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but yeah i feel myself like kind of melting into myself more as i(we?) think about it more so i don't think it's really as deep as i thought it was. long story short i just missed my past self deeply i guess and wanted to connect back to it somehow but that sort of ended up with me thinking that my past self was a whole other alter somehow o_o? i dont know ... sorry about all the commotion lol. 'both' of us are alright btw im like coming to terms with it and everything i feel stupid rambling on and on like this about nothing especially not something most people reading this could connect to but i just feel like i have to get it out somewhere or ill blow myself up !

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it also explains why i haven't appeared a lot over the years and why a lot of my memories and especially all of jovie's memories are also mine it feels like we're too interconnected with ourselves to really be different people which is why thinking about all of this is just making us feel weird and sort of distant from ourself like a singularity

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I COULD BE REGRESSING FOR ALL I KNOW. i could be the exact same person but it's just hard to tell right now i'm just being weird about it. i guess that would make sense though...

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for now while we think about this we think it'd be best if everyone treats us like the same person because technically we are...

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i think personally i would be ok with being called jovie as well we're kinda both at the consensus right now that i'm just like permanently 14-year-old her if that makes sense there's a lot of memories i have and that she has as well and until she lets go of them i don't think i'm going anywhere! and that's ok. but it's weird for me too in the sense that right now i'm feeling like a sense of mourning towards myself and i dunno if that's even coming from me or from her or from something else it's hard to approach aghh

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i'm back i can't really sleep....i feel like as time passes i'm realizing that i don't feel as different from jovie as much as i assumed i did and also as much as she assumed i did almost as if i'm her just stuck in time in just one place that's why i don't feel any older than i did when i went away for the first time. personhood is complicated :(

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did i seriously forget to turn on asks here omg sorry it should work now lmao

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i'm napjam on there btw if anyone's interested :3 ignore that the last review was like two fucking years ago

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NO WAY I REMEMBERED THE PASSWORD TOO this is so fucking epic

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i should get back into movie reviewing honestly especially since my letterboxd has stayed intact after all this time somehow

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in a way i feel sort of more mature i feel like i haven't changed at all it's weird but not much has happened in those two years i guess .. but also every thing has ..

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wait no seven i miscounted

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EIGHT FOLLOWERS ALREADY?

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here before the Stampede! (followers)

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im literally ketchip and mustard this is so fun i missed this so muchh

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YES IT WORKED i call him squiggie i think it suits him

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yaaaaaay oh wait i need an icon gimme a sec