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The Simulation Restaurant presents to you:

On the social programming menu tonight for our spiritually vulnerable consumers:

An entree of partial truths. To tease your . appetite .

For our main:

We have slow cooked illusion, a crowd favourite .

With a side of orchestrated lies, to clean your palates.

For dessert you can have either a false narrative , cooked to perfection or a tailored 5th dimensional consciousness upgrade that you will be waiting for and hoping for, but never served.

Also on the daily specials menu we are cooking up for you something very special ! Some well-meaning aliens will be our guest talkers tonight talking about how they are here save us from all our earthly problems. Some of you may even meet your star family tonight ! The excitement and anticipation builds!

Truth is no longer on the menu .

This menu is now viral.

Enjoy your meal. Make sure to tell others about us, and spread it round .

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I left my solitary home cave and hung out with a couple of people a few days ago. One of them was like me , thinks like me, generates motivation in others, takes the lead etc but he had dark intentions. So I’ll meet these kind of people every now and then. They’re really good at connecting with you real quick. And gaining your trust real quick and promising a lot , always going on about how you can trust them. They start trying to groom you and sharpen you and change you , mould you and morph you and generally try make you feel insecure about yourself slowly over time. Because we connected quickly, he thought he could start trying on the gaslighting after the second day we were on a drug binge .

I caught onto it straight away. I actually didn’t let it affect me too much. The second or third or fourth time he tried to take a scrape at me, tried to take away my confidence and give me a complex. Find out my weakness. As soon as he did that , I just looked at him and said:

“Don’t even try. I know what I’m about. I know who I am. I don’t need you to try tell me you think I should do this…”

I’m not after peoples approval anymore. Even during a volatile spiritual psychosis where one is vulnerable to attacks from humans and non-humans, where your thoughts are sometimes not your own, I know where I stand in the grand scheme of things. You have to be vigilant round people.

He kept trying after that a little bit , was persistent and started dumping shit onto the third person that was there, who I took pity on. He thought he was good but i outsmarted him. Nobody can take a poke at me these days because I know myself. Like expert Jungian level. I know where I fuck up, I know what my issues are and I know I’ve worked very hard over the years on myself. No one can gaslight me or shrink me. I don’t care how I effect you. I’m not here to win people over and charm them into my agendas and weave a web of amazing promises. Do I want to disturb people sometimes ? Hell yeah. Because I’m very disturbed. But if I want to leave an impact on somebody it’s going to be a positive one.

But if they are dark and they try to fuck me, I’ll just fuck them off real quick. And if you don’t fuck off real quick, you’ll be feeling my wrath if you know what I mean. So I know I’m strong and I’m better off alone, I know I have special connections with certain special people for certain reasons. I nurture those connections. Then there’s just others that are just new ones. They just want to build up trust real quick. I’m aware populations are fucking overflowing with these cunts.

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Has anyone ever had an Agent Smith experience and care to share ? I believe it happened to me. I was dating a guy who had a cardiac event in my house and I had to give him CPR for 15 minutes before the ambulance arrived . He survived but he came back different . Like a soul replacement or turned into an NPC. He wants grateful to be alive. He accused me of stealing his wallet while he was passed. I was like what do you mean I eas busy giving you effective exhausting CPR. The conversations we had together were very fark and depressing and draining to the point where it would spiral into me feeling ao hopeless about life I contemplated hurting myself or suicidal thoughts which Is not like me at all. I quickly disconnected from him when I realised he wasn’t the Same person . It was very scary and upsetting . And full on for me as I had entered into a deeper phase of my spiritual awakening in my thirties. I was 33.

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“The alert ones like me who have lots of energy and strength, stamina, emotional wellness, intellectual, banners, background, history, and have been studying their own psychology for years okay and healing themselves from trauma putting in that work. I know I am delusional and having a psychosis. I’ve managed to though cope with the psychosis on my own through my imaginary characters. Okay because no one is there. Whenever I need them. Family. Nobody. Just me in my house. Terrified at the world going to end. So I step into my hero, brave roles/personas cause I don’t see nobody else doing it, and I continue my work. Which is making my videos entertaining content for people. Real people have real concerns who are awake. Who don’t try to Gaslight their friends who they just met 3 or 4 weeks ago at work. Stop with the gaslighting tactics to try and get strong women to be needy if you . Okay? I don’t care if you don’t believe me and my warnings . It’s like you don’t even acknowledge the social injustices that I address which is ridiculously pretty obvious. You don’t have to be an expert conspiracy theorist to understand who is responsible for the problems in our society. Domestic violence mental health drug alcohol addiction child protection agencies family court all of it! Families are falling apart because of the system! And I’ve had enough! So I’ll just continue to advocate for the families of my community. Okay and the institutions that victimise me , myself and others in my community. I’m being brave basically like a soldier in war soldiers , soldiers don’t sleep they’re out on alert .There’s a reason for us we’re trying to protect everybody. From the dangers that the people don’t even see. And yeah that’s frightening at times and we are going to panic and think the world it’s going to end. We need reassurance sometimes. Do you know what? You’s weren’t there when you requested. So I understand everyone’s busy. But when you flake out 2×3 times kind of like obvious that you’re playing fucking games. I don’t need to depend on anyone to take care of me. I got this and taking care of other shit too! So thank you, but no thank you. I’m on to you. It’s a shame I have to avoid my other channel now just to stop your text messages about your “care and concern.” Mate I told you what my delusions and psychosis are. Okay I told you how I was. I showed you my content. I’m not asking you to recruit you to join me in the battle! I fucking should! You should be stepping up to it with me. But no, so I accept these friends of mine that “care” so much.  about me and your texts but not in the action and aren’t actually there for me. Thanks because it makes me stronger. I’ve got to get ready to go now. I’m gonna go and meet up with my real friends who actually care and see me and hang out with me and are good. And actually accept me for me because like you “care,” you don’t understand the principles of care because you’re not caring from the heart. When you care from the heart, you accept me on my zany ways and not try to change me. And when I make a decision to not go to work and go and see a doctor and go and do my own shit I don’t need you saying to me I think you should come to work. Who the hell are you!? I decide what I do. I decide if I go to see the doctor I decide if I go to work or not, I decide. I know myself in my own mental health. Thanks.

