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"how could you?"

"what? I didn't exactly mean for this to happen, I can explain--"

Her eyes twitch in curiosity. Genuine wonder on her face. "No, no. Don't. Like, how did you do that?"

I feel my face twist in confusion. "Do..what? Which part?"

"All of it!" I watch as her face brightens, her cheeks redden with a passion I'd never seen before. "Like, what went through your head as you lit the match and dropped it?"

Her questions are unending. The more she asks, the more concerned I feel. Is she really wondering how I burned her house down? Why is she excited about that?

"It was an accident though?" I didn't drop the match on purpose; I was just trying to light a candle and as my mind slipped, so did my grip on the match. Next thing I know, I'm outside watching her house burn. I mean, I don't really care, since this isn't my house anyways. And I'd technically broken into it. This is the first I've ever run into the owner of a house I'd broken into.

"To think you chose my house to burn." Her eyes light up, reflecting the flames as she watches it crumble to the ground.

“How could you?” “I can expla-“ “No, I don’t mean morally. Logistically how could you even pull something like this off?”

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cuddles, hugs, and watching TV together. shopping together and oogling over how prices can get. restaurants and drinks. making fun of each other. sleeping in on weekends. breakfast in bed. or late eating. screaming at the world. being our best when we're together. being our worst together. cursing at the world. being weird. cursing at each other and then kissing and making up. when we randomly hug each other when we want attention. clingy and courteous.

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I want to love and be loved. is that so much to ask?

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coworker: you're gonna love me today me (already in love with him): oh yeah, why? coworker: i leave early today. me (still in love with him): oh you fucker.

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when he says "you're gonna love me" because he knows he's inconveniencing me. but little does he know i already love him.

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having a day job starting early in the morning is really nice, since you have your whole day ahead of you. though i struggle to do really anything after work besides take a fucking 6 hour nap afterwards.

i never understood why my paternal parent would get up 3 hours before his early shift. now, he had to commute about 45 minutes, but i'm realizing now that he took that time to take care of himself. i'm thinking now i could wake up earlier to take care of a couple of chores, as well as mentally prepare for the day.

i'm still struggling to do just that, and it's only happened about four times. i'm chronically late to work, but i'm thankful to work in a place that understands that shit happens. but even with this mindset, i've been getting to work earlier than I normally have, so I guess it's working as a start.

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to avoid reality i take personality quizzes

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Fyodor Dostoyevsky // Alanis Morissette

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– Audrey Hepburn

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my friend: where did my <paperwork page> go?

me: up my ass.

friend: I hope not. think about all the paper cuts.

me: don't worry about me. I have a sphincter of steel