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( ✉️ ➝ ??? ) so i finally got a hulu account!!! ( ✉️ ➝ ??? ) and it’s so much better than netflix~ ( ✉️ ➝ ??? ) but like at least netflix doesn’t have stupid ads sigh ( ✉️ ➝ ??? ) i’m binge watching this american show called intervention ( ✉️ ➝ ??? ) and woah, my mind is blown! ( ✉️ ➝ ??? ) anways you should get a hulu account, thanks for coming to my ted talk!

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cindyfmd‌:

something they never talk about in the movies with the girl being completely made over is the upkeep. Going from matted short hair to long healthy layered hair may be beautiful the day of the blowout but what do you do when the the special conditioner runs out? Or the makeup you really like expires? Naive people would assume you just go out and get new ones, but they are wrong. No one is classically beautiful, they are beautiful because they follow the trends. Not the outlandish ones that we will look back on in history and wonder why we did it, but the effortless ones. Which took effort. Which further explains why Chunghee is wearing just a face mask as navigates the bookstore, a pile of magazines already in her arms when she notices someone else wearing a face mask and seemed to be looking in another section of the library. “Ya…” She calls and when they turn, she instantly breaks into a eat-shit kind of grin. “I knew it was you.” Setting her collection down, she leans against the shelf and looks them up and down. “Whatcha wearing the mask for? You can’t hide aura.” Something she did not possess. But this person, they did. 

     with all the books in his room having been read, jaehyun set out to the bookstore to find new things to read. the apartment was quiet as he left, figuring the rest of the boys were off practicing or simply living their own lives. he had the tendency to isolate himself at times, wanting nothing more than to be left alone. jaehyun wasn’t sure how long he had been there, a few books in the basket he picked up on his way in. compared to the last time he had come, there weren’t a lot of books that seemed to be catching his eye. it was only when he finally paused in the middle of an aisle that he heard the voice coming from behind him. “how did you know it was me?” he smiled, hiding behind the mask he was wearing. which up until now had kept his identity a secret. “can’t i though? so far you’re the only one who has noticed. i think the hat i’m wearing also helps, don’t you think? what are you here for?”

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fmdrem‌:

snap dm sent to > open !

remphases: the mission has been accomplished and the filming has been done remphases: and now this is the perfect moment to beg for lamb skewers remphases: if it wasnt clear im begging you to come with me !! getting lamb skewers !! limited edition only !! )

jaestories: why does it sound like you’re so secret spy!  jaestories: lamb skewers is one way to get me out of bed, my friend. jaestories: what else is in it for me? can we get ice cream too?

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so many replies so little time

jet lag kicked my ass today so the rest shall come tomorrow, everything else is queued!

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EXO (엑소) The 5th Repackage Album ‘LOVE SHOT’ — SEHUN

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i’m going to korea in 4 days 

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fmdjia‌:

he sank into himself on the couch that he sat on, forearms rested on his knees and guilt tickling at his fingertips while he tried his hardest to itch it away by bending and pulling at the digits. the feeling, however, never ceased. “i kinda wish you had, petty or not.” it seemed like he walked a tunnel with no light ahead, the conversation that was only starting leading him deeper into the unknown of how to make things right with jaehyun. the smiles they shared on camera during that period of time were haunting. jia was still genuine in those moments, as they were the only ones he could interact with jaehyun without crossing the lines the older drew. but now that they were interacting without any cameras or fake conversations, his stomach sank to the pit of his gut. “not entirely untrue, i am selfish for doing that. but i just told you i was terrified of the conversation and where it would lead. i never said i didn’t feel guilty or didn’t think of you. who do you take me for? i was and am sorry about the way it happened and how it turned out.” there was a trend with jaehyun’s words, making jia the single criminal in the situation when it was a team effort. it took two to tango. “what i did to minwoo? you mean break up with him? a break up is not an act against humanity, jaehyun.” the moment he felt unfair was the moment his tone flipped into slight irony. he leaned against the couch, brushing his hair back and away from his face. “that’s not to say i don’t deserve being pushed out of your life, i involved myself with someone really important to you without your knowledge or my better judgement. but let me just ask you.. i am genuinely curious,” he leaned forward again, fishing his glasses off of the table and pushing them atop his nose. “is minwoo being pushed out of your life too for dating me or is it just your five year anniversary gift to me?”

    it was heartbreaking for jaehyun to know that this is what their relationship had come to. he knows he hasn’t made it easy, and wants to put a stop to the strain not only between them but for the group as a whole. as one of the older members, he knows it’s his job to make things better not worse. “minwoo and i are no longer as close as we once were.” he replied softly, glancing up at jia. it had been years and he still couldn’t find it within him to allow the other to be apart of his life like they once were. “in fact he texted me the other day and asked if i still hated him. so that’s a little insight into how we’re currently doing at the moment.” it was easier for him to push both away, but jaehyun knew he couldn’t do that. he was no longer a young emotional boy who could just do anything he wanted, it was time for him to act his age no matter how much he wanted to be petty. “my friendship with minwoo doesn’t matter right now because this is about us. and i do want to try and fix the bond we had, not only for us but also for the group as a whole. it’s not fair to them and i do miss you, jia.” of course he had the thought a few times in the past year, but never voiced it out loud. “i want you here, taeho. don’t forget that okay? no matter how much it seems that i don’t.”