End of part 2 of this blog.

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I come out in front of the camera wearing a pink wig and holding my wooden golden painted sword that my mum made for me . I begin:

“Do you have a sense of urgency? Sometimes to extreme levels ? Do you find it hard to wind down , are you restless? Do you have a sense of impending doom? Are you panicky? Are you thinking you’re having some premonitions? And thinking about Angels? Because if you are, don’t know if you know this, according to the Internet, you have schizophrenia psychosis bipolar.” (I exaggerate a gasp of fake shock) .

(Me sarcastic :)

“I’m so glad that I’ve got lovely guys like you that I work with who I’ve only known for three weeks watching out for me. Doing your little Internet searches for me. It’s a big bad world I just can’t take care of myself with all this anxiety and impending doom! And also, just because I have pink hair doesn’t mean I was fucking born yesterday. Okay I’m a big girl. I can take care of myself. And I’m not an idiot. I’ve been dealing with this gaslighting for over 20 years. So many Of You’s are so tentative and sensitive and supportive in the beginning. Because you’s know that we don’t need you. We’re actually okay we’ve been surviving this long without you and even carrying others emotionally and financially. So thank you but no thank you. Thank you for your concern and your worry about me and like thanks for asking me if I’m okay all the time and tell me that you’re worried about me and just care about me a lot.. Oh and thanks for telling me that I had psychosis I didn’t know.” (I sarcastically roll my eyes).

“ i’ve actually been telling you this since we met I’ve been telling you about my psychosis. And my premonitions. So like, this is how it is. Men have an instinct to protect women. That’s fine. That’s normal for men to want to protect us and I’m grateful for that. But when you’re living in a sick society, where men are being systematically treated like work horses then replaced and chucked out like they’re past the use by date and struggling with homelessness and suicide and bad mental health okay by a system that victimises them it doesn’t help them… they need to seek for other ways to be that strong protective man. Ok. Women can gaslight too , men are not the only ones but it’s hard to tell with women as they fuss over people they care about. But these men that so badly want to like take care and look after you and spending every minute of the day texting with you but somehow flake out when you make plans to meet up or you need them to just be there for you . I told you that I was having a psychosis and I was like extremely fearful for the future of society. Which by the way all the symptoms that I mentioned at the beginning of this video completely normal response to what’s happening in the world right now. Okay? Thank you some of us are awake to this and some of us need to be kind of like protected. You know because we just living a scary (sarcastic tone) world. I’m all good I learnt ways to cope and I’m just fresh out of a psychosis I’m in Imaginationland but that’s how I cope. I needed people to care and worry about me years ago when I was a little little vulnerable girl, but I’m not a little vulnerable girl any more. I’m a woman. I’m a mother. I’m a staunch, Western Sydney girl. Māori. And I know what gaslighting is okay? Subtle as it is. I know what it is. The colonisers predicted that there would still be Reminence of actual brave, courageous warriors in our tribes that would come round in the future and cause a bit of trouble for their system. Remind the people that they’re like sheep, slaves, cattle, and being totally exploited and having their rights fucked over. So that’s why they’re crazy people like me so yeah we do have a High sense of urgency. Quite a lot. Because we’re on edge. Because we’re in a war. Trying to wake you guys up to it but it’s hard to get you guys to believe us, because you’ve been condition with this bullshit and going on Google and looking up delusions and you can’t take my imagination videos for real. Not my problem! Okay? When we needed you you weren’t there you flaked out then you want us with your texts and your words of caring. Let me just say this. If somebody cares about your girl if you’re watching this and you’re a girl if they care about you, they don’t need to tell you all the time they just do things to demonstrate this. Actions! Actions show how people love and care about you consistency. Reliability. Dependability. Punctuality.  okay because I’m seeing a lot of people promising much and giving very little. And I don’t need people who don’t contribute to my well-being in anyway telling me that they think I’m having delusions when they know nothing about me actually. And I’ve given them opportunities to find out about me by sending my videos. But they’ve decided to just take something that I’ve said which was that I’m scared. The world is going to end. Can you please help me can I please see you, they took that as a paranoia hallucination, because they’re kind of like numbed out and compliant. Which is exactly what the symptoms indicate. So they don’t want us to have a sense of urgency and hardness and premonitions and panicking and sense of impending doom, nooo. They want us to be compliant and calm and dopey and doing what we’re fucking supposed to be doing on the program.

End of part one.