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THANK U AGAIN I LOVE IT SM

A commission for twitter user @grosstash Featuring their durge Eva and Gortash Thank you again for commissioning me! :D

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gortash’s boobs

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A man and his monster 🤍

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annoying evil people!!

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idk what to write next but i want it to be self indulgent as fuck

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first they make grandpa sit in the back and then they do this

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im back on my shit again

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Things that don't matter when you're writing a story:

what will critics and detractors say about this?

is this as marketable as I can possibly make this?

Things that do matter when you're writing a story:

is this story meaningful for me, the author, to write?

is this the story that I want to be writing?

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me watching 'gratitious' sex and violence and ''problematic representation'' in my shows and movies made for adults

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Just a quick drawing.

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tfw he's about to tell you it was all a misunderstanding

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Quickest way to my heart? Stab wound probably.

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I do enjoy a lot of deranged Durge nonsense but honestly the most depraved fantasy I have for Durge and Astarion is just how much I think they cuddle.

The way I see it, they probably just get cosy and make out all night for like… most of the game. Sure they probably also legit lick blood off each other at some point and at least one of them is literally turned on by murder but these are two people who have not had full control of themselves or their bodies in a very, very long time. Durge still doesn’t and won’t until the story is almost over. And when they’re not stabbing and shit-stirring and whatnot-ing, I firmly believe they are having the most sickening, tooth-achingly sweet moments full of the most respectful of caresses and probably keeping it above the belt. Maybe some butt squeezes. But you know. PG-13 shit.

So I don’t really care about or think about Durgestarion fucking nasty and being wild and filthy. One day when they’re ready I’m sure they’ll have insane degenerate sex again (you can’t tell me they’re not both freaks at heart) and I love that for them but like. I don’t see it during the game timeline and it’s not as interesting character-wise to me. I genuinely think they’re both mostly focused on figuring out how to get comfortable being present in their bodies and learning how to trust themselves and each other and how to experience pleasure for their own sakes… for maybe the first time ever.

I’m more interested in Durge not really knowing what to do at all and maybe finding out Astarion has really sensitive ears and nibbling on his earlobe just to hear him make a happy little noise — surprised at how much he likes making someone moan in pleasure instead of pain for once.

Or Astarion figuring out just the right spot to kiss on Durge’s neck so he gasps in delight, and how he likes that even better than just feeding on him straight away.

Both of them, on the receiving end of something sensual and gentle and lovely for once and getting to enjoy it without being punished for it or pushed for more. Getting to experience the simple safety of just holding and being held and knowing you’re treasured for you and no one is going to make you do anything you don’t want to ever again, and your partner is happy to help you figure out what you do want when you’re ready.

And that’s it. That’s my kink. It’s actually just fucked up people accepting each other completely and showing each other the soft kindness they never got from anyone else and accidentally healing along the way.

Then they can go on being happy little freaks forever, amen.

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typical Chosen Three meeting (pre-tadpole)

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I’m writing it and am suddenly self conscious about it 🧍🏾‍♀️

Durgetash Romeo and Juliet retelling incoming i can’t stop it from happening it’s coming out of me

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I like to think that Durge used to be the dominant half in their sexual encounters, mostly because they felt it was expected of them as the head of the Temple. Bhaal worshippers were far too eager to throw themselves at their feet and let Durge do whatever.

Nothing could really surpass the ecstasy of murder of course. After all,

… an erotic spasm washes over the killer in the moment of murder. It is said that in that instant, his Divine Essence can almost be tasted. Forsake all other hedonisms, acolytes, for nothing can compare.

That's until Gortash came along.

The first time Durge got pinned down by him, it was like seeing color for the first time. 

Slowly, almost inconceivably, their dedication to Bhaal worship began to crack. Durge would spend more and more time scheming with Gortash instead of attending to the Temple, trying to believe it was all still part of Father's plan. It certainly didn't have anything to do with experiencing the first genuine connection they'd had thus far...

The butler was naturally alarmed and tried to make Durge see sense. "This is not befitting of your rank, Master," he said, standing by the bed as Durge was getting railed by Gortash, but was only ever met with a swift dagger to the forehead.

Orin saw all of this and was seething. She immediately recognized how Gortash distracted Durge from Bhaal's holy mission. She couldn't stand that a heretic like this was Father's favorite. The jealousy was too much. Durge had to die.

Gortash was the sole reason for Durge's disgrace.