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Wait… Did Azzy ghost Crown because they developed an obsession of sorts over Crown ?

Uhhhh, I'd love to be able to give a more detailed answer but *spoilers* the short answer is that the whole Azzy ghosting thing is more complicated than that

Thanks for the question Nonny!

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Me staring at my inbox:

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I genuinely hope Azzy doesn't disappear again after we resolve the misunderstanding. I imagine my MC already having to deal with the fact that he disappeared before he could confess to him, so that when they resolve things, he wants to disappear again. He would definitely freak out. If he doubted it, he would send someone to stalk Azzy to keep an eye on him.

So he and Azzy would be fighting over who is the biggest stalker of each other lol

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Lol, your Crown really saw the messy attachment disaster that is Asterion and said "yep, that's my man".

On the other hand, no need to worry about them disappearing, quite the opposite, obviously there's less content from them if you decide not to romance/reconcile them but they're still there.

But that doesn't mean confession is easy either, lol, Azzy constantly struggles with being obsessed with Crown and being allergic to feelings, sooo good luck Azzymancers!

Tbh, all RO's are stalkers to some extent, I just like to bully my emotionally constipated child.

Thanks for the question Nonny! You made me laugh

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Wait, hold on, rewind. Azzy has been keeping tabs on Crown for the 5 (I think you said 5) years they haven’t spoken ???

How ? Like are they just hearing rumors about Crown in passing or do they have like a web of intelligence that periodically reports on Crowns movements ?

If it’s the latter, does Azzy mother know about it ?

I love it when you guys notice something I said deliberately

Well, actually neither, for the sake of mystery I'll just say that; first, Crown not knowing/being aware of Azzy (cough, cough, their presence) or what they've been doing doesn't mean it's mutual, and for balance because that sounds very stalkerish, Azzy has a lot of joint work with Dellahn because they're heirs and big bro can't help but talk about Crown here and there

Also, as a curious fact, actually such an web of information exists but Azzy doesn't really like to use it, despite being a great gossip, for reasons of force majeure they say, they don't really like rumors

Thanks for the question Nonny!

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Hi, sorry to be a bird of ill omen and especially after such a long silence but real life has been chaos lately, it's been several things but mainly I won't have access to my laptop indefinitely, I'm still writing in my notes but that definitely affects the coding progress. Also, many thanks to the people who volunteered as beta readers and my sincerest apologies for not being able to respond sooner, but well, I'd rather move forward and polish up ch 1 a bit more before anyone else sees it. It is going slower than expected but the project is still alive!

-Sammy

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Hi, haven't you considered having beta readers?

Honestly it's a good idea, it would help me avoid falling into the negativity spiral of believing that everything I write is an insult.

So, here's a call for beta readers/testers (? 🎉

Experience is not necessary but appreciated and obviously confidentiality, interested please send a DM and thanks in advance.

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Hello everyone

So, as embarrassed as I am, the fact that I underestimated the length of the first chapter along with certain real life situations, I will not be able to meet the approximate release date I had previously given for the first chapter, sorry for the inconvenience and I thank you for your understanding.

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Can’t wait for Azzy to run into Crown again just to see how much they’ve glowed up. 😈😎

What’s Crowns reputation across the continent both as a child (since they’re the first baby born looking the way they do) and as a young adult ?

What have the ROs heard about Crown especially what has Azzy heard about them since the years they’ve been apart ? (Besides K since they’re always around crown)

Sorry to disappoint, but it's not really a surprise to Azzy.

The birth of Crown, and how little disguised it was started a wave of babies and small children, and some older ones, not registered so far manifesting as mairuce, maybe it had to do directly with Crown, maybe it was the impunity with which they lived quietly what motivated other parents to stop hiding and their children, but the truth is that even without knowing their name or their baby face Crown is known as the prince/princess mairuce.

What reputation they have when they grow up depends on the choices you make! Crown can be a social butterfly, a withdrawn, a flirt, a passionate expert on a subject or subjects (I was about to say hyperfixations), a diplomatic nightmare or an expert in debates, however there are certain circles where no matter who Crown is personally they are treated a certain way because they are mixed race.

Not that I like to embarrass them (I do) but Azzy is almost aware of Crown as ??? for more justified and less stalking reasons, or so they say, so yeah.

SR is...uh, I don't think I can say anything without spoilers.

Ely is probably the most normal, maybe not just seeing their face, especially with the less sociable Crowns, they may not be able to pinpoint who Crown is but certainly hearing their first name/surname they can remember the most relevant rumors regarding them.

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I LOVE it when characters react to the name you choose! It is so much more immersive, and it makes me feel like the creator(s) really care obviously put a lot of effort into it.

