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CHAPTER 5

First day at Uniqlo

My dearest confused hearts, I am so sorry for a long pause. I am actually in the South of France. So let's get back to the story!

On my first day I was so nervous. We were 10 at the time and the first day passed fast, because we only had kinda reunion. For 7h we were listening to the office team about UNIQLO, what is their plan, what they want to achieve and who they are looking for. It was pretty exciting at that moment. The next they we were introduced to AP's, Advanced Partners. Yep, in UNIQLO there is a hierarchy, PN - Shop Assistants, AP, SV - Supervisors and after there are levels of Managers starting from J1, J2 etc... Also the important thing in France is the contract. You have CDI - Full Time and CDD - Part Time, fun fact - if you will get CDI it is almost impossible for you to get fired ahaha

So like I said, we were introduced to few AP's who were supposed to train us. Guess what, they introduced me to my AP which was vietnamese and couldn't speak english at all... I had no idea that my lie will catch me that fast ! The AP's were training us in the stocks few weeks before we were allowed to start on the shop floor. I was pretty happy about that fast, because I couldn't speak french at all. The training was pretty intense, I won't lie, but I was not tired at all. I kinda liked this adrenaline and speed. Finally, they decided that it's a time for us to start in the shop. They said that I will work on the 1F, First floor - men's section, probably because it was the smallest floor and the easiest one for someone who doesn't understand what anybody is talking to them haha In the Flagship Store we have BF - Basement Floor, GF - Grand Floor and 1F. I was introduced to my team, because in the shop usually you are staying all the time on the same floor. I was scared and happy in the same time, because actually my team of around 15 people was amazing. There were 3 managers, 2 girls and 1 guy. Few SV's and AP's and there rest was us, PN's.Little I knew that this people will play a huge part in my life! I started to have a lot of positive energy, because I thought that everything will be better now. My relation with J was on the rocks a little bit and I was really scared about the job, so I thought that now everything will be ok. For 2 month's of period time, I was running like crazy, trying to do everything in the perfect way and I was all the time smiling. I really wanted them to keep me ! I was so focused on the job that I didn't even really know peoples names yet! Finally the time came and one of managers and SV's gave me the feedback: " You have so much energy, you are so positive and you are always running so fast! We are happy to tell you that you are accepted for CDI - permanent full time contract !" Seriously, at that moment I wanted to dance like crazy. Now it was a time to get to know better my team and teams from other floors and ... oh my... I was overwhelmed by what happened from that moment!!!

Stay with me longer my lovely confused hearts!

The love story is going to start from this moment !

Sending you all a lot of warm kisses from South of France !

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Christmas in Paris

Welcome back my confused hearts!!!

Let’s get back to the story ! So, like I mentioned before, I was excited to go back again to Paris. I was even more excited at the fact that I will be able to spend Christmas and New Years Eve in the city of love. It was a special time, because J family is jewish. We spent an amazing time together and the New Years Eve went well. He showed me the Christams Market on Champs Elysees and we talked a lot about our future. In some point he said to me “I love you and I don’t want to be far away from you. Please, stay with me and find a job in Paris!”. I was shocked, scared and happy at the same time. So, what did I do? I went back to Warsaw, I found a girl on my place to rent the flat, I packed my bags and say bye to my BFFs.... Yes, I decided to do something totally crazy. It was the 1st of March 2017 when I moved to Paris. Honestly, it was not that easy. I didn’t speak the language, I was staying in J’s appartment with his whole family and I didn’t know anybody. The harsh reality hit me that in this amaizing city not a lot of people are speaking english. I started to send the resumes everywhere, but all the time I was getting a question “Can you speak french?”. Well, I know that it’s really bad to move to the country where you can’t speak in their language, so I am not trying to blame anyone but myself here. Finally, the local restaurant asked me to come and even without the knowledge they proposed me a “trial day”. Honestly, it was a disaster... It was really hard for me to understand anything what they were saying and this they was super busy. So many clients and only 1 other waitress besides of me. After the shift they said that they are missing few euros, so they took the whole tips that I got that day. They said goodbye to me and I have never heard from them again. Actually, I am very happy that they didn’t take me in. You could say that it was a destiny, because after this experience J told me to apply to UNIQLO, clothing brand. He told me that he is shopping there very often and sometimes he was talking to the sales assistants that could not speak french. So, I have it a try! Guess what, they called me and asked me to come for the interview! I was so excited! I went there without the preparation. I was wearing the casual clothes and I was feeling relaxed. When I entered the building I was so shocked. It was very big, elegant and there was a lot of people in elegant clothes waiting for the same interview. I was talking to myself “Stupid, stupid! Why you didn’t very something more serious?!”. Well, it was already too late haha So they asked me to enter a very small room and there was only one women that was very beautiful and had the most amazing hair. She looked like Charlie’s Angel. She started to talk to me in french. Of course I couldn’t speak french at that time, so I was just smiling a lot. In some point she asked me what languages I can speak. I said to her that I can speak english, polish and a little bit of vietnamese ( actually it was a lie, I can’t speak at all vietnamese). At the end she asked me if I can understand french. Well, of course I said “oui”. She looked at me and saying that this would be all. I was really scared and sad, but I was like “I will not give up! I came here to start a new life!”. I came back to J’s home and.... I got a call... “Congratulations! You were accepted to start working as sales assistant in our store. You will sign the contract on 21st of April.”. Guess what, it was all in french, so I didn’t understand anything what she was saying, but I was smart enough to record the whole conversation and say “oui” all the time. After the call I went to see J’s mom and when she heard the message she just told me “You got the job!”. I could feel in my soul that something big is going to happen. 

