foreverlasteda

[foreverlasteda]

It hasn't changed. Soho, that is. Aziraphale is glad for it, just as he is glad to see Nina's cafe full to the brim. Just as he's glad to see Maggie with a dozen or so fold in her shop. He might have performed a little miracle with the advertisements -- but he shan't show off to anyone. He passes them all, turning his attention briefly to the bookshop he still considers his home. Looking up at the building, Aziraphale wonders how it looks inside - probably dust-filled by now. Ghastly cobwebs and all.

He steps inside, and is greeted . . . by the shop just as he'd left it. Tidy. Homely. Too tidy for Muriel by themself - he thinks - and finds his curiosity piqued. Surely it wouldn't be Crowley?

No, no. He daren't hope that. Dare not hope that the demon he loves has been here the whole time as he pads into the building. He reaches out, fingers brushing across the books on the table nearest the door. Just as he'd left it.

❝ Hello-- Muriel, dear? Are you here? ❞

[foreverlasteda]

Darling. Oh. Oh, that's new. That's not ' angel '. Not that Aziraphale is complaining. Quite the opposite: there's a nice tint of pink spreading across plump cheeks. He fixes his gaze on Crowley, blue-green eyes still puffy from the high emotions they'd both been through these past hours. " I'll be done soon, dear. " teases the angel, half heartedly. He doesn't think he'll ever forgive himself; not fully at least. He keeps that quiet.

Tentative, a hand courses through Crowley's hair as attention pans to the kiss-swollen lips. Was it selfish of Aziraphale to want to kiss them again? Purely because they can? Purely to feel the wonderful way his heart flutters? The angels smiles, shaking his head. No it wouldn't be, would it? Crowley had been most receptive earlier.

" If, " they begin, eyes twinkling with a rare mischief " You kiss me again. "

@foreverlasted / aziraphale sent : ❝ you are my person, i know that. i should have said it before. ❞

𝐋𝐈𝐌𝐁𝐒 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐖 𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐀𝐔𝐓 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐀 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇 as they reclined their full height back into the sofa. crimson head came to rest atop the angel's lap, long legs draped over an arm and left hanging ; socked feet swung an idle rhythm. ' i know, i know, ' a low rumble ( soft and sweet, for the chiding had come earlier ). the corner of a still kiss swollen mouth curled up. ' are you quite finished chastising yourself? i gave that up hours ago, darling ... round about the time you kissed me like a drowning man in the desert. ' if there was an ounce of smug to his tone, they reckoned it was rather merited. the fresh pet name too came easy, AS SWIFT AND SURE AS HIS FORGIVENESS.

the silence was punctuated by their contented hum, lashes fluttering shut on the world. his senses narrowed to the lens of this sofa, the plush thighs beneath him, the steady RISE AND FALL of their breath in tandem ... ' you're my person too. you always have been, you fool. '

[foreverlasteda]

& * A study in kindness, learning that doing the right thing isn't always black & white, forgiveness, religious trauma, love & crepe supremacy.

𝐀𝐧 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐀𝐳𝐢𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐆𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐎𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐬. 𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝, 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤.

♥ ;; @heavenfelled

[foreverlasteda]

The bookshop was gone. @heavenfelled had reminded him when he'd gone to get the bus back there & promptly soothed it with an offer of accommodation. ( I don't think my side would like it. ) A thousand scenarios had run through the angel's mind; all of which saw him in very, very deep trouble.

But then; more words had echoed. ( They'll leave us alone, for a bit. If you ask me, both sides are gonna use this as breathing space. ) It had been reassurance enough at the time for Aziraphale to accept the offer.

As he crosses the threshold into Crowley's apartment, the angel takes in his surroundings, Crowley speaks again. Cheeks flush pink as he smiles. Stay as long as you like. He doesn't know how long it will be; a little part of him hopes it will be a long time but they don't want to impose upon the other.

❝ 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐞. ❞ They exhale; biting back the urge to tell the demon what a nice thing they'd done. ❝ 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐂𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐞𝐲. ❞

[foreverlasteda]

🌙  *  ―     𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄𝐒  (  prompts for the five senses. add [reversed] to reverse the action. feel free to change wording as needed & add details )

��𝐎𝐔𝐂𝐇.

[ 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐓 ] ― sender wraps a soft blanket around receiver’s shoulders [ 𝐒𝐈𝐋𝐊 ] ― sender and receiver fall into bed together on silk sheets [ 𝐏𝐔𝐋𝐋 ] ― sender pulls receiver’s hair ( gently / hard ) [ 𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐑 ] ― sender strokes receiver’s hair [ 𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender brushes receiver’s hair [ 𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐓 ] ― sender paints a picture onto part of receiver’s body ( specify what & where ) [ 𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender traces their fingertips over receiver’s body [ 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑 ] ― sender traces a scar on receiver’s body [ 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐃 ] ― sender reaches out to hold receiver’s hand [ 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 ] ― sender worships receiver’s body

𝐓𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄.

