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when i started this account when i was 14 i was in a terrible place. when i come back to it i think of all the nights i spent alone in my room crying because of the pain i felt every day. it was debilitating and exhausting. i think back to that poor girl who felt alone and unwanted and feel an overwhelming sense of sadness and grief for all she missed out on. all the moments she lost to her lonliness. all the experiences she sat out of because the sadness consumed her body. i think about the time she lost being too insecure to find happiness and needed the validation of others to feel confident. while ive grown a lot and im not longer in the place i was at 14 i still have parts of her. i mourn the life i could have lived, should have lived. but i jump for joy at the life i have now.

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 I told you at the beginning of all of this “I’ve had my heart broken before, by many people. I know what pain feels like. It’s hard for me to open up to people and be with them because it’s always ended in pain.”

“I’m different I swear. Your heart won’t be broken by me.” You told me, looking into my eyes, the tears already filling them.

“You’re different” Something inside me knew you were lying, but I trusted you. Now look at me. I’m even more broken, lost, and incomplete then I was 10 months ago, and for some reason...I still want you.

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grunge love xx

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grunge love xx

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e a r t h l y

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i’m different from how I look

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