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I just wanted to say I’m done with this blog!! Love all my mutuals I’ve just lost interest in this blog as I spend more and more time away from it <3

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i need people to understand the difference between fem and femme. i am not just “feminine” or “masculine,” i am a femme. i am traditionally feminine in a way that exists outside of everything it means to be traditionally feminine— outside of men, outside of the patriarchy, outside of heterosexual concepts of gender entirely. my gender identity is femme, my lifestyle is femme, my very being is femme. i revolve around butches and other femmes and other lesbians in general and it is so much more than just femininity.

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This is a reminder to:

Never mention a possible pregnancy/abortion to anyone, especially not through a social media app messaging service such as messenger, WhatsApp, Instagram DMs, Snapchat, etc.

Delete all period tracking apps and to start tracking using a planner or physical calendar

Book appointments for a form of birth control if possible, or to always carry condoms for yourself and other

Look into sterilization options if that is the route you want to go down (here is a list of 1000 doctors willing to sterilize you without a fight)

Protect your fellow person, protect the women in your life, the queer people, the disabled people, everyone will be affected by this

Form communities. Tell your people that you love them. Protect one another. Check in on one another. None of us are alone.

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a non-exhaustive list of butch literature

a (very ad-hoc) list of butch reading and writing, (mostly) by butch authors. books I've read myself in bold; take the rest with a grain of salt. additions, addendums, and commentary welcome :)

general/literary fiction:

mrs s by k patrick

stone butch blues by leslie feinberg

boulder by eva baltasar

running fiercely towards a thin high sounds by judith katz

tipping the velvet by sarah waters

a crystal diary by frankie hucklenbroich

godspeed by lynn breedlove

cha-ching! by ali liebegott

the ihop papers by ali liebegott

greasepaint by hannah levene

lucy and mickey by red jordan arobateau

the bull-jean stories by sharon bridgforth

development by bryher

notes of a crocodile by qui miaojin

america is not the heart by elaine castillo

the slow fix by ivan coyote

the swashbuckler by lee lynch

old dyke tales by lee lynch

sci-fi, fantasy, and horror:

gideon the ninth by tamsyn muir

the unspoken name by ak larkwood

vermilion by molly tanzer

metal from heaven by august clarke

scapegracers by ha clarke

the unbroken by cl clarke

fire logic by laurie marks

non-fiction, memoir, and autobiography:

hijab butch blues by lamya h

gender failure by ivan coyote and rae spoon

fun home by allison bechdel

butch is a noun by h bear bergman

female masculinity by jack halberstam

burning butch by rb murtz

when we were outlaws by jeanne cordova

leaving isn't the hardest thing by lauren hough

odd girls and twilight lovers by lillian faderman

boots of leather, slippers of gold by elizabeth lapovsky and madeline davis

the persistent desire ed joan nestle

persistence: all way butch and femme ed ivan coyote and zena sharman

dagger: on butch women ed lily burana

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butch little spoon. rblg if u agree.

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Hello, I'm Hanan I write to you with a heart weighed down by sorrow and embarrassment.😓

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i do not want to hear SHIT about how "jinx is a better big sibling than vi and vi sucked." jinx is going to be a good older sister because she had a good older sister end of discussion

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Maddie being introduced as this literal ray of sunshine and then being the first to beat along to Piltovers turn to martial law. Her interactions with Vi mystifying her as “one of the good ones.” One of the good Zaunites. She was always discriminatory toward Zaunites, they just didn’t make it overt at her introduction. The turn to fascism and discrimination can start with anyone. Including a literal ray of sunshine.

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This is the most nsfw thing I’ll talk about on this account, but some of you really need to get it into your head that sex is not the only thing that goes into butchfemme dynamics.

Asexual butches/femmes are valid

Butch bottoms are valid

Butch tops are valid

Under 18 butches/femmes are valid

Sex is an important aspect of these kind of identities, but it is not the be all end all and some of you subconsciously do not realise that

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you HAVE to expand what your mental image of what a woman looks like in order to progress past trans/misogyny and intersexism. when you finally accept that "woman" does not have a set look or sound, you free yourself from the chains of both patriarchy and radfem ideals. "woman" does not mean thin, pretty, hairless, short, quiet, large breasted, hour glass figured, weak, submissive, high voiced, or small.

women can and do look, act, and sound like anything. cis, intersex, trans, butch, non binary, gender non conforming, detrans, or anything else: any woman can look, act and sound like anything. we are just as diverse as any other member of this population. in order to acknowledge this, we must let go of the concept that a woman "should" look, act, or sound like anything.

