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Hey there,

I know, long time no see or hear. I’m still feeling not good and getting more worse with my health.. December I got infected with Covid 19 and hit me very hard. It wasn’t a mild one! I guess you can hear that this s*it is still affecting my heart and my lungs. I’m wheezing so often and cough and so on... and my heart is more irregular / arrhythmic than before. Hope you’ll like it. How sounds my heart for you?

Stay healthy! :) <3

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Heya, I'm still alive. I guess I'm improving my digital Art skills?! I made this for my new love. We're toghether since 30th June and he finally found the 🗝️ to my 🫀. This drawing here was my gift to him for his birthday. And yeah, he's a cardiophile too so he enjoys pics with anatomical hearts.

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which would you want to happen heart attack or cardiac arrest choose your age when it happens Thanks .

Nothing at all. Some irregular beats, extrasystoles, PVCs, tachy or bradycardia - I'm fine with but nothing like heart attack (cause damage forever or even death, my heart should stay completely intact) and no cardiac arrest - my fear that my heart would stop beating forever is way tooooo big!

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would you want welcome a cardiac arrest where your gone 25 minutes receive repeated shocks that comes down to the last shock if it fails TC ...Time Called is made all resuscitation ceases and your let go allowed to rest .

Oh sorry, that's not a fantasy of mine. I don't want to die or being near death. Everything shouldn't harm me / my heart. In RP yeah could be okay but not for real.

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Hey, long time no see but today I’m back with a quick visible carotid pulse video :) Have a great time. Hope you’ll enjoy it!

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53 and dropping.

Alternatively, reblog this with your current heartrate and I'll tell you what I'd do to you right now based on that.

Pretty please? 😍

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3 of Swords - my interpretation with a cardiophile touch

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My first digital art is “ready”. Yeah I guess not perfect but it was my first try with a graphics tablet. I always wanted to own one and finally today was the day. :) What do you mean for a first try? Every beginning isn’t that easy but I think there will be a space to get better with time and exercise. It’s not very realistic but I think you’ll see what I meant to say / show.

Only her heart is talking

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Bist du auch auf heartbeatpleasure? Ich bin da unter alex. Da habe ich auch einiges hochgeladen.

Noch nicht. Aber hab schon oft überlegt mir dort auch einen Account anzulegen. Lohnt es sich? Ansonsten bin ich bei Discord in ein paar Servern.

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Hast du eigendlich ein Blutdruck Messgerät? Digital, so kann man deine Werte sehen. Das wäre echt toll.

Na klar, hier meine druckfrischen Werte

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Happy 300 follower anniversary!

I’ve done something different for you. Long time I didn’t draw anything but this time it was something special. I’ver never drew something cardiophilia related but yeah I guess I want to do some more. :)

Here she is or I am. - I’m presenting you

Julia the big hearted curvy goddess

Something about me

Birthday in June

pronouns: she / her

cardiophile since: ever, noticed it in my early childhood, got obsessed / addicted to hearts

cardiophilia forms: romantic, soft, medical, sensual, a bit sexual, dark cardiophilia... I guess from every topic a bit. Loves hearts of every gender. Loves the most to be listened to. But enjoys sometimes to get a listen to others too.

Can you listen to her? - of course! She likes to share live sometimes if there is time and opportunity (on Discord / Skype and will still post some recordings here too. :)

hight: 1,65 m / 5″4

features: different sized boobs, left side is a way more smaller then the right one. Reason: a big heart needs a lot more room so the left one had to be smaller. Benefit of that:  better access to her beating organ. Has a lot of irregularities of her heartbeat. S2 split seems to be presented but don’t know the reason for that, a lot of arrhythmia (but not always), her heart changes often its pace just suddenly, very promptly. Struggles with every sleepless night & day more and more..

Do you want to know more about me? Feel free to aks!

