godplsmakemeskinny

[godplsmakemeskinny]

Sorry I disappeared, I tried to Kms but that obv didn't work so I'm back

[godplsmakemeskinny]

I've been clean for 601 days now but the urges are so bad I'm convinced I'm going to relapse at some point

Should I just do it now to get it over and done with?

I binned all my good blades, so I'll have to use a shitty pencil sharpener :/

[godplsmakemeskinny]

Hi, I hope you are doing well🌹

Can you help by sharing my story, reblog, and donating if you can, to keep hope alive for me, I'm type 1 diabetes. I am calling on your humanity and kindness to help me raise $340.

This amount will enable the approval of an insulin pump that will help me better control my diabetes. Although I am happy that I have been approved the hardest part is the money to pay for the pump and equipment, please your contribution is important. Be blessed ♥️

Can't donate but I'll put this out there

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I'm literally at my fucking limit

I sh slightly last night, but it didn't break the skin (I usually do styro) so I'm not counting it

I'm so sick of this one friend

I acc can't cope

[godplsmakemeskinny]

What's the difference between a crisis and rock bottom

I can't stop the anxiety and I'm nearly 2 years clean of sh but god I feel sick and it just takes the anxiety away instsntly

I don't even have anything I could use to cut

Oh god

[godplsmakemeskinny]

Also sorry for the inactivity

Been low-key suicidal over how bad I've been binging

But here we go again!!

[godplsmakemeskinny]

Doing a new diet. Well, it's not new, it's one I've done B4 but I rly need to get back into the swing of things so I hope it triggers my honeymoon phase again

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Gonna walk home today to burn some extra c@ls

Starting off the new term right 💪💪

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I'm gonna try not eat at all tmr. It's a Monday and mam's having a flare up so should be easy

I've ate like 2,000 c@ls today I feel so fat

But at least I'm 46kg

[godplsmakemeskinny]

The older you get the more you realise you really do need to watch what you eat.. :/

[godplsmakemeskinny]

So it's been

4n4 August

Sk1nny September

0zempic October

So it's next is

N0 f00d November

C@l0r!3 D3fic!t December

Reblog to Claim <3

[godplsmakemeskinny]

I rly wanna be under 100lbs by December so I'm gonna try to not have any binges during November

If I binge, I'll c^t myself. I rly don't want a relaps3, been nearly 2 years clean, so having that as a punishment is a good deterrent

I deserve to be frail and weak and pathetic

I deserve the kindness that comes with it

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my favourite mealspᥫ᭡

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Wasn't online much today or yesterday cus I binged had with Halloween

But November's here and all my sweets are gone (🥲) so let's lock in for November!!

Stats: 46kg

Where I want to be: 44-43kg

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Reblog if you will be an active 4n4 blog in November 🌟🌟🎀

the t shirt 💀💀 lmao

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Oh I love a good Weetabix I need to get my mam to get some in

had weetabix for breakfast!

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I'm literally the worst child ever

I was meant to be helping my mam bake and stuff for the party tonight and just fucked it all up

I fucking spilt sugar all over and then boiling marge and burnt six of my fingers

I've just made a right fucking mess and I'm on my period so I just keep crying

But I've just made a mess and my mam's already so busy today and I've just made more work for her cus now she has to clean the kitchen and do the baking rather than the other stuff

And she kept saying that it was okay but I know it's not and I just feel like shit

And I'm too humiliated to run into my other family cus it's obvious I've been crying and my sister came down to the kitchen cus she heard stuff and I just shouted at her to go away

I'm such a fuck up

I told her I didn't trust myself to do it but she still let me even after I spilt the sugar