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maybe the only good thing about the lack of creative opportunities in my city & the string of funding rejections I’ve received over the last few years is that I’ve COMPLETELY outgrown my imposter syndrome. Like. I can do SO MUCH MORE than people let me. Someone give me a chance and I will fucking run with it. I’m the absolute tits & this stupid place is sleeping on me hard. All u execs are on my blacklist, watch out, be warned. Me & my genius pals are coming for you.

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Puppeteer here. Puppetry is amazing because most people who end up doing it fell into it somehow by following strange paths in life. I’ve never met a boring puppeteer — some of the oddest, most spiritually engaged and funniest people I’ve ever met. It’s absolutely a way of life, and life has become SO much better since I’ve made it central to my practice. The sheer silliness and the seriousness with which you handle it is profound. If you suffer with depression I can’t recommend it enough. It really really makes you feel connected to the point of being alive.

Puppets are amazing just by virtue of being alive. And so are you!

can we as a society make puppetry cool again. like lets make it trendy. Mainstream. more people should get into doing it and more people should appreciate it. puppetry requires craftsmanship and charisma and physical acting and vocal performance!! you can’t get that from ai. it has a charm to it that neither 2D nor cg animation has. Have you ever watched a puppetry performance and realized you were genuinely convinced that the puppet was getting into bed or eating something or giving a hug that you wholly forgot there was some guy’s arm in there.

isn’t it lovely. to make a funny little guy to tell stories with. is that not so human of us. it’s such a lovely art form. I love you puppets I love you muppets I love you marionettes I love you handmade sock puppets I love you paper bags with googley eyes I love you armatures I love you I love you I love you!!!!!

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Top image: Rafah before Israeli invasion, November 23, 2023

Bottom image: Rafah during the ongoing Israeli invasion of the city, September 5, 2024

The word you're thinking of is: genocide.

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this sucks so bad i need to [remembers suicide jokes only worsen my mental health] put on the best talent show this towns ever seen

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📀👄🛏️⭐️💋 ookkk I’m fucking (and I’m a STAR)

first 5 faceless emojis are how your summers gonna go

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If i ever see any of you in public, the code is

that way we know we’re from tumblr without revealing anything

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As a lesbian i will always relate more to trans women than cishet women. Made to feel disgusting and predatory in women's spaces? Check. Berated and mocked for our relation to sexuality and womanhood? Check. Hated for our "deviancy from the norm"? Check. Every single essay about womanhood by a trans woman--and especially, especially by trans wlw--has spoken more to me than anything written by a cis straight woman ever could. T*rfs can take that to the bank.

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I was raised hardcore agnostic.

‘Suppose in everything, believe nothing.’ (My family?)

‘Belief is the death of intelligence’ (Robert Anton Wilson)

‘Minds open with wonder, not closed with belief’ (can’t remember, just drummed into me)

My point being, I always find it strange to see the general conception of agnosticism as an indecision, rather than a pretty intense practice of refraining from/unlearning belief (including believing in nothing). It’s not ‘I don’t know if God exists’, it’s ‘I am choosing the potential power of any and all theories about God over the comfort of settling on one’.

And agnosticism isn’t just about God— hardcores try to be agnostic about everything. If you’re really going for it, it’s not a cop-out at all (although some people def use it as such) — it’s extremely tiring and often quite frightening.

I really like the general philosophy because it creates a very open and varied experience of the world, and when taken to its logical conclusion, pushes an ethic of listening and giving people the benefit of the doubt, and of changing your mind & accepting that the beliefs that have formed unconsciously within you are not necessarily right or true.

Example: skepticism. The skeptic goes around, being skeptical of everything, narrowing their life and sense of trust until they reach the last thing to turn their skepticism to: skepticism itself. To be a true skeptic, you have to escape the bounds of the belief system that it laid out for you in the first place. Kind of like Nanny McPhee.

