fornevernotforgotten

[fornevernotforgotten]

I hate

When hair gets in my face

Porous secretions

Draping their dark

Dangly

Necks into my eyes

Dragging into the

Film of my irises

Forcing themselves into

My brain

[fornevernotforgotten]

Defeat

It feels like no other pain

Its’s numb with a pinch

It’s caused by an unknowning

Loving being

That you cannot fathom

Exists in you

[fornevernotforgotten]

Sometimes I drown my lungs in smoke

I shove it down my throat,

Down my airways

Just to know that I’ll die someday

Knowing that if I drowned

It was on purpose

[fornevernotforgotten]

It’s disgusting, what I do

For the sake of art,

I tear people down to their weakest limbs and shout it to the world

As if they haven’t shown that enough

Blood drips down their throats

And I drink it until they’re dried down to their bones

Their marrow even

I do it willingly to my victims

Just so I can do it to myself all the same

[fornevernotforgotten]

Courage

Its a funny thing

It meant everything when I spoke to you

It means nothing after you wished me well

[fornevernotforgotten]

You and I

Me and him

Him and her

It all mattered

We all mattered

Until my heart fucked it up

[fornevernotforgotten]

I didn’t tell you

I probably won’t

It’s difficult

I’m difficult

Like walking on eggshells

Or glass

Walking in front of me

Walking behind

Just

Keep me posted

[fornevernotforgotten]

It’s a prickle in my chest.

A warmth in my toes.

Time slows down.

And not a moment goes.

When you look me in the eyes.

Pupils dilating.

And you whisper in my ear

About how all day, you’ve been waiting.

[fornevernotforgotten]

It’s hard to say how much I love you

In a place so filled with hate

Like a promise I can rely on

Or a secret I know is safe

The first new entry is about to be written

And I hope I may write more than a few

Cause nothing makes me more emotional

Than when I think of you

[fornevernotforgotten]

I’m not okay.

I miss you.

[fornevernotforgotten]

There’s a part of me that wants to kiss you.

There’s a part of me that wants to lay in bed and snuggle you.

There’s a part of me that wants to scream, and kick, and cry at you.

There’s a part of me that wishes I could never see you again.

And it’s all because I love you.

[fornevernotforgotten]

There’s something about you.

A way that you are.

The something in your step.

The something in your talk.

It drives me nuts.

Because I cant tell why I’m going nuts.

[fornevernotforgotten]

It was something I dreamed about.

It was something you did.

And yet when you offered me only a half-assed solution,

I promised to let go of the rest.

Now here we are.

In a place I never thought we’d even reach.

And then today,

You looked at me,

As if you deamt of the other half.

[fornevernotforgotten]

I can’t imagine how many songs,

Are about people who,

Don’t deserve songs written about them.

Please,

I want you to know,

You deserve every word I write about you.

Even after you turned me down.

[fornevernotforgotten]

I’ve loved you for a long time now.

I’ve only liked you for two months.

Feelings of desire and lust have followed long after love.

Now, they mangle up in a ball of wire.

Twisting and turning until they are inseparable.

[fornevernotforgotten]

I’m not what’s best for you.

[fornevernotforgotten]

I can’t help but want to be with you.

I can’t help but want to kiss you.

I can’t help but want to roll around in the bed with you.

I can’t help but hope you feel it, too.