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"To die" The only reason why I'm still effortlessly making it through, is the same reason I'm always not showing why. And I makes sense sometimes the only way to not think about it, is to remember that the options are there. Which you might or might not take, with these light instances we then consider those metal carvings. The reason is the motivation that it channels thru you. And when it does, filling your body with that loathsome thought. Fill it, don't try to expel it undo.

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There’s a reason why things happen, I guess this is it.

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I genuinely want to die.

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And I quote others to let my suffer die. When most give in, time will tell them why. And it's with suffocating remorse that I will too wash my body with loathsome stuff. When it chains and keeps from uprising tall. Not I, not one can just become. And when my feathers expand and tickle. I sometimes wonder how she mingles.

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We have been replaced by the incoming seconds of existence between the living mass. Carrying more than we can bear. one again, comes into the population for income of the profitable. Not only in our society but in our space to escape the lingering questions of being.

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"If you have a Tumblr blog, then you're SUICIDAL". - Carlo Marcelo Cabrera

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this is the perfect grade of good luck

reblog in 5 seconds and all of your grades will inch ever closer to perfect

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OK. SUICIDE LEVELS IS AT A 378. WARNING! I have a performance for a dinner, which my group is clearly not prepared with. Stress and anxiety are fucking crawling up my ass.... Which gives reason for me to write this "post" help. Lol I'm going to drop out.(of life)

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Tuesday, January 10 2017 Hate my fucking life. Why did I decide to go into the honors program. Hating all my professors.... MAMA HITLER is really pushing my buttons. And MRS.MATHISSEXY is going to be the biggest distraction in the class. Help me.

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FIRST DAY BACK. 2ND SEMESTER ME: KILLLLLL MYSELF. INNER ME: ALREADY DEAD.

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This would be me as a composer

We all await the day that we see this on our sheet music

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Lmfaooooo what

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when you get turnt to classical music

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Sooooooooooo fucjingggg jealousness

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Day 4: A piece I am currently learning //SHOSTAKOVICH STRING QUARTET NO. 8!!!! My quartet and I worked on the third movement this summer and now we are going to begin the second. I AM SO EXCITED because this is literally one of the most lit pieces of chamber music ever and it’s seriously my dream piece. ((: