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Concerning Urges

I haven't posted much for the past week or so. Life has been relaxing and comfortable, while simultaneously feeling so hectic and confusing.

I lost another resist Dark Urge; Tvingarde Mokret has been felled. A mis-calculation and poor planning on my part.

However, May I present to you:

Chel Treswynn

She/Her

Resist Dark Urge

Jack-Of-All-Trades

Honour Mode, Attempt 3

Already level 5, just having knocked out her wife Minthara and loosing Halsin from his cage.

A somewhat long lived Lolth Sworn Drow who, after many years picking up various skills and working different jobs, has decided to see what monastic life could be like.

Having lost most of her memory and background, she struggles to exist with her perception of herself in relation to the way people seem to fear or detest her. She wants to be a better person, and coexist here on the surface of Faerun.

Hells, she can't even remember if she has any remaining family about.

But she still can't quite get the smokey taste of dwarven meat, and it's sweet smell elicits an almost unconscious response of desire to indulge.

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Tvingade Mörkret

She/Her

Resist Dark Urge

Tavern Brawler Monk

Honour Mode, attempt 2.

Won't die like a bitch like Skroinki.

I am a fan of backs if that was not apparent.

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Our Brave Brother, Skroinki Dragonweave has died at level 5 to the Githyanki Forces before the Mountain Pass.

His last words were "I'm over here stroking my dick I got lotion on my dick right now. I'm just stroking my shit I'm horny as fuck man I'm a freak man like for real."

He managed to give his life to protect Gale for about 22 more seconds before he was horrifically cut down as well. Karlach and Astarion were also there, unfortunately.

Didn't break the Oath, at least. Though one would think making a pact with a hellish creature probably should. Oh well. Onto the next!

Skroinki Dragonweave

He/They

Resist Dark Urge

Oath of Devotion Paladin

Honour Mode w/ added stipulation of the run being over if I break my oath.

Nearing the end of Act 1 already having finished the Goblin Leaders and Auntie Ethel.

Gods wish me luck.

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H-h-hey der Fry-man! I uh see dat you ain’t makin’ too much use a your uh-gift der.

I’m tellin’ ya, these little dudes are BAD. ASS. *points*

So whaddya say? Dat absolute ain’t gonna be easy, you should take all da help you can get! Your pal is totally about it ya know? The milkshake has embraced the illithid like me!

Master Shake, having embraced the illithid tadpoles is seen floating behind the Carl Emperor, spouting some nonsense about the crown of Karsus, before his netherese orb explodes, roll show credits.

~ Dancing is forbid- d-d-dancing is forbid- ~

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My wife and I have spent the past 48 hours displaced from our home after a major gas leak was discovered in the easement between 3 of our neighbors homes.

We took to challenging one another to draw some characters from memory.

One I challenged her to draw was good ol Wulbren Bongle himself. (Kind of relevant with the whole potential explosion thing.)

So she had me complete the set with a Barcus of my own. Here are the original sketches and the finished drawings I did.

I feel like these would be great stickers.

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Ichiban is awesome and this was fun to draw!

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Skroinki Dragonweave

He/They

Resist Dark Urge

Oath of Devotion Paladin

Honour Mode w/ added stipulation of the run being over if I break my oath.

Nearing the end of Act 1 already having finished the Goblin Leaders and Auntie Ethel.

Gods wish me luck.

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does this resonate with ANYONE

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One of the first things I did in my first BG3 playthrough was to equip lae'zel with the frumpy troubador hat. She kept it through act 3 until she got Sarevok's Helm.

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Me fully aware of and on my way to being cat fished by some vile creature.

please, can someone take the laptop away from kiryu... he thinks research includes watching cam girls...

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Introductions

Hello there! Welcome to my first blog. Like, ever.

Even having lived through the early days of the internet; I still have never organized my thoughts or works in any meaningful way.

So this is my first!

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Born and currently living in Texas. Looking to move to WA sometime this year, however.

I am a feller with many hobbies and interests that are constantly changing, but lets list some out!

My Wife - my wonderful partner of 7 years has helped me to discover so much about myself and without her this blog likely wouldn't exist! While the topics I post about or the art I share may be personal in nature, or explicit, I must state: This is not an invitation to approach me in a romantic or sexual way. My wife and I may both be attracted to all kinds of people or creatures, but we are very much in a committed one-on-one marriage.

Bideo Game - WoW, Valheim, Zelda, BG3, Like a Dragon, Elden Ring, etc etc etc. I have been playing games since I was 3 years old. I have a few things to say about them.

