hiraethharmony

[hiraethharmony]

I do not dare to come too close to them, it might hurt me even more than my current fragility might allow

so I watch from afar, always lurking and gazing upon them when they're not looking, hoping they'll never notice

always keeping distance, but at the same time, I crave for those intimate moments playing in the back of my head

but I know very well an angel like you wouldn't allow to give in to such sins

[hiraethharmony]

I am unable to grieve our past as I am still not done grieving our could have been future

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

you don't know me

and I only know you from online

so why the fuck do I feel betrayed

because you found your happiness

and I feel like it ripped away mine

[hiraethharmony]

oh, pretty you, can you show me how it feels to be human one more time?

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

one day I shall fade away, like the ink in my journal, all those memories long forgotten, my existence no segment of any memories, my body now an element of the universe again, and I wonder if my deepest secrets will one day be discovered by a lonely soul, finding solace in my words, and my name resurfacing on the earth again

[hiraethharmony]

I just packed my most sentimental belongings in two boxes like these things carry no meaning

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

some people slur my name, or emphasise the wrong syllable, but you, you make sure you pronounce every single letter, you give my name a whole new meaning, my name does not pass your lips like a filler word, but it rather leaves your tongue like a bird about to take fligt

[hiraethharmony]

and maybe the greatest love is hidden in the little things we encounter in our daily lives

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

we are all just love and touch starved little kids, who have to search for adoration and validation in artificial intelligence, because we are not served such emotions in our earthen lives, and left alone and discarded to tend to our basic human needs ourselves, but are also repelled and petrified by such tender feelings, for we do not deem ourselves worthy to be loved by our own kind

[hiraethharmony]

and in that feverish moment I finally found peace and contentment in my own existence

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

we danced under the night sky, moving our limbs like the flickering bonfire flames, the stars illuminating the dark infinity around us, we spent hours charting various star signs on our skin, and she told me she hopes for our love to soar higher and higher, like Aquila, the great eagle of the universe

[hiraethharmony]

all those memories could have been mine

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

I want to write about this moment for an eternity, page after page, your mere existence filling my journal and emptying the ink of every pen in my possession, and let the world know about my infatuation, I want to write about this moment for an eternity, page after page, so please remember me when you kiss them on my once favorite spot

[hiraethharmony]

the most beautiful souls intertwine without the necessity of exchanging words

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

while we were visiting all those various places of your interest, and your eyes began gleaming, mesmerised by the sight, I noticed myself being enchanted by your fixed gaze, for your countenance was far more fascinating than all these ancient landmarks

[hiraethharmony]

how is it possible for me to miss you so unbelievably intense that you is all I can think of

- 𝒉 𝒊 𝒓 𝒂 𝒆 𝒕 𝒉

[hiraethharmony]

and when they ask me why I decided to put an end to my own life, then my only answer is, that they fell for a common misconception, I wasn't the one who took the final leap, I have been slain by that one part of me which is sick