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@yiiiiiiiikes25 tagged me to share a last line, and as per, nothing makes sense without the other stuff that goes with it, so a few grafs of original writing that uni depression is forcing out of me (because my dronarry is on pause till 01/02):

'22 / The children's library did bibliotherapy. The night before my interview, blurry-eyed on Wikipedia, ...uses an individual's relationship to the content of books and poetry and other written words as therapy... my stewing resentment that therapy-speak had profaned reading, too, papered over with a corporate smile. I came in, three days a week, to shelve books by "emotion". Anger, grief, excitement, jealousy, but also— a failure of vocabulary, imagination, the premise of categorisation, or all three— sexuality, family, bullying, disability, divorce, responsibility. Abuse. Idyllic on LinkedIn and my resumé: summer volunteer, children's library, logistical assistance and holistic support. A ridiculous existential headache otherwise: how to disentangle grief and divorce? Does a ten-year-old boy trying on his mother's sari fit in gender, selfhood or bullying? Advice from the supervisor I didn't meet in person even once all three months: don't overthink it! We trust your judgment. Last week, my boyfriend threw the last of the beer in the fridge at my face because I pissed him off, I've already forgotten how. I still get wet for him every night. My best friend said I'd be a terrible mother, don't do that to innocent children, they'll run away from home once they're old enough. I sprinkled baking soda on my eggs today and ate them anyway. Too broke to waste breakfast. To my supervisor, alright, thank you, I'll do my best! Are you open to new shelves, by the way? I was considering "shame".

@kamaela, @desertforestfic, @twnkwlf-writes double tag, @noctiloucous whatcha got (if you've done it, do it again, i want to peek)

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i write, sometimes

thank you @citrusses for the tag!

how many works do you have on ao3? 17

what's your total ao3 word count? 234k (since WHEN)

your top 5 stories by kudos? — all drarry

you are safe (i know) (e, 42.5k)

though your world is changing (e, 16k)

it's you (e, 1.2k)

dinner and diatribes (e, 4.8k)

my hands are of your colour (e, 8k)

do you respond to comments? i... try

what's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending? ebyt is the obvious answer, but i think my other bite-sized mcd is sadder: nothing to declare here (t, 1k)

what's the fic you've written with the happiest ending? in retrospect, most of my endings are kind of fucked up, and i think dinner and diatribes is simplest in its offering of stable love & care.

do you write crossovers? i don't, it doesn't really interest me, but never say never!

have you ever received hate on a fic? though your world is changing often gets me called an infidelity apologist (uh.) + everyone seems to hate harry in that one (fair fucks). ebyt sometimes gets some "but WHY didn't they just TALK, author?" (fair, but also. uh.) nothing egregious, though

do you write smut? copying cits: often, and with great joy

have you ever had a fic stolen? couple uploaded to goodreads to be rated, but not wholesale thieving that i know of

have you ever had a fic translated? not yet, but huge shoutout to translators out there, it's such a labour of love and access!

have you ever co-written a fic before? no, and i don't know if i could? but again, never say never!

what's your all-time favorite ship? stupid wizard boys (pynch comes v close though)

what's a wip that you want to finish but don't think you ever will? i love all my wips! i don't want to relegate any to the "never finish" category. my 50s/60s drarry photography fic is probably the most de-prioritised one right now? there's also a storyboard i once made for a case-fic where chef!draco is framed (or is he?) for poisoning the british minister during a diplomatic visit to romania, but that's really not a wip, i never put a word of that on the page. inspiration is a flighty thing though, who knows when it'll strike for what

what are your writing strengths? uh. uh? don't know how to judge this myself, but i think atmosphere is what i care for most & have sharpened skills to write accordingly

what are your writing weaknesses? many, but i suck at narrative humour especially, which is a travesty because i'd really like to write situational hilarity. also REALLY struggle with dialogue

what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? i haven't done this yet & don't know if i'd feel super comfortable if i didn't have some familiarity with the language (though if a fic calls for it, i'd do my best to approach someone who does know the language to help me out). i might use the indian languages i know (hindi & bangla) if i ever write the india sequence follow-up to my erised, and my werewolf anti-ministry wip might put my very rudimentary german to use at some point. i do love it when a fic uses different languages to serve a narrative/experiential purpose though!