[ 𝐔𝐍𝐔𝐒𝐔𝐀𝐋 ] ― sender feeds receiver something they’ve never tried before ( specify what ) [ 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐑 ] ― sender feeds receiver something sour ( specify what ) [ 𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐄𝐓 ] ― sender feeds receiver something sweet ( specify what ) [ 𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender feeds receiver something spicy ( specify what ) [ 𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender kisses receiver to taste the lingering flavour of what they ate or drank on their lips ( specify what ) [ 𝐂𝐎𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender bites receiver hard enough to draw blood [ 𝐔𝐍𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐋 ] ― sender feeds receiver soup when they’ve fallen ill [ 𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐊 ] ― sender makes receiver a cocktail to try [ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender cooks receiver their favourite meal [ 𝐓𝐑𝐘 ] ―  sender gives receiver a taste of what they’re cooking / baking for their opinion

𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓.

[ 𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐃 ] ― sender blindfolds receiver [ 𝐑𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄 ] ― sender and receiver see each other again after a period of being apart [ 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄 ] ― sender notices something different about receiver ( injury / haircut / tattoo / piercing / etc ) [ 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐋 ] ― sender greets receiver in formal partywear ( feel free to add detail ) [ 𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐒 ] ― sender takes receiver to see lanterns in the sky [ 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐒 ] ― sender and receiver lay under the stars to stargaze [ 𝐆𝐀𝐙𝐄 ] ― sender and receiver lock eyes across the room [ 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐖 ] ― sender and receiver see a shadow move out the corner of their eye [ 𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐍 ] ― sender and receive watch as something burns ( candles / a building / a campfire / etc ) [ 𝐅𝐈𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender takes receiver to the aquarium to watch the sea life [ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐊 ] ― sender recognises receiver at a masquerade party

𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃.

[ 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐂 ] ― sender puts on the radio to listen to music with receiver [ 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘 ] ― sender plays receiver their favourite song on an instrument ( specify what ) [ 𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍 ] ― sender and receiver are in bed together while rain lashes against the windows / tent / etc [ 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender whispers something in receiver’s ear ( specify what ) [ 𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender asks receiver for a dance upon hearing a song [ 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐘 ] ― sender and receiver hear a sound when they should be alone ( footsteps / creaking floorboards / a scream / etc ) [ 𝐇𝐔𝐌 ] ― sender hums a lullaby to lull receiver to sleep [ 𝐌𝐔𝐅𝐅𝐋𝐄𝐃 ] ― sender comforts a temporally deaf receiver after a loud sound ( gunshot / explosion / etc ) [ 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐌 ] ― sender calms receiver down from a panic attack in a loud place [ 𝐀𝐅𝐀𝐑 ] ― sender and receiver hear a muffled sound from another room / outside ( music / people / creature / etc ) [ 𝐒𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐖 ] ― sender hears receiver crying and approaches comfort them

𝐒𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐋.

[ 𝐁𝐀𝐓𝐇 ] ― sender puts a scented bath bomb into receiver’s bath [ 𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐋𝐄 ] ― sender lights a scented candle for receiver [ 𝐅𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ] ― sender puts perfume / aftershave on receiver’s ( wrist / neck / cheek ) [ 𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 ] ― sender inhales receiver’s scent [ 𝐂𝐎𝐎𝐊 ] ― sender is drawn to the kitchen by receiver’s cooking [ 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐒 ] ― sender steals an item of receiver’s clothes because it smells like them [ 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 ] ― sender notices receiver smells of their shampoo / shower gel [ 𝐅𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐒 ] ― sender gives receiver flowers [ 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐇 ] ― sender helps clean receiver after a long day / stressful situation [ 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐘 ] ― sender and receiver walk through the sewers to escape capture / avoid detection / chase someone [ 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐄 ] ― sender massages receiver with a scented oil

[foreverlasteda]

SLEEPING AT LAST: ENNEAGRAM STARTERS

a collection of lyrics from the Sleeping at Last Enneagram album. change & alter as needed.

“I believe that we can fix this.”

“I’m not saying ‘perfect’ exists in this life, but we’ll only know for certain if we try.”

“The list goes on forever of all the ways I could be better.”

“Sweetheart, you look a little tired. When did you last eat?”

“Come in and make yourself right at home. Stay as long as you need.”

“Tell me, is something wrong? If something’s wrong, you can count on me.”

“You know I’ll take my heart clean apart if it helps yours beat.”

“I will love you with every single thing I have.”

“I will love you without any strings attached.”

“No, I don’t want to talk about myself.”

“Tell me where it hurts.”

“I just want to build you up until you’re good as new.”

“Maybe, one day, I will get around to fixing myself, too.”

“I just want to love you and love you and love you well. I just want to learn how, somehow, to be loved myself.”

“Maybe I’ve done enough.”

“This trophy isn’t real love. And with or without it, I’m good enough.”

“I finally see myself through the eyes of no one else.”

