fuxulonni

[fuxulonni]

It's been one year...

[fuxulonni]

So I am a burden

[fuxulonni]

I'm too ashamed to talk to you again

Not that it matters

It's better if you don't interact with me

[fuxulonni]

I saw you all happy

There was no space for me

So I left

I ran away and hide

I guess this time there's no turning back

It was about time

[fuxulonni]

I'm not a person that deserves friends

[fuxulonni]

My best is not good enough

[fuxulonni]

How can you all be so optimistic

[fuxulonni]

I'm lonely

I always am

I wallow in self pity because I'm lonely

It's pathetic

I won't change

They keep telling me I can change but I can't, I don't want

Being lonely is my entire personality, I have nothing else

No matter what I will end up lonely because that's who I am

So just leave me

[fuxulonni]

Everyone just telling me their wishes, promises and hopes for the new year and me here just wanting to die

[fuxulonni]

If I tell you then what

Nothing is going to change anyways

[fuxulonni]

I thought I would be sad if you weren't here anymore

But I don't feel anything at all

It's just the same no matter what

[fuxulonni]

I'm lonely no matter if you're there or not

So I might as well be by myself

[fuxulonni]

"Let's get better now"

But I'm not

My feelings are just a burden

Sorry

[fuxulonni]

How do I even know if what I like is my own interest

I feel I'm just trying to be liked

Is this who I truly am

I'm a copycat

[fuxulonni]

I had a down moment and needed someone to cry to but it's fine

It doesn't matters anymore

[fuxulonni]

I needed a hug right now but like always you're not there

[fuxulonni]

I'm not happy with my life but I'm not sad either

I just don't want anything to change

I'm fine like this