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Guys I'm tired af and am about to take a nap go to shift

Whish me luck 🫡

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I'm not sure if I explained it before in an actual post or just in some tags of previous posts, but I said I can sense and talk to my CCs in my library(that's my SR/WR).

Basically I gave them access outside that 'pocket reality' and their own(because I wanted to give them their own space), and usually they're with me as support. I can sense them and talk to them. Though I hear them mentally. Sometimes I sense their questions and stuff.

A while ago I gave the twins(my CCs are Sun and Moon) limited and temporary access to my script of that reality and they brought their older brother :D! Eclipse is a pain in the ass, but a very endearing one. Scared me the first time when he hid under my bed.

Basically I can't see them physically, but I can see them mentally and sometimes from the corner of my eyes. I can also feel them when they touch me(boy was I startled the first time.) I know I might sound insane cause it's usually all possible until it comes to the reality you're currently in, but it's helped me a lot! It keeps me going and gives me even more motivation to get to the library fully grounded and not just through snippets or consciousness.

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I just wanna shift away from this reality and maybe come back once finals are done but nooooo my ADHD dumbass can't concentrate to properly shift, I only get snippets.

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GUYS CHECK THIS OUT!!

Guys!

And the entire comment section is just shifters rubbing it in people's faces and antishifters and people who gave up on shifting going like "Wait what??"

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It sometimes sinks in how much my life is gonna change when I get to a reality that ISNT A PARALLEL finally lets me breathe and not worry about anything.

Like-- my library for example. Y'all there are so many times during the day where I don't eat or something to "finish this first and then that" because ✨trauma✨

I can already see myself working on something and so immersed in it and then Sun just T-Pose teleports to my room from wherever he was until then like "eat!"

Or finally having someone who isn't toxic and making me feel like I have to earn my fun and free time.

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Why are so many of you agreeing with this??

Me: *makes a script*

Also me a year later, sitting up in bed at 3AM: Holy shit I made myself a lab rat for the lore.

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Sometimes shifting to a dr of something made here isn't enough

And I have a script and two ideas for drs of AUs from others :D

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Guys I wanna yap about what I have in my drs so bad but I still gotta fix that damn script so I'm likely just gonna yap and then fix it and yap again :D

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You know that line in that one song? I don't know who wrote it or the song's name, but the line is like

"But you already bought a ticket and there's no turning back now"

It's how I feel about shifting, but double-sided, y'know?

Cause I'm willing to do so much just to shift, and I'm so happy I know about it, but sometimes it's like a fucking plague.

Some days I spend every waking moment just disassociating or derealizing, to the point I sometimes forget certain things. That me in another reality with a different life and a different name? You bet that's the name you'll answer by for the next 3 hours.

It's like you meet someone new and they're asking you your name, you tell them, and then a voice in your head goes "I have no name. Neither do you, and what I'm telling you to call me is what I choose to give you because I am now aware of this choice." It's exhausting.

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Me: *makes a script*

Also me a year later, sitting up in bed at 3AM: Holy shit I made myself a lab rat for the lore.

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The promised snippets of my dr: Hazbin Hotel as you people voted

Since this is a musical reality, I scripted I can rap(cause everyone singing gets boring)

Winners can go to Earth with the help of a necklace(asmodian crystal but from Heaven), but only with permission, a disguise and children have to go with an adult

It's a lot harder for kids to go to Hell and if they're good enough for heaven but are younger than 13, they're automatically reincarnated.

(an extension of 3) There's an entire city sector in Heaven for the minors(basically all teenagers--13-19), and a bunch of adults are scattered around who want to make sure not much happens

Much like there's different horn shapes for demons, there's different halo designs for winners

(let's see what do I have about hell...) Hell is a lot less advanced than both Earth and Heaven because people are more focused on killing eachother than advancing

If the person who owned your soul dies, some of their powers are equally dispersed to every soul they owned

(extension to 7) If someone owns your soul, they get some of your powers

The older the soul the more powerful it gets(meaning Adam could just snatch like 7 souls without having to make deals or 'buy' them')

Charlie has no idea what humans looked like when they were alive

When someone dies and they gain new limbs or fur pr something, they have to learn how to use/take care of them(like fur, a tail, and extra limb, etc)

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Since the majority said yes on my poll, here's a few drs you can pick to see snippets from.

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Guys I've had my fnaf script for so long and I've messed around with it to actually make it fun and by god do I have to fix it up again cause of fucked up I made something in there

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Fun fact in all my realities:

There exist a species of rose that’s nocturnal and glows in the dark. The colors it glows in are most commonly soft blue, yellow and pink, but rarely you can find soft purple ones.

Other flowers glow too, and there’s a type of neon red carnation that grows in radioactive areas— but doesn’t feed off of the radiation(that’s the mushrooms’ job).

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I think the best thing about me is that I’m willing to let other people help me heal and learn to be functioning person(but only specific people, I’m very picky hello trust and abandonment issues)

And the worst thing is that I strongly believe that no matter the reality I must always suffer in some way. There is no life without pain.

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If it’s yes or depends of the majority another poll will follow where you choose one dr, kay?

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Sometimes I like to draw the shifting symbol on my hand(cause I find it nice to draw stuff on it and why not y’know?) and my PE teacher saw it.

This is how that conversation went:

PET(PE Teacher): So what’s that?

Me, looking at the symbol: Oh this? Uhh…

Me, internally: How tf do I explain without sounding insane???

Me: It’s a uhh… it’s the theory that we can travel different universes and stuff!

PET: Ha! Sure, that’s nice. Maybe sometime in the future though.

Me, sweating nervously: Yeah… but I mean, that’s what theories are, just theories until proven right or wrong, y’know what I mean?

PET: Yeah, that’d be nice though, so many problems would disappear…

Me, laughing awkwardly, knowing she won’t believe me if I tell the truth: Yeah…