“I’m turning out the lights to remember how to see.”

“What if we already are who we’ve been dying to become?”

“I want to watch the universe expand. I want to break it into pieces small enough to understand.”

“I can’t put my mind to rest.”

“A white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart.”

“Oh, god, I’m so tired of being afraid.”

“What would it feel like, to put this baggage down? If I’m being honest, I’m not sure I’d know how.”

“Maybe I’m stronger than I realize.”

“Trust that there will be light always waiting behind even the darkest of nights.”

“We’ll be okay. Don’t be afraid.”

“How nice it’d be if we could try everything.”

“I’m serious. Let’s make a list, and just begin.”

“Let’s climb this mountain before we cross that bridge.”

“It costs farewell tears for a welcome-home parade.”

“I’ll find the silver lining, no matter what the price.”

“It feels like I’m sinking when I’m standing in one place.”

“I’ve learned to travel light.”

“Tomorrow will be beautiful.”

“I grew up too quick.”

“I won’t let you in. I swore, never again.”

“I want to break these bones until they’re better.”

“All I want is to trust you.”

“I’m just a kid who grew up scared enough to hold the door shut.”

“I am strong enough to let you in.”

“I’ve been less than half of myself for more than half of my life.”

“There’s so much worth fighting for. You’ll see.”

“I’m just trying to find myself through someone else’s eyes.”

“How do I forgive myself for losing so much time?”

“We were born to try.”

[foreverlasteda]

PROMPTS FOR TOUCH-STARVED MUSES *  adjust as necessary, send 'reverse' for the reversal of action prompts

DIALOGUE PROMPTS

could you... do that again?

please come back.

hold me again.

i need to feel you close.

we could share the same bed.

could we try holding hands?

right there. just like that.

i want to know how it feels.

i like it when you're nearby.

if you could just... stay here for a while.

lean into me. it's okay.

i like your hugs.

i want you here.

please touch me.

your arms feel so safe.

stay close to me.

the bed feels so cold.

come into my arms.

let me hold you.

cling to me.

you can keep doing that.

you don't have to let go.

i feel safe when you're near me.

that feels so good.

that was... really nice.

i like it when you play with my fingers.

could you come a little closer?

you can play with my hair if you want.

you don't have to sit so far away.

would you sleep here with me?

you feel like home to me.

if you keep doing that, i can't promise i'll behave.

can i lay on you?

would you touch me again?

don't let go of me.

stay like this.

don't go.

ACTION PROMPTS

[ reach ] sender hesitantly reaches for receiver's hand, unsure if the action will be reciprocated

[ instinct ] sender takes receiver's hand on instinct in reaction to a startling sight or event, not even realizing they did it

[ cling ] sender wraps both of their arms around one of receiver's arms and clings

[ rest ] sender sits next to receiver and rests their head on receiver's shoulder

[ doze ] sender falls asleep with their head on receiver's shoulder

[ play ] sender clings to receiver's hand and begins absentmindedly playing with their fingers

[ reassure ] sender reassures receiver by rubbing their arm up and down, hoping to ease their stress

[ heart ] sender guides receiver's hand to their heart

[ quiver ] sender and receiver's hands brush with slight contact, causing receiver to shiver on instinct

[ come back ] receiver took their hand away, so sender reaches for it a second time, taking it back and refusing to let go

[ first hug ] sender pulls receiver into their first hug

[ lasting ] sender and receiver's innocent hug lasts a little longer than they both expected

[ trace ] sender lightly traces the shape of sender's face, exploring every part of their complexion with tender fingertips

[ comb ] sender takes their time brushing receiver's hair

[ refuse ] when receiver insists they break their hug, sender refuses and only tightens their grip around them

[ cuddle ] sender moves closer to receiver as they sleep and snuggles down beside them, finding comfort in their presence

[ pull back ] sender pulls receiver back into bed with them

[ nuzzle ] sender nuzzles into receiver's cheek with their nose

[ cheek ] sender caresses receiver's cheek

[ nose ] sender lightly taps the tip of receiver's nose

[ lips ] sender caresses receiver's lips with their fingertip

[ chest ] sender smooths a hand over receiver's chest

[ legs ] sender starts to drag a hand back and forth over receiver's legs

[ inner thigh ] as sender caresses receiver's thigh, they gently slip their hand between receiver's legs

[ distance ] unable to touch or embrace receiver, sender self-soothes by wrapping their arms around themselves

[ pinky ] sender and receiver hold hands by their pinky fingers

[ smooth ] sender takes their time caressing over every part of receiver's body

[ blanket ] sender wraps a blanket around their body and receiver's body, hudding close together

[foreverlasteda]

& * A study in kindness, learning that doing the right thing isn't always black & white, forgiveness, religious trauma, love & crepe supremacy.

𝐀𝐧 𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐀𝐳𝐢𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐆𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐎𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐬. 𝐏𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝, 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐬.

♥;; @heavenfelled