healyea

[healyea]

i love you alterouses who are still in the egg. i love you alterous teens just figuring out yourself. i love you adults who are starting the process or have been in the process for years. i love you people who are confused as to what this feeling is and are trying to figure it out. i love people who have an alterous crush or squish or equivalent preferred descriptor and are falling for someone. I love you people who are so happy they aren’t dealing with alterous feelings rn bc they are happy where they are. I love you people with alterous feelings who can never tell the person /people you feel it for. I love you people who are figuring out how to tell the person/people they feel alterous care for. I love you people who are in a happily committed alterous relationship. I love you alterous monogamous people. i love you alterous polyamorous people. I love you aro alterous people. I love you allo alterous people. I love you relationship anarchy alterous people. I love you trans alterous people. I love you cis alterous people. i love you het alterous people. I love you the relationship between alterous feelings and adding that as the subtext to your sexuality (i.e. bialterous, homoalterous, etc). I love you allos happily breaking the cycle and destroying amatonormativity in their lives. I love you people of color who are coming to terms with how their culture was influenced or impacted by amatonormativity and patriarchy and trying to deconstruct their old thought processes. I love you people who have always known something was wrong but now you have the language. I love you people who are deconstructing what they’ve been taught a relationship is “supposed” to be. I love you allos who happily come and enjoy an aro spectrum term. I love you aro’s digging deep in our community finding new terms to understand their feelings by. I love you people who are in love, and I love you people who are so grateful for their life with their alterous partner. I love you people who relate alterous more towards platonic feelings. I love you people who have alterous sexual feelings. I love you people who relate alterous more towards romantic feelings. I love you people who don’t relate their alterous feelings to any platonic or romantic feeling. I love you people who experience this in a flux or fluid state. I love people who experience it in a specific grey area. I love you people who experience alterous attraction, who have had the confusion haunt and hurt other relationships before they found alterous, who have found so much honest joy in realizing these are their feelings. I love you the ups. I love you the downs. I love you the joys. I love you the happiness. I love you the sadness. I love you the loss. I love you for giving me something special. Something that’s sometimes temporary but beautiful. Sometimes dangerous but giving me the opportunity to stand up for myself and express myself. I love you feeling like icarus far too close to the sun. And the blush that comes when you don’t die immediately. First you hold the suns hand. I love the wide vast beautiful experiences so many people have, and all the kind souls that come together here during these trying times.

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knowing anyone for even the shortest of times brings a warmth to my heart that nothing could ever replicate.

when my mind feels morbid, i remember all the life that i've encountered within every breath i exchange with the air.

and i remember every word or glimpse ever shared with me.

and i do remember every single instance of pain and hurt.

i remember every single tear that has ever streamed down my face.

but at the same time i remember the joy.

and i remember the brief warmth of feeling actually loved and the brief warmth of feeling wanted.

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i thought about hand holding all day today. some gentle caressing of the skin, drawing circles and flowers with my fingers with the softest touch on the ones i love

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like not to be dramatic but sometimes i'm in so much emotional pain it truly feels like i'm dying. like i AM withering away.

im a real flower but i'm wilting.

i'm dehydrated

and my petals r turning inwards

and the moisture in my stem is mostly gone

and soon i'll be just a memory

u ever cry so many days in a row that u just feel weak and drained and dead like as if ur a fake flower that's still trying to photosynthesize with the sun but doesn't realize it doesn't even have fucking chlorophyll

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u ever cry so many days in a row that u just feel weak and drained and dead like as if ur a fake flower that's still trying to photosynthesize with the sun but doesn't realize it doesn't even have fucking chlorophyll

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there's so much romantic tension between me and the earth when there's a sun rainshower. like the suns out but it's raining and maybe there's a bit of a summer breeze? oh i'm in love

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i dont want it i just need it

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liminal

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simgirok

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shot and styled by thalía gochez .ೃ࿔

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Stillleben mit französischen Romanen und Glas mit Rose (Still Life with French novels and glass with a rose), Paris, Autumn 1887.Vincent van Gogh, 1853-1890. Oil on canvas.