop us" gets me because. Yeah Fenris you'd know a thing or two about how much Danarius likes his pets, huh

In Alone, we see how terrified of Danarius he is. The motherfucker saunters down the stairs and says One(1) sentence and we see Fenris' anger immediately drain into absolute panic.

If there's anything I know about abusive relationships, it's that this is immensely accurate. You can be enraged at what's been done to you behind closed doors, but when you actually think about what you might do if you were to see them again? That shit'll put you on your ass.

Especially since, the last time he saw Danarius, he followed orders. He did what Danarius told him to do, he killed all of his friends.

So finally seeing Danarius again, even after spending so long with The Crew, I can imagine Fenris' internal dialogue as basically "Oh shit, what if he tells me to kill these friends and I say yes again?"

And I mean,,, if ur Hawke is the literal worst person in the world and sells him back, he doesn't even fight. He completely gives up. He resigns to the idea that Danarius' influence is so powerful that he could never find a community of people who'd help him.

So yeah I'd be terrified too! We may not know how long he was a slave (or even how old he is), but it way way more than enough that Danarius was even able to get him to kill the Fog Warriors.

That kind of manipulation and conditioning takes years, though it was probably easier due to Fenris being so young when the ritual took place. (Or at least he looks young in the comic flashback)

Which means that yea, logically he'd be terrified. But since all of his other emotions were probably shut down and packed away somewhere in his brain out of necessity, all he's got left is anger.

He also doesn't want to show these total strangers that he's scared, because then what if they back out? Shouting into the mansion may not be a very logical choice, but it's probably all he could do to stop himself from running again.

Anyway thanks for coming to my TED talk that I'm sure absolutely no one cares about

I just read that post about how Fenris immediately shouts when he enters the mansion and I always thought it's weird he would do that. What if he was actually really scared about encountering Danarius and unconsciously messed up his own ambush? I mean, it was just him and a bunch of strangers he just met, maybe he started to get cold feet once he actually got to the estate...

ive always thought that he was very much afraid. he talks big a lot about how he’s going to go and kill danarius but with everything that has happened to him, it makes sense that he’s afraid, something that’s very apparent when danarius shows up unexpectedly in his act 3 quest.

as funny as i think it is when you walk in and fenris starts yelling at nothing about how he’s not afraid of danarius and how he’s coming for him, i think it’s very much a defence mechanism. sort of like how cats try to make themselves bigger when under threat, you know?

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Drawing older Fenris and Anders made me realise how much I missed them

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fenhwake moving in my brain where there is already Lavellan & Dorian as well as Tavstarion

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i love hawke and varric a normal amount

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I forgot to post this one?

Warnings: Mostly drowning, but Danarius sure do be torturing this poor fuckin teenager

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Officially moving to Discord aside from asks ^^" my brain just. Does not click with rp on tumblr anymore. Trying to format anything on this hellsite is a nightmare. This goes for my Cole blog as well, though he's always been less active bc My God writing him takes some brain power.

(Edit: I'll still probably reblog DA things and post headcanons and my one-shots etc etc)

Considering just making this an ask blog. I only really like rping on Discord at this point bc I have no idea how to cut posts here so I can't organize it how I like.

So I guess if you wanna interact with my Fenris or Cole uh shoot me a dm and I can invite you to my rp server (It's an open multiverse server. You basically just make channels for different threads and plot with other folks. All kinds of fandoms there)

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This is the worst thing I have ever created and you must also suffer

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there are no puppy eyes

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Anonymous asked:

(First off, I am a subtle being, I always arrive unnoticed because I am an international super spy 🕵🏻‍♀️)

I bring you questions!

How do you wind-down after a long day?

What colour do you think you look good in?

What makes you laugh every single time without fail? (You can be specific if you want to 👀)

What is often on your mind when you're alone?

Do you prefer late nights or early mornings?

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"Perhaps you should study as a Bard, considering your passion for being... sneaky."

"How do I wind down... I suppose a glass of wine, if I have the luxury, or a book. I try to carry one on me in general, especially if I'm traveling. Boredom does not suit me well."

"I've never been fashion-minded, as I've been informed by Dorian. He's mentioned that I look good in deep blues. Something about how it contrasts with the lyrium. I don't know, it's Dorian."

"I'm honestly not so sure about that one. I do laugh, but I don't remember there being anything specific that garners that reaction..."

"When I'm alone..? It varies depending on the day. Memories, perhaps, or likely my partners and friends. Something along those lines."

He chuckles at that.

"Early mornings are in my nature, unfortunately. I'm afraid I don't get much sleep."

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Warnings: Blood magic, abuse, demeaning language, basically just Danarius being generally awful