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Who do you ship in The Secret History?

Henry and Homer.

“‘You're a Homeric scholar?’

I might have said yes, but I had the feeling he'd be glad to catch me in a mistake and he would be able to do it easily.

'I like Homer,' I said weakly. He regarded me with chill distaste.

'I love Homer,' He said.”

-Donna Tartt, The Secret History

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so unfortunately college isn’t just about performing ancient greek rituals with your friends

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Hi frens

I have somewhat bad news. Am in kidney. Failure. like bad bad/ And I wrote, and excuse me for butchering a masterpiece. Idek if it’s okay to rewrite the song that way, sic it’s not about the world events but I’m. Bitter and alone in the hospital for Xmas eve so sue me. excuse the dramatics it I’m feeling dramatic

To the melody of “that funny feeling”:

“A favor for the parents- loopholes in the law.

Sickness growing stronger- well, ‘you do reap what you sow’.

I’m dying, you’re crying; how very fitting of you.

Flatlined at eleven thirty, you had hoped it’d be ten two.”

There it is again…

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my constant stream of thank yous and sorrys will save me from the ass beating i have coming for the crime of having needs

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“you look tired” well the torment is relentless and the horrors never cease

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Hey uhh you need to tell your therapist/psychiatrist if you’re planning to kill yourself. Especially if you have a detailed plan in mind. Could that land you in a psych ward? Sure. Would that suck? Most likely, yes. I’ve been on both sides of this, in many wards, also as a patient. I know they can be really, really bad. But it’s an even worse scenario if you end up committing suicide. I’m not talking about your psychologist facing consequences here, it’s just that u deserve to freaking live.

And you deserve to heal. No one would think twice if someone with a broken leg wanted to run a marathon. They wouldn’t let em run the damn marathon. And in the same way you can’t force yourself to function like a regular person when your brain is actively thinking of ways to kill itself. And it’s not that you owe anyone healing, either, you just deserve it.

I’ve been seeing more of these “I was too honest with my psychologist” or “what to say to not get yourself put in psych” posts lately, and they worry me, both as a psychologist and a person who’s been actively suicidal.

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Orin baldursgate is conceptually the funniest character of all time on account of simultaneously being a changeling whose whole thing is SHE COULD BE ANYONE AT ANY TIME who also she cannot refrain for more than 45 seconds from monologuing about getting into someone’s thoracic cavity with her teeth and lovingly tearing all the heart-muscle to pearly pink ribbons

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how come in every disco Elysium post I see, the mustache one is being a massive cringe fail loser (usually face first on the floor), while the bald one is off to the side serving metric tons of cunt

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Folks with this whole "you're old once you hit 25" mentality are just buying into a repackaged "you need to have your life figured out by 18 and if you're not successful by 22 you're a failure" load of shit. Like....bruh, life doesn't end at 25. Idk how to tell you that the time limit you're silently imposing on yourself and your peers is largely responsible for your dissatisfaction with your life. Stop living your life like happiness has an expiration date. It doesn't.

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adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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I just realized I’ve survived everything I’ve ever encountered in life. I have a 100% survival rate. I’m fucking nailing it.

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Louis “how can this be love when there’s so much evil” de pointe du lac vs Lestat “how can this be evil when there’s so much love” de lioncourt

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honestly some of y’all want a significant other so badly and can’t understand why you can’t find one, but have no sense of boundaries or healthy expectations of what a relationship is like. in a committed long-term partnership you get left on read, you wait for texts back, and you can forget about each other when you’re busy. sometimes you fall asleep without saying goodnight and sometimes you’re too caught up to text each other before 6pm. that’s how it is. thinking that you can’t be deeply, beautifully in love and still wait more than “1.75 hours” for a text back is such an unhealthy and unreasonable expectation of what love is, and you shouldn’t be in a relationship if you can’t allow the other person to exist on their own apart from you. if you’re projecting your anxieties and insecurities onto a partner who doesn’t even exist yet, then you aren’t ready for one.