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Narealize ko lang na sobrang laki ng pangarap ko HAHAHAHA. Kasi imbes na nagrereview ako, ang ginagawa ko nagwiwindow shop ng house and lot😭😭

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First time ko na to checkout order that's worth 1k of makeup products. I'm so happy because I always wanted to buy makeup. I'm always the kikay girlie but remained lowkey and simple with my style.

Well first is because I'd rather spend my allowance on something else as it was not my priority. I was about to feel guilty but then realized that if I can spend my allowance and savings going to parties, all the more reason why can't I check out the makeups that I always wanted.

Ever since my brother said "bakit ka nagigiguilty sa binili mo? Para sa sarili mo naman 'yan". His words na 'don't be like that to yourself' really ingrained upon me. Kasi looking back, I don't carelessly spend money. I know how hard my father works for every penny. And I know the sacrifices my mother had to make for us. That's why, growing up, I already know the importance of saving and buying what I need.

His words were really something that touched me. I can't always be selfish about some things that I want. It's not also bad to spoil yourself one in a while. Don't be too hard on yourself, you also know that many of your days, you endured and always been patient.

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Ahhhck putangina lang niya talaga. Kakabadtrip

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Tao na pet peeve ko. Kairita. Bakit ba nasa isang kwarto pa kami putangina. Kung pwede lang lumipat ng apartment. Insensitive sht.

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Wala nang mas nakakainis pa sa marinig yung ginigatekeep mong song sa spotify na pinapatugtog na ng roommate mo maya't maya. Buti sana kung hindi oa yung pagkakareplay ng song. Eh hindi. Ulit-ulit na, tipong di ko gusto yung song. Kakabwiset

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Mukha akong kawawa. Gag*

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Putangina lang talaga. Kung hindi lang insensitive yung roommate ko Wala ako ngayon dito sa hagdan nagrereview(⁠ノ⁠｀⁠Д⁠´⁠)⁠ノ⁠彡⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

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Yaaay putangina. Ang hirap magreview kapag napaka insensitive ng roommate ko. Gusto ko nalang lumayas or humiwalay ng apartment

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Ang ganda ko pala talaga, ano? HAHAHA I stumble upon my pics kasi. I found my pics noong hs. I look cute ahuhu. I look gorgeous na ngayon kasi I developed a more mature look over the past years. Omggg. Why am I single??

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Naeexcite ako sa pen. Maya't maya kong chinicheck if nasaan na HAHAHA

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Lord, bakit naman po kasi binigyan niyo ako ng tao na pinagpipray ko noon na sana dumating sa buhay ko pero hindi ko magiging jowa. Grabeee. Ang hirap wag kiligin, ang hirap wag mag expect, ang hirap na hindi mag compare. Sobrang specific po ng answered prayer ko sainyo, Lord mwehehehe. Nakakatuwa lang rin.

Pero hayyy nalungkot ako don ah hahahshshaha

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Oh my gosh kinikilig nanaman ako. Parating na pen na inorder ko. Kelan ko pa tinititigan sa shopee and other online stores yuuun. Mwehehehe kiliiiig

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Minsan talaga it felt weird kapag iba yung dating sa'kin ng mga sinasabi ni u1. Like, how he worded such sentence minsan. Tapos unaware pa siya kasi he said it innocently out of no where. For example, last week, he told me nung nakisleepover siya dito sa apartment it would better daw if wala pinsan ko. Next time daw matutulog daw siya dito kapag wala pinsan ko. Then, this week Wala pa pinsan ko, he said "so dapat pala diyan ako nakitulog, wala si"

I don't even want to further my thoughts. I know it's just me ahahaha

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Kinikilig ako. On the way na yung 2nd gen pen ko mwehehehe

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Bakit ba kasi ang mahal ng Xiaomi pen 2nd gen ahuhu

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Ang hirap pala magpigil na uminom ng alcoholic drinks. But I made a promise to Him. And I will not falter. I feel bad for requesting it. Kasi I don't want na maparamdam sa Kanya na ginnie ang tingin ko sa Kanya. But You're not a ginnie, Lord. This promise that I made is a symbol and a proof that I could also make sacrifices for you. I pray for your guidance this sem, so that I would pass and graduate in January. I will trust you, Lord. Thank you for blessing me abundantly.

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Some things that made me teary eyed today is after watching the Spy x Family S2E2. When Damian is being harsh to himself whenever he feels the pressure of needing to excel. There are times when he would let himself want to take loose but asks himself if it is okay to relax when everyone is busy studying. So, he would stay up all night studying and worrying. But after going out on a picnic with his friends and teacher. He looked at how peaceful the night and the stars were after the long day. That moment he realized that it was okay to take a break. Taking a break wouldn't equate to him failing.

This review sem is the first time I felt the need to study non-stop. I'd feel guilty when I'm in a lax and idle moment. So, to cope up with those times, I would exhaust myself reviewing for several hours till my head is spinning. I was slowly being harsh to myself and forgot that life is bigger than all of this. If we look outside and appreciate every little thing around us, the one that is worrying us will feel less significant compared to the bigger world we live in. And only by that time was I able to breathe and pause for a moment.

It's okay to detach for a moment when everything feels so heavy. You don't have to worry because that doesn't mean you're a quitter. Doing this once in a while will redirect you to your goals. One again, you'll find your reasons to continue and get back on track. So, don't be afraid to take your time. Let it be at your own phase. You'll eventually get there. To where your hard work pays off.