Music - I have always had an interest in music and in the past few years have pursued music composition as a serious skill for my future. I would say being a composer in the Film/TV/Games industry would be my current life goal.

Art - I love to sketch and draw, in particular I enjoy drawing human anatomy, male & female. I enjoy heavily stylized arts, and have a particular interest in graphic design. (I work as a Dashboard UX Engineer irl.)

There are likely so many things I am forgetting, as my memory is pretty weak sometimes. Though hopefully if you've read this far, you can get a rough idea of my interests.

Finally, I'll get right into it with my first post!

2024 has someone been one of the most challenging yet rewarding years in my 31 years here on earth.

From Loss, Purpose

In January of this year, we lost one of our cats. Sansa was the definition of a cat that should be on the cat food bag. A long-haired tuxedo, she was smaller in stature and had unknown health complications that manifested while we were away at AGDQ.

Devastated we returned home, no longer filled with her neurotic peeps and screams and yells for food/pets/play. She had this habit of absolutely singing the song of her people while you were already overstimulated, or are actively talking over discord.

Life felt different. I felt hopeless, and had such a hard time returning to work from the combination of post-con depression, and the loss of one of our beloved pets.

Something strange happened though, because after that first day back things slowly got better. Not just "back to normal" better. Because how do you define what "normal" looks like without a "normal" key fixture? Normal has to change.

My wife and I suddenly became aware of just how much weight we had put on since we first got together. How little we were taking care of our bodies or general appearance. Some of our favorite clothes didn't fit, we didn't feel good or look good.

We started small by working diligently to keep a consistent diet, with a consistent meal structure. Then we started incorporating exercise (Running & Lifting for me, Biking for her.)

Here we are just about 3 months later and we have both lost a significant amount of weight and we feel so much better.

I miss our baby Sansa more than words can say, but I am thankful that she was a catalyst for us to change our lives.

Along with Sansa, there is another motivator for me, personally. Born and raised in a very conservative south Texas family, anything other than straight was an absolute no go.

Back in December of 2023, a friend of mine made the unwise decision to purchase Yakuza: Like a Dragon for me. Oh boy. I'd always had a passing interest in the series, but didn't know where to start. Having become a huge fan since, I am very thankful for that gift.

I went on to buttchug that entire game right before infinite wealth came out in January, and have since moved on to the older games. (Currently in Y0)

All this is to say; when you play a video game where for the greater part of 100 hours and you have someone like Ichiban or Kiryu or Tendo constantly ripping their tailored suits off to reveal perfect male anatomy with gorgeous skin and intricate tattoos, you don't walk away the same.

Like, look at that MFer.

It helped me to realized that for most of my life I'd been suppressing my attraction to men. I found out I was Bi thanks to the funny haha silly Japan crime game and the schizoid-moment bloke himself, Ichiban.

The Rock-Bottom Dragon

I will admit I clocked Ichiban incorrectly from the very start. It's not my fault though! You cannot tell me when you see this promotional art that he does NOT look like a total fuckboy. I'm sorry.

But what I found was resonance with someone that I never expected. Homie literally said "when I grow up I'm going to just be the hero from Dragon Quest." Then just proceeded to grow up and be the hero from Dragon Quest.

I wanted to be him. I have always thought of myself as a kind, selfless person, but he made me realize I wasn't. I only was when it suited me. This guy's brother literally tried to use the full weight of the Japanese Government and Criminal Underworld to kill him and all he can say is "that's ok bro I still love you as my brother."

A quote from the games that has stuck with me since, and helped guide me in times of uncertainty:

“Once you’re at rock bottom, the only way forward is up. But the bottom doesn’t have to be all dark and gloomy. If you can stand and look up, you’ll see the light of hope there.” - Itchy Balls Katsudon

Though I wanted more than his heart of gold. His physique was extremely inspiring to me. The kind of sleeper build, where in a suit he looks just like your average dark haired tall man. But when you pull the suit off, you can see such definition in his anatomy. It's just so visually interesting to look at. (In both Horny and Non-Horny ways!)

So I decided fuck it, Ichiban has inspired me to steal his look. Eventually I will share more of my fitness journey, and in a more concise manner, but here is a comparison shot from February 3rd, 2024 to today.

I think the gains I've made are pretty clear! In the first photo I weighed roughly 210, while today I weigh 188!

Yes that is a JJBA tattoo.

Anyway, I'm yappin and I should be getting back to work this morning. I wanted to yap some too about Baldur's Gate 3, but for now that will have to wait.

Thanks for having me Tumblr, till next time.

Grae.