girlgenius12

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in a class called “sociology of sexuality” and my prof asks “who here has heard of the lesbian masterdoc”

half the class raises their hands. i know that’s right

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can’t explain how absolutely perfect the title of the first episode of haunting of hill house is. “Steven sees a ghost”

ohhh my goddd!!!!!!

it’s perfection cannot be understood fully until you have seen the show but wow it’s so simple and perfect and it’s stuck in my head

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more lemonade mouth because it’s the best movie ever

this part is so satisfying

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olivia *stage fright* white

would you believe it that 5 minutes earlier she’s puking from anxiety and now she crawling on the floor head banging

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since i was a child i was always scared to kill a bug or step on one because my first thought was “omg what if they were on their way to a family reunion” or if a bug was on me and i moved too far away i was scared they were never going to be able to find their way back to their family. genuinely have thought this was about every bug i’ve encountered ever. try being an empath for a day.

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talked about weird shot-on-video movies in my horror movies class today and the weird nostalgia factor… wanted to be like “hey have you guys seen i saw the tv glow because this is so pink opaque”

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the tail end of october-beginning of november is my peak depression period. it’s so bad

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i obsessively update my medical id on the health app on my phone.

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well yes

I don't mind being a girl but sometimes I look at other girls and I think about how we are not the same gender

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how it feels to check my grades after midterms

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if you find what you’re looking for

be sure to send a new address

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yes nick nelson googling “am i gay” is objectively hilarious but that scene is also a little too real. i’ve been there so many times before just desperate for someone to tell me the answer so i wouldn’t have to keep figuring it out myself. i will always defend heartstopper idc.

i’ve spent so much of my life questioning my sexuality and i still feel like i’ve gotten nowhere in terms of ‘answers’

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i knew i was “getting better” when after seeing my super busy school/ work schedule the first thing i thought was “i have no time for therapy!”

i haven’t gone to therapy in a bit but it was nice to have a moment where i actually wanted to go. it’s nice to find someone who actually helps and understands.

anyways maybe i should schedule therapy soon

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like yeah duh

feeling existential and crazy

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wait i just realized me having horrible time management skills is a symptom of my adhd

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mentally i’m a whore, physically i’m repulsed by the touch of another

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do i… start an adhd medication before school so i can be used to it when school starts and can actually do well

or do i wait until i start slipping and adjust to the meds while actively falling behind