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I’ve never gotten over any of the people I’ve lost in my life, I cannot even say that the grief of it has gotten any less over time. Time hasn’t ever healed the wounds of losing important people in my life but it has taught me that life is too short to exist with hatred. You should tell the people important to you that you love them everyday even when you’re fighting, let them know they’re loved and your disagreements aren’t making that love any less. Spread more kindness in this world, especially on the internet. We can never have too much of it or too much of love.

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I cannot seem to enjoy any of the things that I normally do to give myself comfort because the people that I seek comfort in are grieving and their music hurts

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in addition to really complex grief, liam's passing has also stirred up anxieties i have about life and death, about our limited time on earth and the pressure to do something with that time. i think we owe it to ourselves to feel grief thoroughly (rather than push it down or minimize it), but i think the next thing we can do -- when we're ready -- is live the life we would've wanted for those we've lost and not give into hopelessness or melancholy. i struggle with the concept of people just not being here anymore. it feels like an error in the matrix. or a flaw in human design. that someone can be here and their presence and their spirit can be so clear and indisputable and then in the next instance, and very quickly, just not be anymore. except it isn't true that their presence or their spirit simply vanishes. i do think it lives on in other ppl. and i do think that's why we have to go on living fully and fiercely in spite of loss. bc the act of living keeps them alive in some way too.

i wanted to drop a note here to say that i support you all in however you're feeling and i love you. pls be kind to yourself and to others. and take all the time you need... xx

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i loved one direction with an all-consuming force when i was younger. it hurts deeply to mourn someone you were a massive fan of as teenager, and became a peer of as an adult.

i know people change and grief is unsure or complicated when it’s attached to a fond memory or the feeling a person gave you and not tangibly the person themself. i can see many of you on here are struggling with that right now and i understand.

a few years ago i purchased a home that Liam previously owned. there were rumors the house was haunted. He assured me it was not, and i believed him. because i know the ghosts that haunt us aren’t tethered to buildings. They live in parts of us that are harder to reach and they go wherever we do.

as a parent, a fellow artist, and a fan, i simply cannot fathom this untimely loss. my heart goes out to his family, friends, and the fans. 💔

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He was made out of joy until it was all stolen

liam: [puts on shark hat] 

liam: [pretends to have head eaten by said shark hat] +

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I never thought I would outlive any of them.

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I'm looking for a beta reader for my work (an english speaker would be preferable) Please if you want to help or know anyone who wants to, dm me! Thank you!

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I'm looking for a beta reader for my work (an english speaker would be preferable) Please if you want to help or know anyone who wants to, dm me! Thank you!

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angie did you saw this theory ?? https://www.tumblr.com/skepticalarrie/706459238608912384/i-know-were-busy-thristing-after-tanktoplouis

it gives more power about that saturday theory of yours, because in saturday he’s standing in the edge of the unknown (what happens when someone pass away)

7 minutes???????? I’ll have to rewatch it when I’m home!

I didn’t watch it til the end, but I like a theory like this. I don’t know if Louis knows all this stuff, he sure would have time to learn lol the fact his fans can connect and link his music and art to their own interests is amazing too. They went so deep in explain stuff I barely know (I just know this bc my physics professor and uni was obsessed with stars and universal laws so he made a pharmacy course of basic physics 3 times harder lmao), but I would love it to be true. I don’t think we will ever have a confirmation, but imagine how hot of Louis this would be hahha.

Angels fly interpretation is very very cute.

I have to say the other day the news was talking about Pink Floyd and they showed some clips with their iconography and I was like that gif of Leonardo di Caprio pointing the finger at the tv because this is what I saw and some other stuff too and I was like “Louis!” Haha

So yeah

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Whether you are a Larrie or not, or believe Louis is straight or gay or bi, you have to admit, it's odd that in the entire documentary, 107 minutes of Louis' personal story, there is not a single reference to his dating anyone, ever. And I am so used to caginess around his love life that it took me five hours to even notice.

It's the story of Louis' relationships, his triumphs, his tragedies, his growth - and the man was publicly in a LTR 90% of the time - and no mention at all of dating.

3 of his siblings, his grandparents at length, Niall and Liam, Oli, Nizam, his current band, his manager, his security, purple hair girl, fans, his (non-)son...but no romantic relationship discussed, even in passing.

This is the man who says he's "actually quite romantic." Whose lyrics are about finding and losing and fighting for love. Who has repeatedly described his music as "lyrically honest." Whose favorite story is about cooking for his date.

Even with the BUA, with a story centered on how he survived his mum's and sister's deaths, and other loss - it would have made sense to mention a supposed GF who he was said to have reconnected with because of his mum's death. But...nothing.

Unless you count where he gave as an example of the closeness of his relationship with his mum by saying he'd called her when he lost his virginity (gender unspecified).

JD the security guard had more of a presence in this film than Louis' romantic life.

And what I get from this, is the story he wants to tell is no longer about being a guy who has had girlfriends. It wasn't the unvarnished truth, but I appreciate he didn't pull that out to try to varnish it.

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I love him with my whole soul 🫶

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Twirling into the blender

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I wonder how many gay people are actually transgender & dont know it because people thing being transgender is transitioning when it’s literally just not being cis.

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x

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some of you are literally batshit insane

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I wonder how many gay people are actually transgender & dont know it because people thing being transgender is transitioning when it’s literally just not being cis.