(Of course, the lot of us are all well aware you're putting loads of effort in, and we're all very appreciative of the chance to go on the journey of creation with you! Whatever you choose will be wonderful and the chance to see the thoughts behind your creative choices like this is so cool!!!!!!!)

Glad to hear it, I feel the same way! I love that the world reacts according to who Crown is or what they do, at this point reasonably you can't see it but if I get my way the game will feel like a "what if" of itself.

I also love sharing my creative process, I constantly have to tell myself that I need to shut up and not tell everything, plus I'm a semi tidy writer which means I already have the first letter ??? sends to Crown when it's about ten years into the game before ??? sends it, ha

Thank you very much for your kind words Nonny ‹3

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Hi all, sorry for my lack of activity lately, real life can be a mess and it has consumed much of my time.

Not to bore you with the details let's get down to the nitty gritty, I've said before that names are very important in Aestheria, knowing that, would you like to see/do you think it's relevant that certain characters react to Crown having a traditionally male name if they identify as female or vice versa?

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Describing fundamental laws of how things work in your universe while not quite knowing if it's going to make any sense to anything but your squirrel brain:

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So... Disgust and love at first sight?

More as

Disgust (not necessarily towards Crown) > Intrigue > Familiarity > Admiration > Affection > Love

Each stage may be a little longer or shorter depending on Crown's type but generally speaking this is how you can summarize Azzy's feelings until separation

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What are Azzys thoughts about Crown during their childhood ? I’ll take whatever you can give me that doesn’t cross into spoiler territory.

Thus, with more adolescent panic and denial /hj

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Azzy's portraits!

The reason there is no F! and M! version is that Azzy has pretty much the same face, their mom's, regardless of gender, usually their hair is not hard to deal with but they have this unruly lock in the middle of their forehead that refuses to cooperate.

Their eyes are less blue and more steely, they have a mole under the eye that is not visible because of their hair, and they actually need glasses but never wear them

Extra!

Scandal! Doesn't the prince/princess have that frown tattooed on their face? Do they know how to smile? 🗣️

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Do you do ro reacts

Sure! Although it may take me a while depending on how specific it is/the amount of RO's involved or how spoiler-y it is, but in short, yep!

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I wish that my followers would send asks, and sometimes I get unreasonably worried that they aren't. I know comparison is the thief of joy, and all that, but still- when I see other blogs getting flooded with ones about their characters, their world, the story, my empty box seems a little discouraging. I also know that I'm a newer(relatively) IF, as well as a shorter one, but(and maybe I'm misjudging the amount of an audience that is engaged vs lurking) I feel like I have enough followers that at least a few should want to send stuff? It's just anxiety, but it makes me think sometimes that my characters/world aren't engaging enough, don't make people interested to learn about, etc etc.

Dear Yearning Friend,

I wish I could give you a hug, but unfortunately we are separated by space and the internet, and also my flippers are too short and stubby for such things.

You are entirely right that comparison is the thief of joy, and that comparing one's inside to another's outside is never going to be accurate, and all of that. But aphorisms don't always help us feel better.

I do not believe that it's for lack of interest in your writing. I often observe in myself and in others that people sometimes feel awkward about sending messages, or do not know what to say.

I wonder whether it might help to post something that gives a structure for people to send messages, or help people come up with ideas about what to send you? I am thinking of posts like those meme questions where askers are invited to ask particular things about characters. Or perhaps YOU could ask your followers something - it could be about your IF or about games or writing in general. That can be a nice jumping-off point.

But I entirely understand. It can be so very hard to see others being so busy with flurries of messages (or even saying "I have so many messages that I don't know what to do with them!") when one is thinking "I'd love to have that problem..."

So, again, virtual flipper-hugs to you, and I hope you feel better.

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You can spoil us as a little treat😈

I really shouldn't…

Just kidding, let's do it

Spoilers below the cut

With a burst that spoke of an effusiveness that overflowed without bounds, the motley beam of light twisted with laughter as it took the form of a girl, she was perceived not unlike Candelaria, though you couldn't specify which part was similar as in all honesty you couldn't say their appearance was similar.

“Oh, I knew you had good taste, little joy” Her smile seemed to not fit on their face, compressing her eyes and freckled cheeks to make room for the jocular act.

Clapping their hands enthusiastically she rattled every rattle inexplicably attached to the colorful mess that was their fluffy hair on her way until they was less than a handful of steps away from where you stood watching her “You're not supposed to see me like this until you pick me but it will be our secret" They added with amusing lightness.

"Besides you'll obviously pick me” She nodded confidently, you blinked slowly.

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“You will exude grace with the least amount of effort, there will be few and strangers who will not find sympathy in your persona, your tongue and mind will be quick and agile not only to spin ideas and stories full of creativity and jocularity, [REDACTED], my little joy?” They held out their hand in an invitation, palm up the faded patch that stood out against her rich ochre-colored skin.