happinessinselfdestruction84

[happinessinselfdestruction84]

depression, Phoenix, veteran, drugs, heavy music, anxiety, pissed at the world

I'm listening to Suicide Silence again, Mitch Lucker is a literal life saver, even in death he's still pulling me from the ledge. It's weird how music has always been there for me, I just find solace and catharsis in the heavy as fuck stuff. It really makes you face whatever you are going through without a break...literally and make an actual effort in working through the issues. It's absolutely amazing, yet it still gets a bad reputation by so many people for being: demonic or causing mental disorders or even suicide; all in the face of peer reviewed studies and now metastudies that say it is highly beneficial psychologically in alleviating those distressful symptoms. Now in combination with say...therapy and medication, it seems to me an excellent therapeutic tool. Maybe these fuckin christian, holier than thou facade of a person should look upon themselves and their judgemental gazes and restrictive tenets and see that their horse shit religious beliefs and doing quite a bit of damage and have been since it's slave mentality inception. Living a particular and suppressive way on the false promises of a better "next" life or suffering for all eternity in hell for not living the way of such a despicable, abhorrent and truely the antithesis of morality that they call god. Fuck living like a slave to the greatest lie in history. Hahaha. No gods no masters is a start to wean them off the literal opiate of the masses. Religion....what a profoundly useless crock of shit in our current era.

Burn It To The Fucking Ground!!!