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for the new kids in the club, cassius is the personification of rage and gabriel is the personification of depression

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pokes my head in

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        wow    ,          these   spot   the   difference   games   are   getting   so   hard     !    

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me writing high is like, worlds apart from me writing sober

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“You’re sleep deprived and you haven’t been eating. Why do you think you’re feeling dizzy?”

            buckling    knees    and    dizzy   thoughts   ,    the   boy   of   flames   can’t   seem   to   catch   a   break   .    your   fingers   grip   rightly   against   the   counter   ,    vision   blurring   ,    you   long   to   tear   him  apart   for   the   comment   ,    repulsive   words   flung   in   his   direction   .      surely   ,     he   was  juding   your   character   /   mind   /    and   body   (   or   ,   arrogant  boy   !    he   simply   cares   for   your   well   being   ?   )     .     a   scoff   of   discontentment   rattles   in  the   back   of   your   throat   ,   eyes   rolling   .             ❛       shut   the   fuck   up   ,      that   has   never   mattered   before    .          ❜

@oncebully   .

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         ugly    rage   ,   disgusting   boy   .    fingers   run   through   unkept   curls   ,    letting   strands   fall   out   with   the   movement   .    rotting   body   ,    broken   mind   .   you   poison   your   blood   ,   you   ruin   your   lungs    .    front   like   you’ve   never   broken   your   knuckles   off   a   brick   wall   in   a   fit   of   rage   .         ❛       was   wonderin’    if   maybe   you   wanted   to   hang   out   after   group   ,   sometime   maybe   ?          ❜ 

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worried starters

trigger warnings apply! ( mental illness, drugs and alcohol use, self-destructive behaviours, and vomiting )

“You haven’t slept for days, have you?” “Are you eating properly? You don’t look it.” “Why do you keep stumbling over your words? Just how tired are you?” “You need to think about yourself every once in a while.” “I know your work is important, but you’re going to end up in hospital if you go on like this!” “You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?” “You look so… empty. I’m worried for you, please talk to me.” “Are you alright in there? You’re so quiet.” “How did you get these bruises? Please don’t lie to me.” “There’s something bothering you that you’re not telling me and I can see it slowly destroying you. What happened?” “You’re sleep deprived and you haven’t been eating. Why do you think you’re feeling dizzy?” “I can give you some pills to help you sleep. They aren’t healthy, but this is even less healthy.” “If you didn’t just blink I would’ve sworn you were dead, that’s how sickly you’re looking. Go to bed, please!” “Have you drank all of these bottles in one weekend?!” “I know you don’t want this, but it’s for your own good. Sign the papers so they can pick you up tomorrow and you can get clean.” “What the hell are you doing?! Did you do that to yourself?!” “When was the last time you left the house? Or opened the curtains for that matter.” “Here, just keep breathing. It’ll be okay. Better out than in…” “This can’t go on like this! You’re not eating, you’re not sleeping, you barely talk!” “I’m sorry. I went through your room and found this. Explain what the hell this is doing in your room!” “I thought you’d quit! How long have you been lying to me?” “I’m only trying to help and right now I think I have a much better idea of what you need than you do.” “Did you take anything? Why are you passing out? Hey! Stay with me!”

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You see beauty in everything but yourself.

(via deeplifequotes)

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don’t tell me “you can’t do that” ‘cause I will do that

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         cassius   developed   an   eating   disorder    /   disordered   eating   at   the   age   of   sixteen   ,    just   after   he   was   sexually   assaulted   !      the   main   cause   of   it   developing   was   the   longed   to   be   strong   ,    and   for    no   one   to   be   able   to   hurt   him   again   .   he   has   what   is   considered   to   be   ednos   (   eating   disorder   not   otherwise   specified   !   )  ,   barely   eating   ,   obsessing   over    calories   ,      and   over   -   exercising    .    binging   on   food   that’s   terrible    ,    and   then    over   -   working   to   burn   it    back   off   .   

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                          CASSIUS         BLOSSOM              +              VISUALS

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i get these violent urges and moods where i just want to fight and bleed it’s like an ache in my chest

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                 CASSIUS         &         GABRIEL         BLOSSOM           +         DYNAMIC  

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