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rainy day

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I'm hoping I have a better sleep tonight. I took an anxiety pill just in case I have racing thoughts again. It really does work wonders.

Tomorrow I really need to do some reading. I'm currently reading Wildfire by Hannah Grace and Orbital by Samantha Harvey.

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THERES SO MUCH I WANNA READ AND SO LITTLE TIME FUUUUUUUUUUU-

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Just had some awful news.

My grandad who has limited mobility and admittedly doesn't want to get more active to help, had another fall yesterday and has broken his leg. He has to have surgery on Sunday or Monday to out a plate in.

I feel so bad for him right now. I'll be spending the evening with my gran like I already planned to tomorrow.

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Anyway I think I've decided to stop using my phone as much.

I use it around 4-5 hours a day and that's not good.

I need to do my hobbies or find new ones to distract me.

I need to use my computer to watch YouTube videos. I'd even use my computer for tumblr but I prefer the mobile app better.

I really want to do more things like reading and being productive. Being on my phone for most of the day is not allowing me to do that.

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So last night being home alone was terrible.

I went to bed at a reasonable hour so I'd be rested when I woke up in the morning. We'll let me tell you! I couldnt sleep due to being too hot even with my fan on that I was sweating in all the wrong places. Then my brain wouldn't switch off and I had to take an anxiety tablet to calm me down.

Eventually I got to sleep. And now I feel a bit weird this morning. I think I got to sleep around 11-11.30. Not ideal as I went to bed at 8.45.

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On a good note, my independent cat is being all cute and is cravuhg attention. What even is this. What have you done with my cat?!

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Being home alone is weird.

I am feeling more confident in being home alone for 3 nights than I was when I was alone for longer last year in September.

I even felt so confident that I took the rubbish out at a decent time. Still light but starting to get dark.

The next test is getting the bins back in tomorrow. I'm sure I can do it.

And you know, it's not ideal being left alone while being on your period but sometimes we gotta do what we have to. I might be emotional today but I'm dealing with it..

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I like to think today has been and will continue to be a good day.

I rang my gran today and we went for a walk at the park and out for afternoon tea. Ive been reading Orbital and I'm loving it! And tonight I get to have a heat and eat mac n cheese and I'll probably play sims.

I hope tomorrow is just as good.

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books & cats

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I was very brave today

I took one of my empty journals and I used it

and the world didn't explode

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30.01.2025—book haul!! so ready for January to be over, longest month ever

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Well, I've ended up starting Orbital.

It's really good so far.

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I bought the book Orbital the other week and ive been so excited to read it.

If I wasn't currently reading another book I know I'd read it and finish it by Sunday.

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I'm officially home alone and on my period...

Oh the joys.

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Read in January

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So I live with my parents and they are going away til Sunday. They leave tomorrow.

You'd think someone my age (28) would be having friends over. But no. I have no friends that are my own. Insyead I'm looking forward to spending the night with my cat, tv and my ready made mac n cheese meal.