So in my practice, I do not abstain from opinion or ethic stances. For me, people’s rights and safety isn’t a matter of belief — it is a matter of understanding how my own rights keep me safe, and understanding that those who do not have those same rights are at an unfair disadvantage, and I am not okay with that.

And by the way, I am by no means anti religion or anti the practice of faith and belief — part of my practice is genuine wonder and curiosity and appreciation towards those guided by faith and their belief systems. In my own refusal to believe, I have found more connection with those who do (since I also refuse Atheism). The world cannot (and should not) be entirely agnostic— because agnosticism is meaningless without a diversity of world views and belief systems to attempt to hold in view and appreciate simultaneously. This means that agnostics cherish the existence of you all — because we couldn’t exist without you.

Ooo I could go on and on about how agnosticism has helped me to forge strong opinions!!

Take abortion.

It is very obvious to me that abortion should be legal, easy to access and entirely free for any pregnant person who wants it.

But aren’t I stepping on the ‘rights’ or ‘invalidating’ Christian belief? Shouldn’t I abstain from this conversation, whimpering as we agnostics tend to do?

Fuck no! Because while we accept that there are belief systems (and a whole bunch of other factors) that might make someone not choose to have an abortion, it is UNACCEPTABLE for those people to take away the choice, the diversity of outcomes and expressions of self, from other belief systems. I ‘suppose’ I am Christian, and try to access the feeling of not wanting an abortion even in the most extreme of circumstances. I ‘suppose’ I am someone who wants an abortion because it is not the right time for a baby. I conclude that abortion should be accessible, and that there should be systems of child support etc for those who have children in adverse conditions.

I really dislike the disdain a lot of atheists have for faithful people. There is a sense of dismissal, of ‘asking for’ negative outcomes if you are a person of faith. Agnosticism supposes in atheism, but no more than anything else. In fact I have found that atheists tend to be the people who get the most angered by agnosticism. Their minds can be extraordinarily closed! And I must admit I find them fairly boring conversation most of the time.

Not sure how to end this. But

i think agnostic is often a copout tbhhhh like not always but often when you probe this with someone it'll become clear that they do actually live in a certain way in relation to their belief or disbelief in divine entities but they just don't feel discursively confident taking a hardline position on it in an argument so they id as agnostic. similar to how like basically everyone operates under the assumption that human free will exists but far fewer people will defend that position verbally.

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Researchers have used Easter Island Moai replicas to show how they might have been “walked” to where they are displayed.

VIDEO

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oh god this really got me

ennui—>absurd comedy sublimation

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Growing up is actually all about realizing people don’t inherently dislike you and it’s a bit odd to assume they do

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anyway. onto better things

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things to say to bugs when science finally unlocks the secrets of human-bug communication:

im not hurting you i am taking you to a safe place

do you eat weird crumbs cause i found some im willing to share

you can bite me if you want but id rather be no-bite friends

i like your big colorful eyes, very stylish

please dont crawl into my sleeves

(sings a duet with a cricket)

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Ok I was taught this by my ex & it’s magic:

Sweet potato — chop in half and chuck in oven till it’s soft.

Scoop out the flesh & mix with feta (or creamy/cheesy thing of ur choice) & garlic & spinach & olive oil & season

Spoon back into the skins

Put back in oven for 15 mins.

This meal ALWAYS tastes good and is swallow-able for me (and I don’t even like feta normally). It’s so delicious and full of nutrition & such a life saver. You can blend the mixture if you have problems with the texture of spinach & you can swap any of the ingredients with stuff you prefer. You can also bulk-make and freeze so you have them ready to pop in the oven when you’re overwhelmed.

I’m tryinnggggg to get better at preparing for moments I’m low-functioning when I do have the spoons. It’s a lovely gift to find that past you has thought ahead to this moment of struggle.

what are you supposed to do on the days that absolutely no food sounds appetizing but youre sitting there hungry and getting a headache but everything does not sound appealing