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Poison

With every grunt, every groan, every mumbled breath. I’m grow stronger. Attempting to break me down will only hinder you, when you’re alone and I’m free.

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Pot, Meet Kettle. [draft one]

You cannot leave a full sink of dishes even if you haven't dirtied a single one. Don't develop bad habits. Drugs are bad. Smoking causes cancer. Alcohol makes you fall down. Don't talk back. Don't raise your voice. Make good choices. Be responsible with your money. Don't judge others. Complaining gets you nowhere, take action. Stay healthy, don't avoid the doctor. Gifts aren't important, it's the thought that counts. It's okay to take other peoples shit. You're expected to have no backbone. Enjoy your life as a doormat.

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A Love Redefined [draft one]

Butterflies in the stomach, and sweaty palms to boot. This rush of excitement won't fade if it's real. The right words are hard to find, especially when lips are connected. Rosy pink cheeks and nervous laughter when two hands reach for the bill. Maybe it's a first meeting, or perhaps a re-connection. That spark ignites quickly though and the heart can't beat fast enough. Then the time comes for the famous "I do", and tears fall past smiling lips when the couple is pronounced wife and wife.

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Opposite Day

It's not opposite day.

     You suck.

     You're ugly.

I can't stand your laugh.

     You're mean.

     You're the devil.

I despise the way you dance.

     You're gross.

     You smell horrid.

Please never drunk dial me at three a.m.

     You're weak.

     You're a coward.

I don't ever want to be yours.

     Not now.

     Not forever.

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The Succubus

You'll never know the pain,

from hearing a simple song.

You won't get how I feel,

each time that movie is on.

Even my perfume,

is tainted by a thought.

It was money down the drain,

to send you what I bought.

My heart is not yours,

even if I wanted such fate.

With time try to move on,

and with more succubi, mate.

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Happy Birthday

Attempting to forget is hard.

Each year, like a favorite song,

you repeat.

Growing older should help things fade,

but the growing numbers feed you.

You're still here.

In the fall while most things die out,

I'm flourishing in the colors.

The winter is bad.

You're reborn out of order.

No matter how hard I fight it,

from the ice you rise.

I tell myself I've grown,

that your hold is gone.

But it can't be true

knowing that when I blow out the candles,

the first thing on my mind

Is you.

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Memory- Free Write

[The basic idea was to write a stream of conscious about some memory that had recently come back into your mind in a vivid manner. This was mine.]

Well, being that my birthday is right around the corner, one specific person/memory jumps right to the front of my skull. I was the one who waited until just past midnight to tell her, then it wouldn't be a cliche Valentines confession. But, it did make it my birthday. Since then, I always look back and take a note of how happy I was with that specific outcome but I'm also reminded of how much I've since grown and learned more of who I am. I hate that she's a reoccurring memory but big moments in life when you're slapped with who you really are aren't exactly easy to forget. With these memories I still ask myself if I'm really over everything and I'm sure I am. I guess I'm just not used to the nature of having time to think about actual important things over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over.

{sidenote} I'm mad that she and all this is still even relevant enough to come out in this exercise.

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Inner Critic

My inner critic has a cocky smirk that never fades. She mirrors me as far as looks and such, but the arrogance is some type of unfading chi that she wears no matter the day. Her voice isn't loud or angry by any sense but mean in the way she is so sure I can do so much better. With each typo I produce and every word I stutter, she grows stronger, more confident in how right she is. Of course she doesn't have a flawless win streak. There are times my own confidence muscles over her. Even though her track record looks better on paper, I know my own victories far surpass anything she could ever throw at me. Mind over matter isn't always one hundred percent true.

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Los[s]t

There was no goodbye,

I was left with just tears.

These memories in my head?

They'll play on for years.

No card game the same.

No more grinding gears.

Learning of God,

You soothed all my fears.

I know now I'll be confident

for when He appears.

It just sucks that you're gone,

but here's a small cheers.

Promise me when I kick it

We'll share a few beers.

I'm never going to forget you.

Frigadiggy reveres.

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Buying Time

The money's been made,

     the bills finally all paid.

No more heart stopping phone calls

     it took time, but I grew the balls.

Fear for me is virtually gone,

     everyone knows, no conclusions drawn.

The worry and panic?

     Basically nothing, no more feelin' sick.

One thing that does suck, though

     is that it's all still here.

The questions, the sweaty palms, the fear.

     Such a dream would taste so sweet,

but I've got inner and outer demons that

     I must first beat.

So for now I'll tread on, it's all I can do.

     But wait, is that a coffee? I'll buy that, too.

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Arizona

I did it, I'm here.

My heart and head still pound with cheer.

Today has been good, tonight will be swell.

Thank Heavens above I am free

from that hell.

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Roots

I am me thanks to you.

The laughs.

The car rides.

The shoulder when I needed one.

I became me because of you.

The sarcasm.

The secrets.

The nights you weren't home.

I am myself, as you are yourself.

The habits.

The health concerns.

The way we deal with hard times.

I will still be me even after you.

New home.

New memories.

New ways to prove you did good.

I'm good.

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Apology Poem

[for lack of a better title, that was the prompt and this was the product]

Sometimes it hurts,

Or maybe even expected.

Regardless, it's bullshit,

Really only when it comes from

You