what's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to? trc! i'd love to write a pynch fic someday, once i've done a reread of the original four.

what's your favorite fic you've ever written? the dronarry fest fic i'm currently writing has been quite fun and new, the jeddy fic i'm currently writing also exorcises some nasty demons and is a delight to work on. i don't know if anything in my already published stuff really qualifies as a favourite (they either signal really difficult periods in my life and/or just aren't up to my current standards), but nothing to declare here, again, was short, sad & experimental, and close to four years later, i wouldn't change much about it.

i don't know who's done this, but paging @flightspathfic, @kamaela, @desertforestfic, @sleepstxtic, @phoebe-delia to tell me everything. and if you have already done it, let me know in the comments so i can go peer in your windows.

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@flightspathfic tagged me to make first-date small talk—

last song: neil young's harvest moon, tried & true love story inspiration soundtrack

favourite colour: most greens, some blues, sparing conditional reds

last movie: city of god (slammed me headfirst into concrete)

last tv show: house rewatch, it was three years ago

sweet/savoury/spicy: raw chillies are an excellent snack

relationship status: [people screaming, sirens in the back]

last thing i googled: "ai crime" & i feel like i have to explain i was looking for instances where ai was used to commit crimes.

current obsession: "worst books of 2024" youtube videos

looking forward to: getting time to read.

open tag, if u see this & want to play, consider yourself paged, i'm busy nodding at flightsy across a table

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dearest @garagepaperback tagged me on this feral little flintwood snip to share a last line while i was already on the gdocs grind. the latest from james/teddy being awful:

The needy, clinging dark leaches shape and detail until the straining body under him— tousled curls, muscled shoulders, divot of fragile spine— could be another, could be— Teddy, please, please— fucking damn it. He grips the hair curling at the nape, drags— him— up, bowstring tight and reachable, whispers shut the fuck up so close to the soft whorl of ear that his next instinct is to bite and hold until the scream— wrong, so fucking wrong, too high, too pleading— erupts; a loud excuse to twist and push until James’ open, leaking, stupid little mouth is buried in the duvet. Muted, perfect. “One thing you’re good for,” pushing in where James, the slut, is still holding himself open through it, “and it isn’t fucking talking.”

not a line, but i wrote this graf in a single breath, so. no pressure paging @yiiiiiiiikes25 @citrusses @desertforestfic @twnkwlf @flightspathfic @sleepstxtic @kamaela + anyone who sees this and wants to play to share the last of whatever's been added and/or marinating.

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master list

welcome back. did you miss me?

here is the kinkuary 2025 master list. here is a link to the collection on ao3. it will open sometime in the evening of january 31.

a few notes:

the collection is unmoderated and i am not reading each individual entry. please be mindful of your fellow participants and tag and warn as is appropriate!

this is a pan-fandom event. all pairings from all fandoms are welcome, no exceptions. no anti nonsense will be tolerated, and if you see any please send me a note so i can ban that person from participating.

there are no minimum participation requirements for this event. you can do some, all, or none, and the prompt fills don't have to be posted the day of—this is just a guideline to hopefully help spark your creativity in a tough month of the year! in the past, people have even combined multiple prompts for one larger work. whatever you want! just try to keep the theme in mind.

leave comments! we all do our best to write for ourselves, but communities are only as strong as the participants. i hope we all work hard to lift each other up, especially this year!

and finally—this is an 18+ only event. no exceptions.

happy writing!

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Nashville

May 2023

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editing ebyt & what IS this fic, why did i have the emotional wherewithal to write it

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GIDEON AND CAM BABEEEYYYY FOR @tltfashionzine

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A god named John 🧔🏽‍♂️

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girls dorm bathroom before the banquet !

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pov you are parrish's least liked coworker and you just said something dead stupid

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I love this trope so fucking much never gets old

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his smile is like the sun

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It Boy

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sketchy harry before bed 😘