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Hey, heres my love story

There was once this girl and she was very smart and beautiful, we're not classmates but we study at the same school, shes older but shes the same batchas me, shes just 1 year older, but im born in november so its like... 14 and 13 but because i was born late its 13 and 15 which i thought was fine, so one day just a few days before valentines, i would have never expected her to have a crush on me but i guess i was lucky, we talked a bit and i guess she just really liked my personality, she ended up giving me gifts on valentines day and she really felt like a childish person despite her being older.

I decided i didnt wanna break her heart and just reject her so i took her in... i opened my arms to her... and so few weeks go by its smooth sailing, then her friends pressured her to ask me to be her bf... its only been a few weeks of dating, mainly it was her rushing but i dont blame her, i could have atleast stopped her but i didnt so its my fault too, but yeah we were couples and we were actually really great and compatible couples, keep in mind this is our first relationship so we're still in the puppy love phase, we both understood that we had to argue innorder to have a stronger relationship, and me being a man, i got jealous easily, she was the touchy type and she hanged out with gay dudes, i despise gay dudes in school because a lot of them are only pretending to be gay just to get closer to women, but anyways she let them lay their head on her lap and sleep, and to the non gay dudes she would just caress their face... right infront of me... and it hurted which is why i argued with her and in the end we resolved the issue, the thing is she didnt really... stop touching men but i guess i moved on since i knew i also had to change... so this continued and stuff but its irrelevant to the story right now since it wasnt really a problem, so yeah we had our first kiss and stuff, and i achieved my goals, she always had all her goals achieved so there wasnt really much to her story in highschool, but me... i used to be top of the class until i got beat up in grade 3 which caused me to loose motivation, but she really kept my head up and motivated me which caused me to be better, oh by the way this happened in grade 8, anyways, people still continued to ship her and stuff, and i guess i was chill with that since i liked that.

But anyways lets fast forward to a few more months because we were basically a great couple and then school ended and we were at the recognition and stuff so like fast forward to a few days before school, she had just arrived from her vacation from the Philippines, and i got bad news just after she came back... it turns out she lost feelings for me... and it happened just beffore oyr geade 9 days are gonna start...

And it really hurt cause i was getting so excited to see her in person again, and i kept trying to salvage our relationship cause i wasn't ready to let go, and i continued doing so even after we broke up, i've been changing myself after our breakup, and im talking good changes, really wanting to become a better person, but she still didnt wanna be with me... and what hurts more is that she was really... like you could sense the difference in her behaviour... and i mean it makes sense cause shes older so she matured but like... atleast let me mature too...

The thing is my parents dont really care abt me, and im the middle child too, but she... she was proud of even my small achievements and progress and it really made me happy, she was the loving mother i never had, but its all gone now and i regret not cherishing her while i was still with her, i didnt recognize her enough for the good things shes done to me... and the reason she lost feelings for me was because she felt that i had no purpose in her life...

My school starts in a few days and i dont know if im ready... i dont know if i want her or not anymore... ive healed to start loving her again... but she doesnt feel the same way for me... wish me luck cause im persistent in what i do and i really believe i can achieve anything i put my mind to.