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[gjesse]

Kit to Ty

Election day: misery, stress, hair-pulling, at least for Americans (and a lot of other people around the world affected by our politics!) So I thought I'd post a distraction; I hope it helps and doesn't annoy!

A while ago I posted the beginning of a letter from Kit to Ty, created for a Kickstarter backer. Here's the full text:

A letter from Kit to Ty, never sent.

Ty, Ty, Ty.

Your name looks strange written out like that. Like an abbreviation. But Tiberius would be so formal. I never think of you that way. Or, I suppose I should say, I never thought of you that way. Tenses matter in these situations, I guess.

It’s late, past midnight, and I’m sitting on the windowsill in my bedroom at Cirenworth. Jem and Tessa gave me one of the best rooms. Of course they did. It has a view out over the gardens. Sometimes I see the ghost of a dog there, a golden retriever I’m pretty sure, running in and out of the flowerbeds. He seems like a pretty happy ghost. I think about how much you like animals and how much they love you, because of course they do. But it’s too late; this dog passed away a long time ago. You probably couldn’t even see him. It’s too late for a lot of things, now.  

I’m still mad at you, and I don’t feel good about that. Maybe if I could forget, I could forgive. But I can’t forget that night you brought Livvy back. I’ll suddenly remember even when I’m thinking about something else. I’ll be in the middle of helping Tessa in the garden and suddenly I’ll turn around and I’m back in Idris. 

I remember I told you I loved you. I remember I told you I would help you, but not if you raised Livvy from the dead. Not if you did necromancy. But you wanted that more than you wanted me.

And I understand that. I’m not angry about that. Here’s what I’m angry about: when you brought Livvy back, you changed yourself. You made yourself a different person than the one I loved. I don’t know the person you are now. You took yourself away from me. I can’t forgive that. And you made me someone who has to keep a secret I never wanted to keep. I was raised by someone who had so many awful secrets, and when I started my life as a Shadowhunter I wanted to do it openly, and honestly. But now I’m just someone else with secrets I can never tell. Just like my dad.

It makes me angry, so angry. I want to yell at you. I wish you were here so I could yell at you.

Kit

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HOUSE M.D. • S6E09 ↳ “Ignorance Is Bliss”

[gjesse]

"i must say goodbye to this place now, to you."

"i thought you were done with hextech, and me."

wow. still amazed by his pettiness. 6'2, buff, bottom and bratty - this is the greed they talk about in the bible.

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something about jayce taking away viktor's physical capacity of feeling cold or warm but he wrapped his blanket around viktor anyway, an unconscious attempt of keeping viktor in his warmth. and viktor kept it. "i was clouded by emotions", and he left, but he never once thought of getting rid of jayce's blanket, jayce's warmth, jayce's affection. and something about viktor's body going cold, the hypothetical warmth of life bled out before his eyes after jayce carved a giant hole where his heart used to be, while jayce's blanket was still draping over his lap, the warmth was just not there anymore

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jayce might have experienced years of trauma inside the fucking orb but when he saw viktor the first thing came to his mind was still the pain and the betrayal he felt after viktor broke up with him and they didnt even date oh my god FAGS.

[gjesse]

im a child of too many divorces

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the love was there but it was forgotten, fading away like a distant memory at the very end of his heart, his mind ached for the love but his body didn't recognize the love anymore

If your ship doesn't have one of them dehydrated, mentally broken and physically at his limit blast the the other´s heart while they look in horror without even trying to retaliate then WHATS THE POINT WHERE IS THE LOVE

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it was jayce's selfishness that he brought viktor back to life by merging him with hexcore despite viktor asking him to destroy it, because he couldnt stand the thought of letting his partner go. then, it was jayce's selflessness that he shot viktor without an ounce of hesitation, despite all his affection, for the sake of the people

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oh my god jinx killed caitlyn's mom and caitlyn helped jinx (and vi) to save their dad........... oh my god this is sickening............

[gjesse]

viktor as the frankenstein monster and jayce as his maker oh no i might be onto something

[gjesse]

was it casual when i let you be mean to me because i thought i needed you but it turned out you needed me more than i needed you so i had to leave before you consumed me whole SO ITS NO MORE and if you need to be mean be mean to me i can take it and put it inside of me ITS so please hurry leave me i cant breathe please dont say you love me AND youre coming back and its the end of the world we're starting over and i love you darling and i am done dear NOW

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having a lumity and caitvi hyperfixation back to back is so rollercoaster one is blessed by the narrative one is doomed by the narrative "thank you toh for not dooming our yuri" we all say in unison

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"it was affection that held us together" what do you MEAN "was" hjfhddwewwkj hes literally not a human anymore he couldnt feel anything physically or emotionally so the affection was lost. he no longer felt affection for jayce because it was TAKEN from him, hes not PHYSICALLY capable of it anymore NOT THAT HE EVER STOPPED LOVING JAYCE ON HIS OWN and JAYCES ACTION DIRECTLY LED TO THIS IT WAS THE MATTER OF LOSING HIM PHYSICALLY OR LOSING HIM EMOTIONALLY oh my god they took doomed by the narrative seriously

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in the moment vi stopped fighting jinx - the person she thought to have changed, she had a glimpse of powder again when she protected isha, and cait - the one she begged not to change, was unrecognizable to vi's eyes when she insisted on endangering a child's life just to get her revenge

robert smith wrote this for them i swear i was there

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I DONT CARE IF IT HURTS im talking about taking the entire social experience of college and putting it online I WANT TO HAVE CONTROL you got 2200 hits in 2 hours? thousand 22000 I WANT A PERFECT BODY this idea is potentially worth millions. millions? he stole our website! I WANT A PERFECT SOUL they're saying we stole the facebook. i know what it says. so, did we? I WANT YOU TO NOTICE a million dollars isnt cool you know what's cool? a billion dollars WHEN IM NOT AROUND let's sue him in federal court! YOU'RE SO FUCKING SPECIAL if you guys were the inventors of facebook you would've invented facebook I WISH I WAS SPECIAL do you like being a joke? do you want to go back to that? mark! BUT IM A CREEP your best friend is suing you for 600 million dollars IM A WEIRDO

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or if you wanna walk with me to the station but i beg you not to

the Withnail and I fandom is dying reblog if you’re gay and a fucking failure

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or you demand to have some booze

the Withnail and I fandom is dying reblog if you’re gay and a fucking failure