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i’m in such disbelief right now and beyond disgusted.

i really hope y’all are choosing your morals over kpop; because we do not know these men at all. i will never side with or defend a predator and a criminal, even with little to no proof. even if there is the smallest chance he may be innocent, i will always believe the victim first.

some of you, as fans of the boys for years and him in general, i know you must be feeling disappointed and betrayed. you’re not dumb for previously supporting him, as we couldn’t have possibly known. but now is the time for a reality check and it’s time to wake up and take a step back. this just goes to show that we know absolutely nothing about them.

for sm to just outright put out a statement on their own before any rumors even surfaced and immediately kick him out? this has to be insanely serious and i’m terrified of what he could’ve done. the crazy thing is with everything currently happening in korea with the telegram situation, and korean women constantly being in danger in general because of the men there, i’m not at all surprised that celebrities are being exposed. sm has protected criminals before, and held onto lucas when his scandal came out as well as other artists who have been exposed for similar crimes. i can’t even imagine the severity of the current situation. we’ve seen what happened with the burning sun, and these men are not immune to being misogynistic, vile human beings.

members have already unfollowed him and deleted posts with him in them; his best friend of 17yrs has unfollowed him. the company taking the initiative and him getting kicked out of the group in less than a second before anything even came out, no denying the claims or even trying to defend him. that should be enough to tell you and understand how serious this actually is. i am beyond disgusted with him and this whole situation.

i sincerely hope the victim is doing okay and praying for them to heal and get the justice they deserve. and remember that your love for these celebrities should always be conditional, because we do not know them. it’s their job to put on a show and show you their public persona, but behind closed doors? we don’t know what they’re actually like. we put them on a pedestal and yet we don’t know what they’re really capable of. they are still men after all. i hope the police are taking this seriously. there needs to be consequences and these women need to be protected.

let this be a lesson to all of us. they don’t know us, and we don’t know them, not really, not at all.

ALWAYS choose morals over kpop. and as women, we should be standing with the victims.

maybe not all men, but enough of them. and maybe not all men, but somehow always a man. and going forward, i will continue to support nct as a whole with the remaining members. however, keeping the situation in mind, i will be supporting from afar for a little while. if the situation escalates and other members are investigated and new information comes to light about the rest of them either knowing or possibly being involved, it would be best to step away for good. i will do my best to stay updated. but i do hope the rest of the members are doing okay, and hopefully no other members were involved; but this, just shows that they can always surprise us. you never think it’ll be your fave, until it is.

let’s hope this causes a domino effect and more of these people are exposed and charged for the crimes they’re committing.

sending love to anyone who has ever experienced sexual violence or has been targeted and been in a similar situation. it is not your fault and it never was!

love you all and my dms are always open if you need to vent. <3

❗️EDIT: also i wanna add that we need to not praise the rest of the members or any other celebrity for simply unfollowing him on social media. that is the least of anyone’s worries.

we don’t know if they were aware, we don’t know if they knew and were protecting him or turning a blind eye. it could be them trying to save themselves and clear their guilty conscience. maybe they didn’t know and are just as shocked as we are, we don’t know that either.

we blindly trust these people and believe they have good intentions but look at where that can lead to. fans being upset is valid, yes; but remember people with money and power will do whatever it takes to sweep things under the rug and make it go away in order to save face and keep their image and reputation.

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flickering street lights on overheads

little hands hold onto strong arms

stable and loving, present and loved

she clings onto them, permanent charms

tiny folded palms in front of clenched jaws

arms raise higher than the sky and

lightning strikes, confused and painful

she still clings onto them, shaky land

feeding hands long to be fed too

I'm sorry I didn't love the lightning

i still cling onto your arms, warm and present

all your love now red and blue

banging doors and bellies full

does the empty house still sound full of footsteps?

you miss them and curse them

your love is so red at times the sun feels dull

flickering emotions fade in the light

you miss me and turbulent skies go quiet

for my folded palms still long to hold yours

my arms are now present, warm and soft

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wild few days to be a casual watcher fan

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Miles is ONCE AGAIN here with the jokes

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ex buzzfeed employees love sitting in threes on couches for their apology videos it's good enrichment for them

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Queen of Tears Text posts 2/? (Part 1, 3, 4)

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“they filled my cell with snakes” being a reference to the mythological Cassandra gaining the ability to see the future after snakes whispered in her ears AND Taylor’s cell(phone) getting flooded with snake (emojis)

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the watcher fandom rn

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Literally the 2nd time ever posting on here, but I’m just dumbfounded by the many different avenues they could’ve actually taken before coming to this!

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Hey!? Hiii?? Helloo??

HI HI HI HI HI ILY HI

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will never forget how percy was at camp halfblood and everyone in the room was dyslexic and knew he was dyslexic and they still made this boy read out the great prophecy in front of the whole class, a prophecy that at least two people in the room knew by heart, and they let him stand there and say "a half-blood of the eldest dogs." they set him up so bad.

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My curved back and protruding spine speaks of

Days where I curled into myself like a turtle shell

I take up space now. The curve of my back

And unsteady hands, and dry, nervous lips

And downturn of my eyes, are more of a bother

I feel like a toddler, wobbling on her shaky legs

But with none of her curious fearlessness

I have to learn how to stand up straight

Because I walk among others so sure on their feet

My path is not a steady trek further uphill-

It's a jump off a cliff with eyes closed and heart open

The rocks look so uneasy, the water sharp

But really, I know it's just the sunlight hitting it wrong

All I need is some courage, or maybe a quick push

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Rubbery, dust-covered, I found the memory of a little blue elephant under a table. It contained the selflessness of a little boy, when he once gave his cousin something to remember him by when he flew back to his home.

Back then we were strangers, bound only by distant familial loyalty. We started talking again, on our own terms, each secretly trying to learn who the other was as a person under the mysterious garb of 'cousin'. Perhaps we're friends now.

But it's been months since I've talked to him. I see his stories, and it's weird- feeling like a long lost sister when he's... right there. He visits my mother and sister. His brother borrows our family car. And here I am, six hundred and fifty kilometres away, getting snippets of stories over sporadic video calls.

I never actually found the elephant, by the way. I wish I find it before we move out soon. My house is a mess, and those shelves hold too many lost little elephants.

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I don't know how people exist so easily.

I laugh a little too loud, the silence in the room is slightly too long, and I'm sure my fear shows on my face. What am I doing here? And abruptly, I'm stunned into silence. It's something close to a thoughtless panic that silences me, makes me eat my own words when I sense even an accidental second of indifference.

It's ironic, thinking this way when I realise that outwardly, I'm no better to anyone else, withdrawn and unresponsive at the worst of times. Not when my interactions with those around me are so heavily dependent on what insecurity plagues me at the moment.

Maybe my friends do understand, they give me my space, but what if inside I'm begging myself to let my voice free?

Maybe others have managed before. Yet I feel like an impostor, a fraud, when I walk past a reflection and straighten my shoulders and convince myself the tshirt I'm wearing doesn't feel heavy on my body. I wrap their observations around my thoughts, I admire how you don't overthink, you're mean and I love that about you, I think it's cool how you don't give a fuck sometimes.

I've envied people who wear their heart on their sleeves. Even if unintentional, there's courage in exposing your soft bits to the world, to the biting winds and allowing people to pick at it. I'd rather flay myself alive than be open, be free. They are braver than me, because they have bared themselves to the world in a way I can only admire.