To know more you need to stick with me a little bit longer and yes it will be BIG!!!

Sending a lot of love my confused hearts!

See you again soon!

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Hello Paris

Welcome back my confused heart. I missed you all a lot! Time to go back to my crazy stories with french guys.

Like I said the last time, I packed my bags and rushed to the airport with my heart on my sholder. I didn’t know what to expect and what I am really doing with my life. The only thing I knew for sure is that I bought a ticket for a week in Paris. When I landed in the airport in Beauvais I was excited and stressed. I was picked up by polish company, because the airport is around 2h away from the center. On my way there I literally needed to fix my shining face 5 times, I was that scared. When I got out from the car at Port de Maillot, next to Champs Elysees I got a message from... let’s not use the real names for now... Jean that he will be late. Ahh little did I know at that time that apparently it’s normal with french people. So I waited around 2h at Port de Maillot rethinking my life choices and being scared if he will pick me up for sure. Finally, after a long time waiting I saw him... My heart started to play serenade in 2x tempo. We were so shy together and we just hugged in a very clumsy way. We went to the car where his friend was waiting, Louis. We had another 1h drive to his home. On the way I saw the sparkling Eiffle Tower. It was such a beautiful view! At his home I met his parents and his brother, I also found out that I will be sleeping in his room with his younger brother, Leo. On the first night, he took my for the ride on his motorbike. He showed me the cute places in Paris and we had a glass of wine in a cosy bar. It was like in a romantic movie. We were looking into each others eyes, we talked about all our secrets, we kissed pasionately. I was falling hard for him and Paris. The funny thing was that for the third date he took me to... kebab place! Apparently his friends couldn’t believe that he actually took me there. I discovered a lot of new places and things with him. It was also the first time that I smoked. I never smoked even cigarettes in my life, so I was a little bit scared, but it was an interesting experience. One day, he took me to Sacré-Cœur, where we visited the basement. He took his keys and he wrote on the wall our names in heart. He said that maybe one day I will come back with my new boyfriend and I would smile seeing it. I was pretty sad when he said that, but I didn’t show it. After coming back to his place we talked and he said that actually he didn’t mean it and he said “I love you, please stay longer”. I was so happy to be with him, so... we changed the date on my ticket to stay 1 week longer. I was feeling so good with him and everything was so romantic and beautiful. Finally, I needed to get back to Poland, because I had my appartment there and I was supposed to start looking for a job. Before I left he asked me to come back in December to spend Christmas and New Years Eve with him and his family. Well,... you don’t need to convince me twice! Before I landed in my city I already had a ticket to Paris, again ! 

Sending you all a lot of love and thank you for sticking with me!

More about crazy stories with french guys with come soon!

Kisses my confused hearts!

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How it all started part 2

My sweet confused hearts, time for another part of the drama story in my life.

So, where did we finished? Ah yeah, with a smile from a handsome guy! That’s right, it started very interesting. So after exchanging the smile with a guy I just went my way to enjoy my free beer and dancing alone in a crowded club. I did not wait for along time when the secret guy came to me with a sexy smile like Chuck Bass and start to talk to me. He was really cute and he was killing me with his deep eyes, but I was thinking “I am done with guys. Everyone are the same and I am already stuck in a toxic relationship in Poland, so I don’t want to start anything again!”. Luckly, my half sister came to us, so I introdust them and I said that he is a french guy. I was hoping that maybe something will happen between them and I left to dance alone next to the bar. Not even 5 min later and he was again next to me. I asked him what happened and he responded “I told your half sister that she is cute, but I am more interested in you than other girls in here”. Before I even knew he looked at me, pushed me delicately torward bar and kissed me so passionately that I thought I would faint in the spot. I am not jocking right now, I saw fireworks in my mind. Everything stopped and I thought that this moment will change my life forever... I will not spoil you guys, but it actually did !!! After some time their friends came by and they said that they need to go back to the hotel, because they will go to China the next day. I felt like he didn’t really want to go with them... How can I know that? Because his friends needed to come to us 3 times until they finally took him by force! Before he left, he asked me for my facebook contact. After that he kissed me one more time and said that he needs to see me again in Paris. This all happened in August 2016