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TW: arrhythmia / strumbling heart with extrasystole at 2:35

Heya, my heart is still strumbling and struggling. And I finally catched something what never wanted to be heard in a recording. It occured only when no ECG or recording was started, when there was no attention. So it’s not the only extrasystole I’ve ever had but the first in a recording. I have a lot extrasystoles a day sometimes if my heart is more over worked or stressed and that’s pretty easily this time without any sleep, stress, pain, heat, seizures, faintings.... lol Sounds very interesting and felt even more oddly. When my heart does this - and indeed it did yesterday - it feels like someone is grabbing my heart inside my chest and does squeeze it with full force into its smallest form possibly, squeezing very hard by hands in my chest. Ooof.. Usually this event hurts a lot. As hell I can say! But luckily this time no pain. (I’ve got enough pain without any sharp heart pain for many lifes - not only for one.)

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TW: some struggling heartbeat after a while

Y’all I’m still alive but strugging with everything. Here you go for a recording where you’ll able to hear that - if you’ll wait for it. I felt that. I passed out in the afternoon several times one after another. I needed more than a hour to get full conciousness again. And my heartbeat is still not very constant with it’s pace. It was already in the morning like that - that it liked to sped up and slow down within a short time. I can say that’s tiring. 

Pls send sleep.. :( Would be awesome if that would be possible.

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Hi,Dein Puls ist interessant zu beobachten. Ich bin neu hier und lieben den Klang des weiblichen Herzens und den sichtbaren Puls

Huhu, Dankeschön, das freut mich sehr zu hören! :) ich wünsche Dir auf jeden Fall hier ganz viel Freude! Wenn Du was wissen magst oder schreiben möchtest, sind meine DM's übrigens offen. Nur sorry, wenn ich mal länger brauche. Ich vergesse niemanden.

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TW: racing heart

Hey there, last night I caught a suddenly tachycardiac episode. At the start from this recording everything seems pretty normal. BUT in minute 3 it starts to change. My heartbeat kept getting faster. Don’t know why it came to this “accident”. This was at 2 a.m. in the night. And lasted till 6 a.m. Not constantly racing, but never got under 90 and then again to over 100. My highest record of my smartwatch said 125 BPM (later that night) but it’s not very accurate. Often my HR is way more higher than my smartwatch noticed. I had no anxiety, no panic / panic attack, was very calm, breathed slowly all the time, tried ro rest / sleep but couldn’t. With this HR it was completely over. No sleep possible.

Question: What do you think was happening? Someone to count me out?

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Her Seizure

Hey, I’m long time thinking about to wirite down this fictional story. It has a lot of “inspired by myself” elements from things I actually experience. I have to stand clear: it’s an fictional story, not real like my other stories who based on real happenings. If you like I could tell about them too. Put it with fantasies together. This here only a bit. Now I have to write it finally down. I can’t still sleep for a long time. So I hope I could manage to make it understandable.

I’m writing in the perspective of another person, with “she” I’m mentioning myself.

TW: fantasy, lite dark cardophilia content

I found her. Unconcoius on the ground laying on her right side. She - is a for me beautiful well build curvy woman in her 30′s. Her part-dyed / bleached hair is extravagant long nearly touching her hips going a way over her waist. I can clearly see that her natural haircolor is dark brownish but her ends are some kind of “dark blonde”. She did not dyed her hair since years. But the color gradient isn’t hard, very soft and looks alike a balayage technique.

Her hips are wide, her tummy is so soft like the comfiest pillow in the world. She is some overweight but I prefer to call her “curvy” and I find she is a gorgeous curvy goddess. Her breast aren’t that big but I’m okay with that. They suit her. Left one is obvious smaller. Her gracious heart needs it’s place.

I’ve seen all her stress and troubles in her face in the past time. Now she’s laying there. Helpless. I come over to look after her. I had a bad feeling and now I know why.

I came near her, kneeled down to her. I heard her shallowed breathing. It wasn’t much steady. She struggled to breath. Her full lips were a little blueish and partly open. Then I checked for a pulse. I placed my middle and index finger on her adorable neck. Her left side of the neck was exposed to me as I removed gently her long hair. I felt a weak and also irregular like her breathing pulse. It was fast. My worries rushed through my whole body. What happened to her? I had to figure even more details out.

