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shhhh...

comm for @cloudyqueenofhearts

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HOW was my last basco drawing from november last year

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electro-wave human

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*you know you want to get a copy*

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forest!

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cat (derrogatory)

commission for @cloudyqueenofhearts

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You know, i expected juggler to win, he's sexy like that. But i did NOT expect the second place being seven??? i thought hed be last, no offense to him

im drawing juggler then! congrats to him

blaming @stickers-on-a-laptop for this one <3

Challenge: make a poll with five of your all time favorite characters, and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favorite.

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my mother made a bank account in my name without telling me and now im in the red. I cant afford my next psych consult and im running low on my meds. I desperately want to get out of this house. im so tired.

If anyone has disposable income i do commisions, $45 for a linearty sketch, just so i can get myself out of this hole, at least debt wise.

it would be something like this

heres my kofi as well. genuinely desperate, if you want a more detailed comission by all means DM me and we can discuss prices!

thank you so much

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willing to go down to 40 or even 35 bucks depending on detail!

my mother made a bank account in my name without telling me and now im in the red. I cant afford my next psych consult and im running low on my meds. I desperately want to get out of this house. im so tired.

If anyone has disposable income i do commisions, $45 for a linearty sketch, just so i can get myself out of this hole, at least debt wise.

it would be something like this

heres my kofi as well. genuinely desperate, if you want a more detailed comission by all means DM me and we can discuss prices!

thank you so much

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my mother made a bank account in my name without telling me and now im in the red. I cant afford my next psych consult and im running low on my meds. I desperately want to get out of this house. im so tired.

If anyone has disposable income i do commisions, $45 for a linearty sketch, just so i can get myself out of this hole, at least debt wise.

it would be something like this

heres my kofi as well. genuinely desperate, if you want a more detailed comission by all means DM me and we can discuss prices!

thank you so much

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my mother made a bank account in my name without telling me and now im in the red. I cant afford my next psych consult and im running low on my meds. I desperately want to get out of this house. im so tired.

If anyone has disposable income i do commisions, $45 for a linearty sketch, just so i can get myself out of this hole, at least debt wise.

it would be something like this

heres my kofi as well. genuinely desperate, if you want a more detailed comission by all means DM me and we can discuss prices!

thank you so much

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DIDNT EVEN READ THE "TAG 5 PEOPLE"

@trupie @eclipse-song @riot-in-bloom @dangerouscommiesubversive @miraisentai im inflicting this on you <3

im drawing whoever wins btw <3 <3

blaming @stickers-on-a-laptop for this one <3

Challenge: make a poll with five of your all time favorite characters, and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favorite.

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blaming @stickers-on-a-laptop for this one <3

Challenge: make a poll with five of your all time favorite characters, and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favorite.

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why are you crying if its all your fault

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My vents are almost in its entirety for me, so i can get them out of my fucking head. Sorry they have to be in public for that to work

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I realised something today.

Im not in danger or a danger to myself in any way. Mentioning that because of the content warning.

CW for mentions of domestic abuse

I havent been able to eat properly since days ago. I try to down as much food as i can, though its mostly liquids, protein shakes and such. Today I woke up shaking, i couldnt stand to be in the kitchen, no matter how much i sleep i wake up tired.

Anemia? i thought. Ive been anemic before and it didnt feel like this, though. Maybe it felt different because im older now. Something just felt off. A stomach infection? but nothing else hurt...dehydration? maybe I was reacting weirdly to my new meds...

I wanted to go talk to a friend and i almost decided against it, i didnt want to worry him. I looked at myself in the mirror and looked so pale. This past 2 weeks i lost almost 3 kilos.

At the end I decided to go get a subway and as my friend was nearby, i went to talk with him for a bit. We were talking and suddenly i realised that i was hungry. Very, very hungry. I wasnt even nauseous anymore, nor was I shaking. In the reflection of the fridge i looked normal, other than mildly tired.

Maybe i just needed to have a laugh. Was it just loneliness? i assumed I felt guilty about no longer having the job because then he can't eat calmly (which i am) but the point of not being able to eat? it didnt sound like me.

I get home, put my subway on the table, and i feel like crying. I also can't even take a bite, its like i swallowed rocks. My arms keep shaking. So then it hit me

Its my house. I can't eat if im here, i can barely breathe. Even without my mother here i can't stand it, the fear of getting hit remains. If im outside im fine, i was talking perfectly fine, i was walking around the store and now at home i felt like my knees wanted to give up on me.

My jaw hurts from how much i clench my teeth.

I need to leave. I need a job that pays enough to pay rent, or if i work enough, to pay a mortgage. Shit, if its cheaper i'll get a car and live there. I would need a driver's licence but that shouldnt be hard.

i used to hide underneath the table my PC is on when my mother got aggresive. She's never hit me, just threw stuff and yelled and threatened to harm herself. To not eat, to not sleep, to quit her job if i didnt obey. Im tired, im scared, im starting to get really sick. theres only so much stress a single person can take.

meanwhile i can eat outside and problem solved, but thats not a permanent solution. I'm getting out of here.

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A commision for this lovely Vtuber, she's having a redebut soon!

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