hesgomorrah

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man this guy is my favourite character (throws rocks at him) (throws rocks at him) (throws rocks at him) (throws rocks at him (thr

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Yes I like fictional characters a very normal amount. Don’t look at my blog.

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"The creator definitely didn't put that much thought into it" well then clearly someone else has to and I think I'm the weirdo for the job

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we need 15-20 episode seasons again these limited series have the worst pacing in the world and none of the character decisions hold any weight

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[ID: a screenshot of the “Almost Christmas” Ace Attorney meme behind a slightly transparent stock image of an ice cube. End ID.]

it’s defrosting

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me: yeah I'm pretty close to finishing this fic

the fic:

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anyway the actual point of fandom is to inspire each other. reading each other's fics and admiring each other's art and saying wow i love this and i feel something and i want to invoke this in other people, i want to write a sentence that feels like a meteor shower, i want to paint a kiss with such tenderness it makes you ache, i want to create something that someone else somewhere will see it and think oh, i need to do that too, right now. i am embracing being a corny cunt on main to say inspiring each other is one of the things humanity is best at and one of the things fandom is built for and i think that's beautiful

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if you want to get better at drawing then you need to get obsessed with a freaky little character and draw them a billion times

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salamander working late at the hungarian presidential palace

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we can’t project onto The Character our way out of this one, boys

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The nod and smile is what kills me. Jennifer's Body who?

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i really enjoy reading the doctor as an experiment in queer masculinity. he very often appears to be conventionally masculine on first appearances - but so often he subverts that. he can be violent, but he's against killing; he strives for peace, and remains a hero. he espouses kindness, compassion, acceptance - he's a scientist, not a military man. he keeps an open mind, and encourages understanding, even for that which most people think of as disgusting. he sees a dying insect, monstrous to human eyes, lethal to human bodies, and considers it beautiful. he dresses in a traditionally masculine manner, and yet his clothes are almost always a strange mix of styles, or several decades out of date. he's deeply rooted in victorian/edwardian fashion, which often just has the effect of turning him into a gay magician. he's often a towering, six-foot-plus, deep-voiced Authority Figure, and yet he is so gentle. sometimes he's queer in that he loves men, and kisses men, as someone adjacent to masculinity (true of practically all of his incarnations from eight onwards); sometimes he's queer in that he loves everyone, regardless of gender; sometimes he's queer in that he doesn't love anyone, and is an aromantic or asexual figure; sometimes he's queer in that he's detached from human or time lord understandings of gender; sometimes he's queer as in queer, as in weird. he's flamboyant. he's eccentric. he's your gay uncle. he can regenerate into bodies which humans are quick to identify as female, but throughout it all he seems to carry some vague inner sense of identifying with masculinity, but rejecting it in its conventional form. the doctor is queer, yes, capable of expressing himself in a whole array of ways, but more than that, he's queer and masculine. and i love that.

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Me showing my mutuals from one fandom a blorbo from another fandom knowing damn well they dgaf:

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Showing up for my shift at the sexualizing those old men factory

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my grandpa died serving in the cunt wars

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i sit down to write and suddenly i am the most distracted human alive. the chair is uncomfortable. my coffee is too hot. my playlist isn't quite the vibe. i need to research what victorian houses smelled like in 1872 for exactly 45 minutes even though my story takes place in space. and yet the moment i'm trying to fall asleep? every single sentence i've ever needed just lines up perfectly in my brain like some kind of creative parade i'll never get back.