gloomyshroomie

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i hate how almost every taylor swift song somehow brings me back to you

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i can’t listen to taylor swift without wanting to vomit from the shear amount of emotion i feel coursing through my body

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My first heartbreak was my mother

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Journal entry - Nov 4th, 2023

Do onto others as you want done upon you. Big the world is a cruel and selfish place. They drain the good out of you for their own benefit and just leave you to rot. I do wonder if there is any humanity left in the world.

I have fallen prey to the vicious bite of man again. Do they have no fear? No fear as they rip me to shreds and walk away as if nothing happened? I stayed within my limits, within my fence. Yet, I am bleeding. A wolf in sheep’s clothing befriended me, played me, and catalyzed my demise. Once again, I am all alone, wondering why I allow such predators near me? My Creator watches me fumble and repeat my mistakes. How disappointed He must be. What a fool He has created. But the blame is mine to carry. The signs were there from the beginning. The sharp teeth had always been exposed.

Ignorance is bliss until you’re eaten alive. I laugh at and curse my stupidity as I gather what is left of my bloody being.

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I made a blog :)

If you’re Muslim and like astrology, this is for you:

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My ex from when I was 16 just got engaged (for reference I’m now 22). Literally wasted the last 6 years and (now) 24 days wanting him lol. Never got over him. I have filled so many pages about him, songs, poetry, journal entries, letters that I never sent. I reserved my ring finger for him but it feels like he just snapped it off instead. Another wears his ring and carries his name, while I sit in haze of shame and die beneath the blame.

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tola dunya ba wada oki ao pate pake ba yao za yam 🥹💔

Translation:

The entire world will get married and I will be the only one left

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It’s okay to let go. It’s okay to put something down. It’s okay to leave. It’s okay. Regardless of how long you’ve spent on or with something/someone, it’s okay to walk away. Allow yourself the freedom to move with currants of life. You don’t have to hang on for life. Let the waves carry you to where you’re supposed to be.

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back on tumblr after 7+ years

is nature healing, or have i hit rock bottom again?