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Possessive, jealous Sevika rotates in my brain like a rotisserie chicken

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Sevika who has a vibration option on her mechanical arm :((((

“Sevvvv, oh my- fuck- Sevik- kaaaa!” You tell out with a hand holding onto her metal arm, trying to pull it off of you.

She’s not going to be swayed by your nearly incoherent pleas for mercy on your overstimulated clit. Her face remains stoic, with the exception of a little smirk that’s crept its way onto her face.

“Aw baby, too much?” She doesn’t even try to sound empathetic, almost like she’s actively trying to sound unmoved while watching you come apart in front of her.

You weren’t even able to come up with any words in that head of yours, let alone actually speak. So you don’t even try. You should’ve known that wouldn’t have gone well. She removes her mech arm from your crotch and uses her other hand to slap your sore pussy. Making you scream out, reaching down to stop her but she easily overpowers you.

“I asked you a question, whore.” She basically spits in your face. You look up at her, about to speak. Just as you start your sentence, she places her mech arm right back where it belongs.

“Yes it’s- ohh myyy go-!”

She can’t help but chuckle at your attempt.

You fist your hands into the sheets of the bed you’re on, a gesture she knows too well. You’ve given up trying to stop her.

About time, she thinks to herself. Giving you a small kiss on your temple to reward you.

I’m writing this in the library at school

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𐙚 caitlyn; and the way she takes care of you.

sex with caitlyn is always gentle. her hands slowly trace invisible pictures into your hips as she eats you out. slow, yet eager kitten licks onto your clit, causing you to let out a small whimper. she always lets you cum whenever you want, no need for begging, or whining until you get what you want. caitlyn’s voice is always gentle, a simple ask of, ‘are you okay love?’, or even, ‘you’re doing so good for me’. she doesn’t let the jerk of your hips, or even your pussy clenching in overstimulation stop her from making you feel good. however, when she knows that you’ve truly had enough, she presses a small kiss to your cunt— a silent thank you for being so so good for her. she’ll look up at you with nothing but love for you, eager to make you feel good some more.

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FAT BUTCHES!!! fat butches your hands are so attractive!!!! fat butches your body is desirable!!!! fat butches your fatness IS attractive!!! fat butches you should be praised and worshipped every single day of your lives!!!! fat butches you are perfect the way you are!!! fat butches you are some femmes DREAM butch!!!! fat butches if nobody told you today, i love you and you are so so beautiful, please NEVA feel anything less than that and NEVA let anybody make u feel less than attractive!

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Glad to see more people are starting to talk about the problem of young lesbians calling themselves femmes and only meaning this in terms of aesthetics.

Reminding y’all that feminine /= femme

You cannot be femme and fetishise or use butches and studs.

You cannot be femme and take advantage of their chivalry and kindness and ignore their emotion just because they struggle to be vulnerable.

You cannot be femme and be divorced from our lesbian history, or the level of care and protection that butches and femmes gave to EACH OTHER for survival.

I’ve had some femmes reposting my other post discussing this issue and saying well i’ve had a hard life and if a butch wants to take care of me and do everything for me and i never have to do anything for them that’s fine. I’ve had a hard life too, more than most young lesbians I know who have never had to experience having to leave home as a teenager due to violent homophobia at the hands of a parent and had to push through life with very little support or stability. I have had a hard enough life to know this way of existing in a relationship is not sustainable or healthy, we need to be there for each other, support each other.

Femmes do not have to be weak or infantilise ourselves, we can have weakness, and be vulnerable, but it is blatantly stupid and dangerous to assume or paint ourselves as the only ones who experience this in a butch femme dynamic or relationship. It ignores the fact that butches bear the brunt of homophobic violence for being lesbians and often have no one but themselves for protection.

We owe it to butches to be there for them, to protect and give space for their vulnerability, just as they make us visible and lift us up on the streets and in our communities.

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