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I love overwatch so much hhhh

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Let it be...

For all the years we’ve known each other, thinking we were close, thinking and hoping that someday I can call you my friend. Perhaps that dream is another delusion. Perhaps it will remain some fantasy concocted in my own selfish desire to keep you. While I was living in my own world, yours slowly drifted away, you’re moving ahead when I’m comfortable stuck day dreaming what could of been. Now that I’m awake, all I can see is the great distance between us. The man I loved and admired for so long is moving forward, is growing so fast, the man I truly thought that will stay with me is now moving at a speed I can’t keep up at. The closer I look at you, the more I don’t recognize you. It’s like you’re a foreign stranger to me. You’ve changed so much I wondered what happened to that boy I came to cherish and loved so dearly. Then I realize, that boy is gone, he didn’t transform into a new version of you, no...he left and someone else took over your vessel. I know that’s stupid to think that way, when in reality I didn’t know anything about you at all. Every memory we had together, every moment we shared, that version of you is the one I love. Who you are now is a stranger, I can no longer trust you. I can no longer love you. Who are you? Who exactly are you? The senpai I love died, whoever you are, I can’t love you...I refuse to get to know you! Not only cause I’m scared of change, because I know I will just slow you down...you don’t need me...please, leave, be well, be happy wherever you’ll end up...I’m sure you’ll find someone who can keep up with you...I’m sure I’ll be a ghost of your memories. “It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.” Rose Kennedy 

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Boy problems...

When you adore someone, you just love every aspect of them. Even when they hurt you, you always know in the end that you'll forgive them because simply having them in your life is worth more than anything. Let's say they're the one who left, you gave it your all and they left as if you're nothing. Granted, they didn't even tell you the reason. Just the excuse "I didn't think about it". For the first few months, your body is releasing toxic hormones making you feel like shit. Trying to think back what did you do to let him/her walk out like that. Did you make it easy for them to leave? Did you say something wrong? Before you know it, you're over analyzing your history with that person and leads to temporary depression. Long after, you get used to not having them around. You're starting to recover, then out of no where they pop up in your life again. You don't know what to do and you don't want to make it awkward. So instead saying GTFO, you try to talk as if things were okay again. Fooling yourself everything would be alright...thinking everything will go back like they used to be..but only to realize nothing would ever be the same. Mistakes has already been made...regrets...and now you don't know if he really cares or if he is just using you as a rebound...

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Favorite Ghibli Scenery for maj0rasmasquerade

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Another lil’ comic with FNAF!:)

So yeah…sorry for the super bad quality of this one, my scanner decided to be bitch today.

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Mandy: Rabbit, crown me with a party hat. Duck, go fetch me some pizza. Foxy, entertain me. And you, Fazbear, I don’t like your face. If I see it more than twice in one night I’ll make sure you get a clear view of your stub of a tail.

Freddy: Dum, dum, dum, dum…

Mandy: What did you say!?

Freddy: *runs away*

Mandy: That’s what I thought.

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Run before they take you...

September 8, 2014

Last night I dreamed about you. It was one of the weirdest dreams I had about you but it was sweet. Even we're growing apart...you're still here with me..

We were living in a society like the book "Big Brother". Friends and family were there with me, friends I haven't seen in awhile was there but seeing you there was all too weird.  In my dream we were in a group called The Resistance. I remember giving up, wanting to escape through caplets of medicine. Only overdosing will take me out of my misery, so I thought. I spread a large amount of tasteless white M&M shape drug on my dinner bowl, before swallowing everything like hard soup, you took the bowl smashing it. Holding me by my shoulders, you said "Everything will be alright, senpai is here." Senpai...my pet name for you...I looked in your green eyes and nod. (In every dream I see you in, your personality is different from the one you display in real life. No matter what the situation is, you're always confident like you can see the ending to it. You had this smile that can convince anyone that everything will be okay. The you in my dreams feels like it's been hidden, like the you you're showing off to everybody isn't  you.) You decided to take me out for a walk around the polluted city to ease my mind. The streets were worn to rubble, walking escalators were everywhere replacing sidewalks as if automatic treadmills were the way of the future. Buildings silhouette by orange gray skies and  neon lights seems to be the only thing that gives the city life. You took me under a freeway where a small branch of water flows. All around the vegetation is not only one shade of green, the dark kind of rotten green that no one would dare to eat but everything was withering away. I sighed upset that our beautiful spot is just decomposing along with the society we once knew and loved. I turned to you only to see another cocky grin, what the hell are you smiling about? You laughed taking me in a warm embrace, "At least one thing hasn't change," You began "Is you being next to me." Now that's how you assure someone you love. We snuggled, building up to the moment where we kiss but alas we didn't, couldn't because the curfew warning siren blasted the skies, echoing through the land. We know what would happen if we didn't make it home before 7PM. Dashing through the crumbling streets, like prey we ran as fast as we can to avoid the hunter. In this case, the streets monitors, slaves of our great ruler. They patrol all the areas like hungry lions, waiting for it's meal patiently in the shadows. Fighting off the burning sensations of our thighs and inhaling smug like air we made it to our rundown hangout spot. The clock strike 7 already you can hear the screams of unfortunate souls that miss the time by a hair. We were unlucky to, as we jumped through our door having our allies closing it behind us the time was 7:00:02 PM. Breathless we stared at the door, the only barrier that connects our wold to theirs. Everything seems to be quiet until this woman who resembles "Mama" from the movie. She gave us a wicked smile and crept in. You shoved me right behind you just in case she does anything but all she did was stare at us with her evil smirk. "Now now now children you know the rules, if you're not home before 7, you will be taken in by our great ruler. But since this is your first strike I'll let you off with a warning.~" Her voice was rough and dry, almost like she's mimicking the sound of dry chalk against the black board, screeching a sound you would beg for to stop. She walked over us and looked around the living room as if she was window shopping. "As for punishment, I will now take 10 of your belongings. Argue and you will be escorted by yours truly.~" Helpless we just sat there, watching her take family treasures, pictures, jewels that's been handed down. Satisfied with her treasure hunt she left without a word shutting the door eerily behind her. You held me close and that's when I woke up.  Everything was so random but that's what you would expect from a dream, but having you protect me like that and so gentle and loving...was weird in the sweetest way possible. I told you about my dreams before, you keep convincing yourself it was someone else. You're probably right, someone who looks exactly like you but with a different personality? Yeah it's not you but at the same time it is.

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This is actually how it goes

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HOLY WHAT

MY MIND HAS BEEN BLOWN

THAT NEVER HAPPENS WITH HARRY POTTER

ESPECIALLY NOT WITH MINERVA MCGONAGALL

OMFG MY WHOLE LIFE IS WHAT