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Dear Dave if you happen to read this... Maybe just cut your hair off?! I mean....so that it can grow back again and be healthy again?! idk...just an idea but maybe after that tour.

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Since twitter is usally fast when it comes to new content I've been there all day more or less. The amount of ST fans named Leo and then something, something is kind of insane. I bet that's their real name for sure.....yeah sure.....I never really noticed this until today.

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Today is f*ing special and I can't f*ing put this somewhere......

It would be my dream to share a stage with Linkin Park. I had the great honour of seing them life in 2007. The way that I cry - screamed - yelled every song.

A little screenshot from something that I probably saved from the other subreddit.

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Staring at their IG photos from yesterday. I zoomed in like crazy into the one from Dave. I swear he does not wear a mask XD. But I can't proove it. Don't make me get my hopes up that maybe one day something big is going to change.

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Recently I made a little edit for my main tumblr. I took the BBC introducing recording and cut the parts out where their names are being said.

I listened to this so many times to make sure that I did not forget or overhear something.

It made me notice something.

His voice is very shaky in this and they sing off a few times, they were really nervous. I can understand that. I don't say this to sh*t on them. I used to dance when I was younger. I'm used to that. I picked up a guitar a few years ago and been trying to learn it ever since. I turn to mush when I try to record something. I sound much more horrible. Dancing is fine for me but guitar playing?! Oh God....it's so hard!

Anyway....I realized something.

There is so much strength in his voice now. It's incredible! I'm blown away by that transformation!

It's also a little reminder for me to just keep playing.

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What if he goes on stage and rain intro is one of his old songs?!

Just to mess with the audience and see how they react.

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I'm currently looking for a new guitar and whenever you search for stuff like that online then you get ads on social media based on what you were looking for.

At least that's how it should be.

I just got an ad for Yamaha digital pianos. Made me think of someone. I wonder what he plays these days. I hope not the just the cheapest ones. Probably not.

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"Every phone call pokes holes in the membrane that wraps itself between the two of us"

A few days ago I was singing this to myself and then baby niece came over. Or rather her parents dropped her off so I could watch her for a few hours.

It made me think about babies and how they are in the womb. It's like their own little world but they are also connected to their mum. When they are ready to be born they poke a hole and then the water breaks. I'm not sure if that's correct btw. Hey there I'm female and almost 37 and don't have kids.

But that image of the baby lying in the womb. It's like a thin membrane (taking this from Wikipedia).

Idk something about that image about poking holes and membranes makes me think, again about him talking to his mum or about his mum maybe. It could be so many other things.

It's just...it feels so sad.

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He uploaded Arachnophobia to his channel on October the 13th 2011?! Oh dear....it feels like an alternate universe. Or as if this happend in an alternate universe XD.

Out of all the old songs this is my fave btw. I love the "dancy" vibe that it has. Make me think about ballet. So many years of dancing ballet so sorry for that connection, it's a personal one.

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I have a strange problem.....that dream that he apparently had, that's being talked about in that graphic novel... Just like it's being described in the director's instructions.

I had that dream.

Idk what to do with this!

The thing is: I died in that dream and I've been feeling good ever since. As if a version of me died. A dense version and a more light version is here now.

Does that make sense?! It does to me....I've been debating if I should write this down in detail but as ever so often....most don't get what I say anyway. And also I want to seem like idk....as if it's just for attention or something like that.

We live in strange times...that's for sure.

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I would love for IG to have all of their songs and also I would love to have the courage to just post a pic using that song.....

Mister Faulkner if you happen to read this please make this appear on Instagram. Idk how that works and how you put songs in there XD. And also idk if I would then have the courage to actually use their songs.

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And your tiny eyes scream Mother, what have you done to me?

-> And I know you still bear the weight of your own existence And you'll never bear the weight of two

I've always had this connection but idk.....I once discussed the lyrics with someone (the second lyrics of course) and I was like "sounds like someone did not feel wanted as a child" and then that guy said "I agree".

Let's not talk about those peeps that I mean....They gatekeep everything it feels like whatever. They know and read through it all but don't I dare say something then I get banned everywhere.

The lyrics...just sad. Just so sad. I don't want to know what really happend. I mean I wrote down in my main blog but I went through but also not in detail. I'm not sure if that would even be helpful.

He is so real and authentic without giving details :)

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I should rename my blog because at the moment I'm just rambling....whatever.

Anyway.

Since Leo says in the Bandhappy video that he will teach “anything....to extremely advanced” I would love to know if he can play really complicated pieces. If he were to just sit down and just play classical piece I would enjoy that. Whenever I'm in the mood for it then I listen to classical music.

But also...he could just sing the phone book and I would listen to it so....

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That interview about his fave 90s metal album......welp. I never looked into it but then I did and I saw the titles and I was like: damn...I can't f*ing say anything about that one song. The band's name is also funny since he has a song named “Failure”. I should have looked into that sooner. But also I love finding little things like that. And also why on earth would they bring this old interview back now?! Anything in the woodwork?! We live in strange times and you can't keep things a secret very well. ....

Taken from Failure – Leo

"He finds it so hard to explain the way he can't communicate The feeling's there but he can't say why it's so hard to relate to you or anyone"

I feel this one btw. But I'm more someone who feels so much and in such an intense way that it creates a feeling of being torn on the inside......insead of communicating I rather "tear myself then" as he likes to say that he tore his body or tore his arms off....

Still no tags because still more writing this for me so...not that important.

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Every time I hear someone refer to ST's music as “progressive metal”, I start to chuckle and think “yes, but not exclusively”.

That video is nearing the 1 mio views on TikTok?! Okay maybe that's a bit far out there but I can see this happening.

I know that this is shitposting btw. but I really do start to laugh so...idk...

sry for just rambling so much.

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There is a blog (?!) or website that I've been noticing for many weeks now. I swing by every now and then. Nothing new in there for me personally but one detail.....

“lyrical themes of spirituality and personal struggle”. I got chased away from certain “big fan places” for saying that you can read spiritual topics into all of this. On the last album it's most evident. At least in my perception. In his early years he does hint on it, too.....more vaguely “mind over matter is a lie” is one line...maybe I should look for more, right?!

Dear stranger, I agree :)

I'm happy that someone else sees the connection, too.

That fanpage has articles about “who is behind everything” that's why I'm posting this here btw.

And also I should stop using tags at all...When I search for our Mister then only my blog shows....I don't think I want so much attention XD.

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Sitting here sorting through my photos and I just saw this.

When I saw this I started to cry out of joy. I did not really understand why he (I assume) uploaded a "new" video. The thing is: to this day I don't understand it but I am happy about it.

Also kind of cool to see that they doubled the amount of subscribers. vor 8 Stunden means 8 hours ago btw. but I'm sure that you got that.