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“as you get older, you realize that you’re not always right and there’s so many things you could’ve handled better, so many situations where you could’ve been kinder and all you can really do is forgive yourself and let your mistakes make you a better person.”

— Unknown

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It felt so real watching the survivor’s of the Georgia Shooting talk about what happened. The crack’s in their voice still makes me ache in my chest this morning. No, I wasn’t there. I’m in a different state but as someone who was in a mass shooting, myself, seeing this happen reopened a wound I forgot was within me. I was in a mass shooting approximately a year ago in Carson, California. 8 people were shot and I remember being so scared out my mind. I was on the street and once I heard the rounds I hopped over someone’s fence and tried to hide. I soon ran because I was more down the street where I was able to leave the situation. It was the scariest moment of my life and I pushed it down till I forgot about it. I woke up and my immediate thought was of a girl who had made a tiktok about her experience. She was in one of the classrooms nearest to the shooting and she explained how she saw dead bodies on the floor as she came out the school. She couldn’t even say a few words without stuttering and I felt that. I felt that sick feeling in her body. I am scared and I live in California, in a very wealthy community. My school doesn’t even have a huge probability of a shooting happening and I’m in class looking at how open the windows are in each of my classes. I can’t even focus on pre-calculus because I’m sitting here wondering that one day my life can just disappear like that and I keep on recalling that one night where my life could’ve been easily taken too.

We need to do something because this feeling I have in me right now as I write this is the most unsettling feeling I’ve ever felt.

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Abilities that will forever benefit you

The ability to walk away

The ability to manage your time

The ability to remain consistent

The ability to self analyze

The ability to learn how to learn

The ability to understand others

The ability to listen

The ability to express your thoughts and feelings

The ability to break down tasks

The ability to adapt

The ability to control your mind

The ability to ask for help

The ability to act upon facts not feelings

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You’ve grown into someone who would have protected you as a child. And that is the most powerful move you made.

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Small ways to activate your "happiness" chemicals

DOPAMINE: the reward chemical

• Complete a task

• Doing self care activites

• Eating some food

• Celebrating your little wins.

OXYTOCIN: the love hormones

• Playing with a dog

• Playing with a baby

• Holding hands

• Hugging someone

• Giving someone else a compliment

SEROTONIN: the mood stabiliser

• Meditating

• Running

• Be in the sun

• Walk in nature

• Swimming

ENDORPHIN: the pain relief

• Laughing exercises

• Essential oils

• Eating dark chocolate

• Running

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Love reading some old white philosopher or author from a historical time period, bc he is just describing everything I've felt since the ripe age of 13 in girlhood. like yesss now you're getting ittt

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Every attempt to definitively say what language is is subject to a curious limitation. For the only medium with which we can define language is language itself. We are therefore unable to circumscribe the whole of language within our definition. It may be best, then, to leave language undefined, and to thus acknowledge its open-endedness, its mysteriousness. Nevertheless, by paying attention to this mystery we may develop a conscious familiarity with it, a sense of its texture, its habits, its sources of sustenance.

David Abram, The Spell of the Sensuous: Perception and Language in a More-Than-Human World

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A group of blind men surround an elephant. Oblivious to what an elephant is, they each touch different parts of the elephant to depict what it is. One touches the tail, one touches the side, one touches the trunk. You get the idea. Since they all only have touched one part of the elephant they all have different depictions. One says It’s a fan, one says, it's a wall, and one man says it’s a snake. Of course, it is actually an elephant. The parable of the blind men and an elephant is a perfect example of your limited perception. What you haven’t realized is that you are one of those blind men trying to depict the world through your own perception.

Just a little part of my book I thought I'd share. Publishing around January 2025. Follow to keep updated :)

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