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Just want to reiterate this: there is always a reason to keep going, but if you can't find one? Make one.

Decide that you want to get better at something small, like making things nice, or cooking, or that one game you like.

Anyone who says things like "that isn't a hobby" or "you're not good at it"? Prove them wrong.

Live for the sake of spiting those against you, and loving those with you.

Because living for literally anything, is infinitely better than dying for nothing.

Most, if not all, of what I say here is from my own experience.

I am young. I'm not trying to say I'm not.

But I've dealt with not good thoughts; I've dealt with a shitty mental state.

And I've managed to dig myself out of the hole, but I didn't do it alone. Asking for help is by far one of the most difficult things I've ever done. But was it worth it?

A million times yes.

Because of the fact that I didn't end it, I've been able to experience joys I wouldn't have been able to otherwise.

Because I've been able to grow in my talents to the point where I like what I do.

Because I've done things and seen things and heard things unlike any I've known before.

And it is all because I gathered enough, not courage, but fear, of slipping from this tiny ledge, and said "I'm not doing well".

Please take care of yourself.

More serious post because I want to try and help people.

tw: suicide, mental health, depression

If you are feeling like nothing would change if you didn't exist, here's my advice. Note that I'm not, by any means, a professional, but I want to do something to help.

Get a plant. Get something that depends upon you to live.

When you feel like it would be better if you were dead, think about that plant. Think about the fact that if you died, it would die too, or at least it would become unhealthy. That plant is more than just a plant, it represents everyone you have ties to, and you do have ties to people, even if you don't think it.

If it dies early, acknowledge that there is a chance that you did something wrong, but know that you also might not have. Be sad, then get another one, maybe one that's easier to take care of.

You need to stay alive to water it, to help it grow and thrive. And when that plant eventually blooms, you can look at it and be glad that you stayed long enough to help it flourish. And you may realize that you have more of an effect on things around you than you think.

And when that plant dies, mourn it. Feel sad that it's gone. But remember how if it weren't for you, it would have never gotten a chance at life. Realize that it hopefully pulled you out of that horrible place, even just a little bit.

Realize that nothing is permanent, not even the bad things, and that you can outlive them, you just need to find a way to.

Don't ever overdo it.

If you can't go outside today, don't. But maybe open a window, get some fresh air. If you can get up, but don't have the energy to make your bed, that's completely fine! Don't want to make food? Don't, but don't go hungry either. Have a piece of fruit, or maybe toast. Celebrate the small wins and celebrate them when they happen.

Take it slow.

Don't rush things. Good days happen, bad days happen. If it's a bad day, do what you can to make it a neutral day. If it's a good day, congratulations!

Suicide is not the easy way out. There is no easy way out of depression. Recovery is not easy, but it's far, far better than the alternative.

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24 followers

somehow

woo 10 followers i'm so incredibly attractive for that

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hey i found the best brush for galaxies in procreate btw

Leatherwood brush especially with luminance blending enabled is literally gorgeous holy shit

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Fantasy geoff

pretty :0

genuinely love the design my friendly fish friend :D

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btw just so we are aware

that last drawing is the most accurate depiction i think i've ever done of myself ever

i felt so incredibly awesome like that

and i was and am

self love hell yeah

dump of a few of my recent drawings because I forgot to do it sooner

PRETTY BOY PERCY BECAUSE THER IS NOT ENOUGH OF IT (please ignore the fact that all three of these drawings are in a different style I don't really have an established one yet)

unfinished eyes that I like anyway

some slightly creepy eyes

HAND

skull with that effect of the colours disappearing when the respective lights are on (I don't know how to explain it it's colour theory alright)

and finally

AN IDEA FOR A SIREN-ISH MAKEUP LOOK THAT I HAD

maybe sort of not really appearance reveal but don't look too much into it please

and the last drawing has no clothes but don't look too much into that either i just didn't know what the fuck clothes to give it so

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hey remember this

well i'm BACK

BIT DIFFERENT BUT I RAN OUT OF IDEAS TO ADD

WOOOOOO

I HAVE AN ICE SPIRES IN THE WORKS AND WILL PROBABLY DO VENT GARDENS AFTER BUT WHAT SHOULD I DO AFTER THAT

SUBNAUTICA FANART BECAUSE I LOVE THIS GAME

DONE IN PAINT BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANY FANCY ART APPS ON THIS THING

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once again a wild fishe on Reddit @threecephalopodsinatrenchcoat hola

also 100% agree with you LET ME MAKE/USE THE SCIENCE THINGS PLEASE

i keep glitching the game because i try to bring physical item lithium or kyanite or whatever into my base (to put into a science room) via propulsion cannon and moonpool and it invokes the unique Collision Hell of Subnautica every time 😔

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hey friends I'm kinda nervous but what if i posted some photos of me feeling incredibly pretty

look at my hair it's magnificent

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how the fuck do y'all continuously write this is hard

hey moots i am officially an AO3 author are you proud of me

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When I (M29) was a young boy (M7) my father (M35) took me into the city (X167) to see a marching band (M23, M21, M22, F22, M24, M25, F21, M

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why can rockstar games institutionalise you for life like nikita kruschev for being autistic

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weird asks that say a lot

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1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

7. earbuds or headphones?

8. movies or tv shows?

9. favorite smell in the summer?

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

12. name of your favorite playlist?

13. lanyard or key ring?

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

18. ideal weather?

19. sleeping position?

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

21. obsession from childhood?

22. role model?

23. strange habits?

24. favorite crystal?

25. first song you remember hearing?

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

28. five songs to describe you?

29. best way to bond with you?

30. places that you find sacred?

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

32. top five favorite vines?

33. most used phrase in your phone?

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

35. average time you fall asleep?

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

38. lemonade or tea?

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

41. last person you texted?

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

44. favorite scent for soap?

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

47. favorite type of cheese?

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

51. current stresses?

52. favorite font?

53. what is the current state of your hands?

54. what did you learn from your first job?

55. favorite fairy tale?

56. favorite tradition?

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

62. seven characters you relate to?

63. five songs that would play in your club?

64. favorite website from your childhood?

65. any permanent scars?

66. favorite flower(s)?

67. good luck charms?

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

70. left or right handed?

71. least favorite pattern?

72. worst subject?

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

82. pc or console?

83. writing or drawing?

84. podcasts or talk radio?

84. barbie or polly pocket?

85. fairy tales or mythology?

86. cookies or cupcakes?

87. your greatest fear?

88. your greatest wish?

89. who would you put before everyone else?

90. luckiest mistake?

91. boxes or bags?

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

93. nicknames?

94. favorite season?

95. favorite app on your phone?

96. desktop background?

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

98. favorite historical era?

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This is mesmerizing to watch.

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hey moots i am officially an AO3 author are you proud of me

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still immensely proud of this actually

HA GET ART I MADE USING A MOUSE AND TOUCHPAD IN BORED BUTTON'S DRAW LIKE ITS THE 90S THING

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is this somehow not against things like the Constitution?? The fuck do you mean this is is allowed? And it includes veterans? The people who most of the country seems to worship, despite never listening to the wants of the people they place on a pedestal?

Land of the free huh

Tell me again how both sides are equally bad.

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BOOM SUPRISE ART

MERFOLK IDEA DUMP LETS GO

Feel free to use these designs if you want!! Just please credit me if you do

BOOM SUPRISE NO REFERENCE ATHENA

And finally,,

Thing :)