harmenboyfriend

[harmenboyfriend]

dumbification where I make you forcedspecies. you're my dumb pet now! stop speaking to me, you only answer me in species-specific noises from now on. I'll make up new rules whenever I think you're too connected to your humanity! don't walk on your feet, let me cut off your thumbs, don't get on the furniture, don't sit like that, don't eat like that either...

your fingers are too long to be an animal's, so I need to make them shorter. at least they're too long to be on any animal that I would want! maybe I should do something to make your legs more like that of a dog/cat's too? I'll build you into the pet I want. whether you like it or not.

[harmenboyfriend]

Bruises are an erogenous zone

[harmenboyfriend]

Would it be weird for me to compliment your appearance without actually knowing what you look like.. i just have the vibe that your handsome idk how to describe it lol. Something about trans guys they're usually handsome. Im trans ftm myself but i dont think im very attractive idk.

Im using our main to send anons I just gotta be reallyy careful so i dont have another incident like my first ask

-🗞️

awww keep on putting down yourself to compliment my appearance!! I like it so much! you're unattractively cute in the same way a bug is. just a little thing to be squashed under my boot!

[harmenboyfriend]

Ughh I actually do enjoy your posts and style cus it has some similarities to my owner (who does it better btw) but THE ASKERS HERE ARE SO PATHETIC AND ANNOYINGG. Yall want your conabuse dynamic so much but are too socially akward to do anything about it so you gotta get it by begging parasocially. Not even sure what the point of this ask is I just got annoyed at the asks and sent my own out of spite. OoouuuUh~🎵 I just like to open the conabuse tag 🎵 randomly throughout the day 🎵 because I think about my owner 🎵 and she doesn't live near me yettttt 🎵 and I want her to abuse and kill me so baad I just need moneeaayy 🎵 but🎵every🎵time🎵i🎵open🎵it🎵lately🎵 there's LAAAAAME BITCHESS🎵🎵🎵 and I don't wanna just block you cus ur cool 🎵 please berate your followers for their social ineptitude more though thanks 🎵. Actually yk what this is me doing it I KNOW YOU FUCKERS READ EVERY POST. LISTEN. GET ABUSIVE WITH EACHOTHER. PUT THIS MUCH GUSTO INTO THIS ACTUAL SUBGENRE OF THE KINK COMMUNITY ITS SO DEAD. IT IS SOOOO FUCKING LAME AND SAD THAT YOU'RE JUST PATHETICALLY BEGGING IN THE ASKS OF THIS ONE GUY. or in whiney masochist terms uh, be good for boyfriend and show him anything actually worth his time, yeah? Post some pictures, he'll see them. And so will I ^w^

honestly? I like this anon the most so far. you're right! nothing more to add!

tbf I don't post every single post with conabuse, or even a lot of the tags I tend to use if I think they're not quite worthy of paraphilic attention, conabuse attention, etc. cause I don't wanna flood tags with unrelated content. lmk if I can tag better /gen

[harmenboyfriend]

𝜗𝜚 TRANSPECIEDEATH

　　　or transtsdeath

　　　trans - species - death

description :　a trans-death / xeno-death where one feels as though they should die in a way their trans-species identity should.

example :　transdogdeath where one feels as though they should die how a dog would (ex. getting run over by a car)

@harmenboyfriend <- for you （＾ω＾）

[harmenboyfriend]

I just wanna break something's teeth....chip them by slamming your face into a table so hard, beat you until some fall loose, grab your jaw so roughly that your cheeks ache even in the absence of my touch, rub a numbing agent into your gums before I slam your jaws together so hard you bite off your tongue...anything if it means breaking you torturously.

[harmenboyfriend]

woof

bark

[harmenboyfriend]

Hahaha, I love I'm in so many peoples heads. It's so true too! / pos. The main things in my life that are basically controlling it are my parasocial relationship with you, whatever the fuck my schizophrenia does, and my hobbies, which I haven't done for a few days, whoops.

-parasocial anon

someone even said they felt honoured to be compared to you. and you were freaking out about the others hating you...meanwhile you're an aspiration. they wish they could be as good as you.

neglecting your hobbies for me? 🖤

[harmenboyfriend]

I am pretty traumatised, especially regarding interpersonal relationships and I am bad at emotionally regulating around people.

Unsurprisingly I am not doing so great when it comes to relationships. I often fantasize about being in a transharmful x transharmed relationship because I don't feel like I can offer anything other people would appreciate in a relationship. I don't think this is very healthy lol

Do you maybe have any advice or whatever?

~meow

don't bother helping other people until you're able to help yourself. baby steps. I don't mean "cut off all contact" with people who rant or "be cold" to people who vent, but don't give them your 100%. not until you give yourself that energy first. a happy conabuse relationship should include 2 or more beings who understand their limits. I know that online relationships are a very good middleground for my attempts to recover, but need for romantic attention. a healthy conabuse relationship requires a relationship with yourself first. you're literally the only being who has been in your life the longest; meaning you know how best to support yourself, and right now that isn't in front of other people.

in short: you probably need a level of narcissism to protect yourself. self-love takes a little bit of narcissism. the way narcissists learn to love others is by learning to love ourselves, so that way it isn't consistently seeking out relationships to fulfil a void in ourselves. try taking a path that someone like myself may take to relearn love, process your trauma, and focus on self-care first and foremost.

[harmenboyfriend]

but it's too good when my playthings can't handle the mention of my other things...

everyone wants a jealous man until I can't stand the thought of you even referencing other men sighh

[harmenboyfriend]

lots of psychology related asks...wow. thank you for getting me to talk about my fixation.

[harmenboyfriend]

making an amab plaything jerk off while we watch the bme pain olympics...speed up whenever you're afraid. whenever you feel their pain in your own dick. my hands will keep your head facing the screen...it makes me want to staple your eyes open whenever you flinch. it really isn't that bad. I'll show you.

[harmenboyfriend]

[harmenboyfriend]

i wanna be programmed by you and made to wait by my phone for the notif that you posted-

i want to be undeniably obsessed

i may or may not be touching myself as i write this

-🪐

my way of programming seems to have already worked. my negligence has you strangely needy! don't you feel a little embarrassed? it's so fun to see what power I maintain without consistency.

[harmenboyfriend]

i throw a mean punch parasocial anon. remembering this time in like 7th i punched a kid and she almost broke her jaw

can 👔 join the fight i don’t like him

- 🦴

one of my exes told me they killed or hospitalised two people by biting them too hard. they also said a lot of wild shit, but seeing as they had images to back up some of those wild instances...I believe I had the most intimidating guard dog. also that's funny as fuck. I wanted him to pick more fights anyway!

[harmenboyfriend]

i don’t like my reaction to you replying to my asks. i get excited and start smiling this is horrific. i hope you explode or get run over by a car dog style

- 🦴

wow....xenodeath related to being transspecies? any coiners here to make that a thing? I would love to die like a dog. even if it's because of a minuscule thing like yourself wishing it on me!

[harmenboyfriend]

so, ive officially gotten off to your post about gradually poisoning someone, i have a fear of sick/being sick so the part about licking up the bile made me feel ill but i kept going and finished to the thought of being entirely bedbound and just used by you in any way, no matter how depraving it is. i felt so fuckin gross after i couldn't stop thinking about being sick and i went slightly schizo and started thinking there was vomit in my mouth (.. it was my saliva) - 🫁

this is such a high compliment to me. sure it's nice to hear "I want this" or "I love this", but knowing I create dread in my followers? even better. tell me which lines make you shiver in disgust. it makes me want to write more prompts. 🖤