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hi everyone, i decided i’m actually going to try to recover this time. i’ve started treatment and i actually feel motivated to get better!

if you’re seeing this, please take it as a sign to recover!!!! you deserve it!!! 💜💜

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gaining visible weight takes one sandwich but losing visible weight takes 4 months of starving and exercise…? make it make sense

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i was so sick today from having a migraine that wouldn’t go away and barely ate and (unintentionally) threw everything up i lowkey wish i could weigh myself in the morning

i got weighed for part of an assessment at the ed clinic but they wouldn’t let me see it :(

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DON’T MAKE COMMENTS ON CHILDREN’S WEIGHT

This is the fucking reason for my disorder

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hearing your mom cook dinner downstairs knowing she’s going to call you down and force you to eat

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Every time I scroll through Tumblr I struggle between wanting to reblog everything I relate to and being terrified to reblog it because everything on this godforsaken site romanticizes ED and suicide and I don’t want to help a little girl/boy slowly kill themselves and their happiness.

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ann.tique

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living with mental illness is like,, everyone is going forward.. and I’ve made… the smallest of progress over two damn years… and sometimes, I’m even going backwards

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I need more blogs to follow.

Reblog if you are 3 or more:

Have a SW of 120+

Have been at this shit for too damn long to still not be at ur GW 

Binge a lot and then get on tumblr and cry about it lol

Post thinspo

Are active af 

Are in HS or College

I took a break from tumblr bc I got super busy and no one I follow is that active anymore so I need to freshen up my feed!!

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♡ 1000 calories is still a calorie deficit 1000 calories is still a calorie deficit 1000 calories is still a calorie deficit 1000 calories is still a calorie deficit 1000 calories is still a calorie deficit 1000 calories is still a calorie deficit

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Who else feels they are not “allowed” to recover until they have been considered underweight?

Just curious at how many people think this

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so uhh i’m starting “ partial hospitalization “ for my ed on monday but it’s virtual rn lmao,, they said they’re gonna be open again next week but idk

honestly i did want to start treatment like a month ago and my mom made me promise id at least try but at this point it’s just taking too long to even start and i still don’t feel like i need it or deserve it and i’m scared and i don’t think i’m ready but i don’t want to let everyone down and disappoint everyone:( but i feel obligated to bc no one wants to deal with it anymore and my mom told me she thinks i’m so skinny she can barely look at me and that made me so upset and i’m literally not even skinny :( my bmi is fucking 20 im not Really anorexic yet :/

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this ones a lil too hard to swallow

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Want to die but don’t want to die looking the way I do