Slowly and attention paying I turned her on her back to get more known about this situation and for supporting her better. Know I felt an silent but hard urge to take also her apical pulse and listening to her heart. She only worn a T-Shirt and her undies. I had free access to everything if I slip down her Shirt. Her breasts were fast exposed to me. Also her little frailing organ underneath her chest. My palm was quick placed on right below her left breast. There it was - her direct tap tap of her beautiful pump it forced to beat against my palm while struggling. My head was going down on her chest too. My ear were filled with hear BA b-boom BA b-boom bBOOM BABa b-BOOM syncronized with the tap tap of her apex of her beating muscle. I counted this time her beats. I came to a result of 119 BPM but it was hard to get it right ‘cause of the irregular ones. I could even figure out that her ventricles aren’t closing in sync cause of the S2 split. My concern grew louder and bigger. But I also was mesmerized by this tap taps and sounds. I always loved her heart and wanted to get an private exam of her. Know my wish came finally true. But she couldn’t come to this joy like me. Still unconscious. But everything of this setting was right to me. But I wished she wasn’t in a true trouble. At some point I imagined to touch her heart closer than the tapping apex through her intercostal space. Totally spaced out  in my mind, eyes closed, but still fascinated with her heart I touched something slippery. I had the feeling it was touching me. Was it moving?! Yes, indeed! “Huh?! Is that really her heart? Am I touching it directly without any border?” I opened excited my eyes. Yes. I could confirm that my hand was lost in her chest to her hollow muscle. I touched it a bit more. And even more. I came confident with this situation. It was more though I’ve ever could dream of. I tried more. Till my hand was wrapped around her frailing heart. I’m only holding it slightly.I could feel every movement of her’s. “Wow. That is so awesome!” I thought. Appreciating every single beat of her. Still it was irregular and weak. So I guessed I had to help her in some way.

It felt so fascinating. It was warm, slippery, bendable, elastic, wet and fitted so perfectly in my hand. I had to resist do dig my hand in it to feel even more of it’s benefits. A lot of nice and naughty thoughts filled my mind what I could do to her / it. But I had to step back from such misplaced thoughts. It wasn’t the time for playing with her heart. I had to help if she has a meaning to me!

It was suitable that my hand was already wrapped around her heart. I grabbed it a bit harder and forced my hand to a squeeze. I squeezed her heart. But I was gently. I were anxious about to damage her beautiful thing. Her beating heart! Gorgeous! Trying to force her heart into a normal and steady beating. I’ve done it 30 times in a row. Then I gave her some deep rescue breaths. Because her lungs still had trouble to fill proberly. Still a shallow and unsteady breathing was presented. So I hoped to help her some more. I was sure she needed also some more oxigen as her own mouth delivered her. Her chest rose and fell with my breaths I gave to her. Then another pulse and heartsound check. Nothing changed. ba Bb...bBOOM ba BA Boom ba B-boom received my ear.

Then I continued a further set of 30 squeezing compressions to her heart. This time with more power. It wasn’t enough to be this gently. I imagined her inner of her heart how it got affected by my forcing pumps. Maybe it needed some more power. It was weak so I gave it what was indicated. it squirmed against my movements and wanted to escape but I did not happen that. I counted with every squeeze to 30. Rescue breaths were again delivered. Time for another pulse taking on her neck and going on her left chest with my ear. “hmm no, don’t do this to me. Please! Fight like I fight for you!” Her rhythm was not right yet. Still the same result as the last compressions ago. Still a weak and sluggish fast and irregular pulse tapping against my fingers on her neck through her carotid. The sounds doesn’t changed too. S 2 Split present as minutes ago. Back to into her caged organ I tried even harder to make it pump in a good rhythm. Counting again loud to 30. “You can do that! I know that!” I shouted to her. Panic in my eyes ‘cause scare to damage her sweetheart / sweet heart. It feld some kind wrong and perfectly at the same time to force it in this powerful way. It was squeezed hard. Hopefully not too hard. I had to get that right. Really. Urgently! Our time was going on and on. As I finished this set I touched her heart again so soft as I could. I even caressed her organ. Maybe some lovely action does the trick too. I’m stroking it with much love and dignity as it was possible. While I did so I put my ear back on her chest too and listened if it had any affect on her. At first I only heard the same sounds as all the time before. And I could feel her heart struggling while I stroked it. But I didn’t losed my hope. I believed in my actions and her. Some time passed but then came a change. I couldn’t believe my ear and fingers! baBboom..BOOM.. ba..Bboom baba.. Ba Boom ba ... PAUSE of an eternity felt for me, 5 or more seconds gone by - ba boom.. ba boom... ba boom.. Ba Boom.. Ba Boom.. ba Boom.. Ba Boom.. There it was! A beautiful sinus rhythm in a pace of something about 50 BPM. Still weak but there it was!

