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I need to write and do my requests and make moodboards and make graphics for my editblr but I'm so burnt out 😔

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playing genshin for the first time who cheered

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I GOT HER I GOT HER I GOT HER IM SOBBING OH MY GOD

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I actually feel so nauseous waiting to order this doll cuz what if I don't get on the site in time and she's sold out...

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TWO HOURS TIL I CAN BUY DRACULAURA IM SO EXCITED

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it's times like these that my hyperfix really shows 😭 I stayed up when the Abbey creeproduction doll dropped to get her and I'm doing the same for draculaura...I might get clawdeen too I don't know...that'll be over £50...maybe just draculaura....

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sleepy but gotta stay up so I can get the draculaura doll when she drops...got three hours...she drops at 5am for me but I need her I've never owned an og draculaura doll...

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little ramble/vent (tw; suicidal thoughts, drug & sh talk!!)

recently my mental health has been getting so bad and usually I would use regression to help deal with it but for some reason I can't regress for long or even at all. before this week I was almost a month clean and now I'm not even an hour clean. I feel so stupid. I've been sober for almost 2 months and yesterday I ruined that just so I could feel something other than depressed and unwanted but it just made it worse. I dunno what to do anymore. I'm on the waiting list for cognitive behavioural therapy but I don't know if I can wait over six months for therapy that might not even help me.

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puppy ! regressor maddie nolen headcanons

cw(?) : 100% sfw mentions of padded agere / petre.

biter !! shows both affection and aggression through biting on top of it being a stim for her. she bites when excited or triggered , it's her response for all really intense emotions good or bad or when she's nonverbal / struggling with words. when she's triggered she bites more at herself or anybody who attempts to touch her. it's pretty clear when she's biting out of love / excitement versus in an attempt to protect herself or inflict pain.

chronic chewer , chews up any and everything that she can whether its a toy , item of clothing or one of her thumbs or fingers. if it fits in her mouth then that's where it's going !! big fan of teethers and chew toys but doesn't have any of her own : c.

such a silly pup !! she's a barker , whether its because she needs attention or is just excited about something !! chases her tail a lot and shakes her butt when she's excited like she's shaking a tail. playful little pup , loves to fetch things even when she's not asked.

follows around caitlyn like it's her duty. always doing little things for her to earn praise and growls at people who threaten her cait.

she's super obedient , getting really upset if she ever breaks a rule by mistake. she tends to get self destructive often hiding from others or biting at herself more.

LOVES pets and head pats those are sure to get her barking and wagging her tail. head pats make her feel sooo tiny. she gets super happy and stimmy whenever someone uses puppy pet names on her. yes she's mama's good puppy that's her that's her !!

not a big talker. she mostly communicates through whines and barks or through her biting. she's fairly nonverbal and being asked to speak is really upsetting to her. only exception is cait going "use your words pup" when they're all alone and cait's having trouble helping her. she wants to be a good puppy for caitlyn.

very accident prone which is sooo super frustrating for her. she gets over excited and doesn't realize she's gotta go before it's too late. she cries about it and instinctively hides because she feels like a bad pup and is mortified and scared. caitlyn is really gentle with her and understanding though , bringing up the idea of padding which upsets maddie at first. over time she gets used to it though and she must admit.. it Does help. nevertheless can be quite fussy about it.

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regressor ! maddie nolen moodboard !!

a lil bit clunky , not my best but : 3

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goood morning :3 (is 10am)

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so tired...auuuugh

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cw ; rant/vent...

almost 1am don't wanna sleep cuz been having really bad nightmares over the past few days and I dunno what to do...also been having flashbacks from stuff that happened with my old cg which is super scary and I don't know how to deal with it :(( don't wanna sleep ever again if it means I don't have to deal with any of this...

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little who cries at every inconvenience because of their heightened sensitivity

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carer who constantly comforts their little by letting them cry instead of telling them to stop and reassures them that it's okay to cry and to be emotional over little things

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some colourings I did :3

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I lost the original post I was gonna reblog w/ this but y'know...

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ARCANE S2 SPOILERS (ACT 2) (all spoilers below cut dw!!!)

ACT TWO HAS ME SOBBING STOP

WDYM JAYCE DID THAT RO VIK WDYM

AND ISHA??? SOBS THATS JINX'S BABY IF SHES DEAD ISTG

AND VANDER BEING BACK??? AHHHH SOBS

THEIR LITTLE FAMILY AUUUUUUGH