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College

When I was in high school I had no intention of going to college. I was working full time and I thought I was making all the money I could ever need until I realized that I had more potential. I was not meant to be a waitress my whole life. For the first couple of years out of high school I worked and I partied. In the spring of last year, my grandpa became deathly sick and it made me think about him and how proud I've made him so far. But I knew that by furthering my education and becoming somebody that would make him the most proud. It's difficult sometimes talking to people who are younger than me starting their junior/senior years of college and I'm only a sophomore but in 3 short years it'll be my turn to shine. My ambition and drive for greatness has never been higher. I'm willing to conquering all of the tests, excel on all of my assignments, and get a really good work out in everyday because I get to walk 3 miles a day (lol).

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Progress

Recently, my life has been looking up. I've honestly never felt so happy and at peace with where I am in my life. To top it off, my dream guy started acknowledging me and showing signs of attraction towards me. I am seriously over the moon stoked to see what my future holds!!

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complex

This is going to sound so cliché but I have body issues. All of my life I've wanted to be skinny. I've wanted to be able to feel comfortable in a bathing suit. I've wanted to be able to walk without feeling my belly jiggle. I made a commitment to myself that this was gonna be the year that I felt comfortable in my own skin. I started working out regularly and watching what I eat. I was seeing results in a few short months and then a couple months after that I was being asked, "how did you lose so much weight?" It's not rocket science. Cutting the amount of calories you eat plus exercise can make a HUGE difference. I still have body issues... I still don't feel skinny enough but I know I look better than I used to. I have a theory that the more I wear my bikini the more comfortable I'll feel in it. Being half naked needs to become my "normal". Then maybe, just maybe I'll have the confidence to be myself in a bathing suit.

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A lot of people are afraid to say what they want. That’s why they don’t get what they want.

Madonna Ciccone (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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Soulmate

The idea of having a soulmate has become so cliché. But if you’re anything like me you’re a die hard hopeless romantic. And y'all, I think I found my soulmate.

I met him a few weeks ago at a wedding. I was a bridesmaid and he was a groomsmen. Seriously…I can’t make this shit up. We hit it off that night.

Today, he sent me a snapchat video of him singing your Body is a Wonderland. (EAT YOUR HEART OUT!!!) I think my ovaries produced a million eggs after watching that. Sidebar, I’ve been on a major John Mayer kick lately so I for real was having a panic attack. Also, I called my soulmate “daddy af” and he replied “I’m your daddy”. I’m going to marry this boy.

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Game

Alright y'all, it's been a minute since I last posted. Here's an update: I am finally learning how to have game with boys. Nonetheless, they still don't want relationships with me but I'm able to play with them as much as they play with me. It is LIBERATING!! I pray that the universe sends me all of the strength and confidence to show these boys that they don't phase me. The sad part is that every new guy is hotter than the last. But is that really sad or just that my standards are getting higher?

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I wish I was as clever as some of the people on Twitter. Like idk how they think of the shit they do but it is golden. All I can come up with is song lyrics I find catchy and relatable. Lmao

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Ex

Let me tell y'all about my ex.

He’s a PIECE OF SHIT. The most self centered, egotistical, narcissistic… I could go on. He’s lead me on a countless amount of times. He neglects to show his real feelings to anybody. He even ruined the relationship with his best friend, his bro for his own personal gain. The sad part is that it has taken me so long to get over him.

The boy I met was cute and funny. He used to be such a sweetheart. I wish that boy would come back. I think I’m just afraid that I’m not ever gonna find anybody that shares the same interests as me. But like my momma always says “there’s plenty of fish in the sea” then again she also says “be independent, you don’t need no man.” Maybe I’m destined to be single.

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change

I used to never like change. I liked having a routine. I didn't like when something went the way it shouldn't have. As I've grown I've realized CHANGE IS GOOD. A year ago to now my life has done a full 360 and I couldn't be happier!! I know that happiness can't happen over night but every day I keep getting happier. Everything is happening exactly the way it should. I am loving every second of my life!!

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Drunk thoughts

The worst part about being drunk is peeing. The best part is the confidence to talk to hot boys.

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Shout out to the people going through some things but trying their hardest to be positive. Proud of you.

Unknown (via deeplifequotes)

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first love

This boy broke my heart. This boy mended my heart. This boy is one of my best friends.

We met in high school but we went to different schools. We’re both weird so we go good together. The first time I ever hung out with him was my junior prom. It’s funny when I think about it. This boy was a stranger to me and yet we acted like we had known each other our whole lives. We ended up dating but he was a total tool. We went our separate ways but managed to have a strong friendship.

Now here we are 4 years later. He’s having health issues and life issues. He almost killed hisself. I told him I loved him which was the first time I ever said that him. What do you do when you don’t know what to do next?

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Your 20’s are your ‘selfish’ years. It’s a decade to immerse yourself in every single thing possible. Be selfish with your time, and all the aspects of you. Tinker with shit, travel, explore, love a lot, love a little, and never touch the ground.

Kyoko Escamilla (via quotethat)

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cute

It’s days like today that make me wonder if I’m pretty enough. All my life I’ve never been the hot friend. I always hear “you’re cute”. That’s it? Just cute?

Cute is a 5 year old girl. I am a WOMAN I want guys to tell me I’m gorgeous and beautiful.

It sucks when a guy you’re super into is into somebody else. Or they lead you on to think they might want something more than sex and you’re too damn gullible to pull your head out of your ass to realize they’re just wanting to get laid. Society has corrupted relationships. Or maybe it’s just this age? Am I crazy to be believe that I’ll only ever be the cute girl?

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best friends forever?

How do you break up with your best friend of 3 years?

Over text.

We really have been through SO much together. Break ups, make ups, hook ups, and we were even roommates. But in all honesty I have been through SOOOOO much stress just by being her go to person. Every person that knows her knows she’s a lot to handle and I’m not the type of person to back out on one of my best friends.

Now, its story time.

Recently, me, her and a couple of our friends went to The Strip (basically a couple of blocks full of bars and where all the college kids go to get shitfaced). I’ve spent more time with her drunk than sober so I know how she acts. But all month long she’d been on a diet which didn’t involve her weekend binge drinking so she lost part of her tolerance. As the night went on everything was fine. I was talking to a hot guy, she was dancing, everybody was enjoying theirselves. We closed the bar and went to go get food. I’m on the phone with the hot guy and she starts hitting me in the head and uncontrollably screaming at me, “WHERE’S MY PURSE?? I KNOW YOU HAD IT LAST!! HELLO??ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME!!! I DON’T FUCKING CARE WHO YOU’RE TALKING TO! MY PURSE IS MISSING!!” I had never been so embarrassed.

This is only the end of our friendship saga. Y'all don’t know all of the other bullshit I’ve been put through. My mom jokes around about how me and her were in a legitimate relationship. All I can say is I feel like I can finally breathe again.

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Important things I've learned in the last 6 months.