I couldn’t remove my ear and hand of her in joy of her now right pumping heart. “I knew you can do that! Thank godness! I’m the happiest human being now!” Tears running down my cheeks. I sobbed. I listened a long time to her awesome and mesmerizing magic heartbeats, feeling every single beat still with my softer caressing hand inside her rips. Then something changed again. I felt it beating lightly harder against my hand and heard it louder and increasing it’s rate to maybe 58 BPM or something like that. I was tense in anticipation of what would happen. Then her breaths become louder and deeper too. She came back to a pinkish warm colour on her face. Then her eyes were twitching. Finally she opened slowly blinking her beautiful dark brown eyes. My hand and ears still connected with her heart. As she grew concious I removed my hand slipped out of her chest before I caressed it even a bit more again to say good bye to it and then I was only with my ear in connection. I could see that she could feel my action with my hand on her heart because she looked a bit irritated and tried to move her hand to her chest. But her arms were still too weak. Her heart thanked me with a big jump and a short faster and deeper contraction and switched again to it’s good rhythm.

Eyes were opening wider of her and came to a vision. I guessed it must be now at first blurry but she recognized me. I saw it in her face and expressions. She tried to speak but I layed my fingers softly on her now colored lips and hushed her. “Please stay in laying position and safe your breaths. Don’t speak yet. You’ll need to recover. I’m aware of everything and having an eye.. ehm ear on you to monitor everything.. I safed your life. And ehm.. yes.. ehhhmm.. I.. I’m listening to your heavenly heartbeat. I found you unconcious on this place. And now you’re doing fine again. Your heart was failing. So I done my best because.. ehhhhmm.. I.. I like...eeehmm.. .lo....” Now she stopped me with a shhh and pressed her fingers too on my lips. Her hand were shaking but found their way to me. She nodded and smiled. She understood. I don’t had to say anything further. Then she stroke my head and my hair. I was happier than ever before. Let me understand that I could listen to hear hollow muscle so long I desired to. Later that day I’m still on her chest comforted by her lullaby - she told me that she could feel and hear everything I spoke and did to her. But she couldn’t make her state vision of her concious experience out loud by words or movements. She was too weak. Had no chance to move or speak up. And insisted that I would get her back soon as possible. She explaned me that she had a seizure because of her sleep deprivation which is long time active. Bad Insomnia AF. She often had such seizures as long as insomnia caused issues kicks in. But this time was the worst. She couldn’t call for help. And that she knew I was doing all this to safe her. She was more than happy that I found her in her hopeless state of being half life and half death. To give her a chance to stay alive. And also she told me that she loved every singe detail of it. BAM.. let that sit in your mind! Lucky you!

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Yesterday evening it was again very slow. Today I’m often up and down within seconds. But yeah, I guess you like to hear some calm beats too. I guess this is way to my brady-episode. I think I can hear some lightly irregular / changing beats too. Do you like this kind of heartrate more than a fast one?

Don’t know what’s actualy going on with my heart with going down to 50 BPM or less. That wasn’t a normal thing to me. Only since a few weeks.. okay months. I’ve never was under 70 and now.. you can hear by yourself.