Pushing forward buttom.... We texted with each other non stop after that, we also had few video calls. At that time I was still in Vietnam. Few months passed and I was supposed to go back to Poland on the beginning of November. I was feeling so great talking to him so I decided to do something totally crazy.... When I landed in my city in Poland, I packed again my bags and rushed to the airport with a ticket to Paris.... but the rest you all will find out later.

Thank you for sticking with me ! Whoever is interested already.... let me tell you. You have no idea what is coming next!

Wish you all a great day my sweet confused hearts!

Kisses from Paris 

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How it all started...

Dear everyone who are interested in the whole weird stories that happened in my life.... sorry for the long pause. It was the weekend of Saint Valentin so obviously I just did not have time to go on my laptop in secret and start typing. Thats right, this tumblr is going to be our secret! So, let’s get it started.

My life started to change like crazy in the summer of 2016. I just finished my 5 years long studies and I was ready to do something crazy. I had no idea what I want to do in the future, I didn’t even know where I would like to work. The only sure thing in my life was that I had a ticket to Vietnam to see my dad. At that moment, I was stuck in the toxic relationship with my best friend, so I was more than happy to just leave my country, Poland, and go on the adventure. Having this in mind, I packed my bags, put on a big sparkling hat on my head, grabbed my high heels and run to the airport. When I finally got there my dad told me that the first week will be very busy for me. I was suffering from jetlag, landed in Ho Chi Minh City at 6am and we were supposed to go to the biggest Food Expo in Asia. Well... let’s just say that I was not able to go and I slept almost all day. The next day I was full of energy and ready to work! It was such a fun experience, because I met so many kind people. When I was in Poland I was sad, feeling unloved, unseen and unwanted and in less than 2 days I felt happy, seen and wanted. People were coming to me with a big smile on their faces, they wanted to talk about everything and anything. The expo lasted 4 days and it was hard to stand for 10h straight, but I was excited just being there. On the last day of the expo I was feeling weird, but in a good way. It was like if I would drink the liquid luck from Harry Potter. I new exactly what to do and that whatever will happen I would be so happy. So I decided to check on the internet the nightclubs in Ho Chi Minh City. I never went to one in Vietnam, I was 26 years old at that time, but my father was very protective over me. So I started to search the parties and the first nightclub that showed up was actually the very famous club for the people from around the world in the center of the city. I was even more lucky, because that day, it was thursday, they had a black and white party that is offering the free entrance and the free drinks for the women. I did not hesitate a second and I asked my dad to go and he said yes! So I took my half sister, 21, with me and around 11pm we were already there. The club was not so big, but the music was good and people were crazy there. We were dancing all night, smiling, laughing. In one moment I even lost my half sister and the security guys were so nice that they protected me from the crowd and they started to help me looking for her. I thought in my head that this is one of the best day of my life and while I was waiting for the drink and dancing like I was the only person in the club, I felt that someone is looking at me. I started to look around I saw a guy. He had a short dark hair, brown eyes and beard with mustache. He was a very handsome guy and he was staring at me so intensively that I felt like he is staring directly into my soul. When he saw that I looked back at him, he smiled and he raised his glass in my way. I did the same thing and responded with a big smile... 

Well, that’s not even the half of the story from that night, but I will let the rest for another day!

Hope you all will enjoy joining me on this trip down memory lane, because let me tell you... it will be a big romantic drama and I am not talking about Sex and the city or Dynasty drama. I am talking about argentina tv show drama kinda thing.

Stay tuned for mor from your Confused Heart. 

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Opening up my confused heart

Hello everyone who are as confused in this world as I am. 

Few years ago I decided to pack my bags and move to Paris, France. I did not speak the language and I did not have any friends or family here. I did it for... love of course. Pretty crazy, right? I decided to create this tumblr account thanks to my friends. They said that, because of my kinda weird experience with people, especially guys, they are more aware of ‘what could happen between two people that like each other’. This first though will not be so long. What I want to say is that I will try to upload daily and tell you all, whoever is even interested in it, my crazy love/drama experience in the city of love. 

Stay tuned and safe everyone!

Sending lots of love, my sweet confused hearts!