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[gjesse]

funny how they saw us losing our minds over viktor/machine herald still keeping the blanket jayce gave him so they revealed that the crystal jayce kept close to himself all the time which basically shaped his entire future was viktor's. just for the fun of it

[gjesse]

madohomu "the source of madokas power is the karmic relationship which is basically created by homura messing with the timeline again and again to save madoka" 🤝 vikjayce "viktor only became the machine herald because jayce decided to fuse him with the hexcore to save his life" I CANNOT

[gjesse]

so viktor was always there with jayce, hiding in the darkness, disguising as a moment of hallucination. he had lost his jayce to the consequences of his own actions, all viktor had left was the empty shell of who and what his partner used to be. and then jayce was there - alive and breathing, the very fragment of memory viktor had clung to in all those years of solitude. but he was suffering, and viktor was supposed to ignore his agony like that. jayce needed to open his mind first in order to change viktor's. so imagine the alternate viktor, who had lost the love of his life, had to stand by and watch the younger version of said love crying out in pain, struggling both mentally and physically and two seconds away from officially losing it. he witnessed jayce going through what had damaged him since childhood - malnutrition, physical disability.

and he can do nothing.

[gjesse]

jayce closed his eyes when he knew viktors gonna pull him into the astral plane. maybe it was him accepting his fate. maybe it was him not having an ounce of worries and trusting viktor with his life because he knew that no matter what viktor had turned into, he wouldnt intentionally harm him. maybe it was him actually wanting to see everything through viktors eyes, to understand him, to help him find the humanity still left in him, to save him from the curse of eternal loneliness. because jayce had promised him.

[gjesse]

me when doomed yaoi leaving everything behind to be with your partner knowing theres no way back anymore what the fuck is wrong with them. me when greg house faked his own death just to be with wilson for 5 more months. me when will graham left his wife his stepson his career behind to be one with hannibal lecter. me when jayce talis left his mother his friends his existence behind to be one with viktor to finish what theyve started to never let viktor be alone again because theres no life to them without each other

[gjesse]

Kit to Ty

Election day: misery, stress, hair-pulling, at least for Americans (and a lot of other people around the world affected by our politics!) So I thought I'd post a distraction; I hope it helps and doesn't annoy!

A while ago I posted the beginning of a letter from Kit to Ty, created for a Kickstarter backer. Here's the full text:

A letter from Kit to Ty, never sent.

Ty, Ty, Ty.

Your name looks strange written out like that. Like an abbreviation. But Tiberius would be so formal. I never think of you that way. Or, I suppose I should say, I never thought of you that way. Tenses matter in these situations, I guess.

It’s late, past midnight, and I’m sitting on the windowsill in my bedroom at Cirenworth. Jem and Tessa gave me one of the best rooms. Of course they did. It has a view out over the gardens. Sometimes I see the ghost of a dog there, a golden retriever I’m pretty sure, running in and out of the flowerbeds. He seems like a pretty happy ghost. I think about how much you like animals and how much they love you, because of course they do. But it’s too late; this dog passed away a long time ago. You probably couldn’t even see him. It’s too late for a lot of things, now.  

I’m still mad at you, and I don’t feel good about that. Maybe if I could forget, I could forgive. But I can’t forget that night you brought Livvy back. I’ll suddenly remember even when I’m thinking about something else. I’ll be in the middle of helping Tessa in the garden and suddenly I’ll turn around and I’m back in Idris. 

I remember I told you I loved you. I remember I told you I would help you, but not if you raised Livvy from the dead. Not if you did necromancy. But you wanted that more than you wanted me.

And I understand that. I’m not angry about that. Here’s what I’m angry about: when you brought Livvy back, you changed yourself. You made yourself a different person than the one I loved. I don’t know the person you are now. You took yourself away from me. I can’t forgive that. And you made me someone who has to keep a secret I never wanted to keep. I was raised by someone who had so many awful secrets, and when I started my life as a Shadowhunter I wanted to do it openly, and honestly. But now I’m just someone else with secrets I can never tell. Just like my dad.

It makes me angry, so angry. I want to yell at you. I wish you were here so I could yell at you.

Kit

[gjesse]

HOUSE M.D. • S6E09 ↳ “Ignorance Is Bliss”

[gjesse]

"i must say goodbye to this place now, to you."

"i thought you were done with hextech, and me."

wow. still amazed by his pettiness. 6'2, buff, bottom and bratty - this is the greed they talk about in the bible.

[gjesse]

something about jayce taking away viktor's physical capacity of feeling cold or warm but he wrapped his blanket around viktor anyway, an unconscious attempt of keeping viktor in his warmth. and viktor kept it. "i was clouded by emotions", and he left, but he never once thought of getting rid of jayce's blanket, jayce's warmth, jayce's affection. and something about viktor's body going cold, the hypothetical warmth of life bled out before his eyes after jayce carved a giant hole where his heart used to be, while jayce's blanket was still draping over his lap, the warmth was just not there anymore

[gjesse]

jayce might have experienced years of trauma inside the fucking orb but when he saw viktor the first thing came to his mind was still the pain and the betrayal he felt after viktor broke up with him and they didnt even date oh my god FAGS.

[gjesse]

im a child of too many divorces

[gjesse]

the love was there but it was forgotten, fading away like a distant memory at the very end of his heart, his mind ached for the love but his body didn't recognize the love anymore

If your ship doesn't have one of them dehydrated, mentally broken and physically at his limit blast the the other´s heart while they look in horror without even trying to retaliate then WHATS THE POINT WHERE IS THE LOVE

[gjesse]

it was jayce's selfishness that he brought viktor back to life by merging him with hexcore despite viktor asking him to destroy it, because he couldnt stand the thought of letting his partner go. then, it was jayce's selflessness that he shot viktor without an ounce of hesitation, despite all his affection, for the sake of the people

[gjesse]

oh my god jinx killed caitlyn's mom and caitlyn helped jinx (and vi) to save their dad........... oh my god this is sickening............

[gjesse]

viktor as the frankenstein monster and jayce as his maker oh no i might be onto something

[gjesse]

was it casual when i let you be mean to me because i thought i needed you but it turned out you needed me more than i needed you so i had to leave before you consumed me whole SO ITS NO MORE and if you need to be mean be mean to me i can take it and put it inside of me ITS so please hurry leave me i cant breathe please dont say you love me AND youre coming back and its the end of the world we're starting over and i love you darling and i am done dear NOW

[gjesse]

having a lumity and caitvi hyperfixation back to back is so rollercoaster one is blessed by the narrative one is doomed by the narrative "thank you toh for not dooming our yuri" we all say in unison