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Happy Birthday Sehun! ♡

© BUTTERFLY4EVER12버터플라이

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fmdnoah‌:

— early hours in a broadcasting station w/ @fmdxjaehyun

once the line between resentment and embarrassment existed, but it had faded into nothing as time passed. all it took was fon crying it out and then sleeping on the idea that their friendship never existed. a vicious cycle of the emotions pulled at his heartstrings until the jaehyun lifeline tore and he didn’t know how else to stop himself from bleeding than to clog it with rage until the boiling turned into a light simmer. yet, that didn’t stop him from turning away from jaehyun as soon as he came into view from around the corner, gazes locking for a second. one second too long, making his stomach sink to the heels of his feet. a startled bottle of water slipped past his fingertips to the ground. noah’s done his best and gone out of his way to ignore jaehyun as if he hadn’t once dearly referred to him as a friend. and as if his name wasn’t scribbled in long-forgotten pages of his journal. one unsupervised trip flushed it all to the drain. “great, just jolly,” a breathy exhale as noah glared at the bottle on the ground as if it’d offended his mother. or morphed into a mini version of jaehyun. kneeling to pick it up, he pretended not to hear the footsteps approaching.

he feels bad, noah didn’t deserve the trouble jaehyun had caused. if only he truly knew his emotions once he had ended his relationship with candy, this wouldn’t even be an issue. losing friends is never an easy thing to go through, jaehyun knows it’s probably why he stays away from people who aren’t apart of his group. noah had always been a light in his life, a person he could count on even if the other was fast asleep. and he just had to go ruin it by kissing him and then telling him that he wasn’t sure how he felt. a small part of him wishes noah had given him the chance to figure those feelings out because maybe he did care for him beyond friendship. that time has come and pass sadly, and jaehyun isn’t sure if they’ll ever reach a point where they can be in the same room with each other again. he was in search of food, rounding the corner before coming to a stop quickly. noah was in front of him, and he had silently tried to figure out how long it had been since they last saw each other. “i can go.” he speaks softly, gaze drifting towards the floor. “i don’t mean to make you uncomfortable.”

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Send “✆” for a MORNING text. Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT. Send “☎” for a RUSHED text. Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text. Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text. Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text. Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text. Send “#” for a RANDOM text. Send “@” for a SCARED text. Send “&” for a LOVING text. Send “%” for a CURIOUS text. Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text. Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text. Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.

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fmdyoonbin‌:

      WHILE JAEHYUN LAID BESIDE, the leader closed his book, saving the page while moving to place the book on the nightstand alongside. his attention was now completely on his best friend in the group, the younger male seeming to be in obvious distress. when hearing that it was over a conversation shared with the maknae of the group, he only then acknowledges the fact that, once again, the problem was someone yoonbin personally did not like as a person. a sigh escaped lips as he glanced toward the ceiling, shuffling in bed to be flatter on the mattress, head on the pillow rather than leaned against the bed frame. “why is this still a problem to be talked about? it’s been nearly two years since they dated, and how long since you were with him? can’t we just live in a space where we can pretend he does not exist. i already put up with him for eunae.” chocolate orbs back on the other, he turns to his side to observe the other fully. “do you think it’s fair that you are being so hard on taeho? you’ve already forgiven minwoo for what happened, so why can’t you just forgive taeho? just move past it all.” 

    yoonbin had been there to see it all unfold, the tension suddenly appearing between the two members. when jaehyun sat to think about it, he was most apologetic towards his leader. who he knew was dealing with his own issues and also the responsibilities of leading the group. the last thing he wanted to do was add to the stress level he was sure yoonbin already had. though he’d put the incident behind him, he still couldn’t pinpoint why it still managed to bother him from time to time. having his trust broken was big, the first time it happened and suddenly jaehyun had felt like a different person. long gone was the young boy with hopeful eyes, replaced with someone who no longer openly trusted those around him. “because it’s not so easy, okay? sure it’s easy to say, but to actually stop yourself from feeling nothing but anger is hard. but i can do that for you, hyung. act like he doesn’t exist.” it puts a small smile on his face knowing how much minwoo and yoonbin didn’t get along. “i don’t think i can ever forgive them, but i can work on building my relationship with taeho back up. we were members afterall and i do miss what we used to be like.” 

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fmdxblue‌:

— you know what? just forget about it  — it’s obvious that you still fucking hate me, so just forget it. have a nice day, jaehyun.

— still dramatic as ever, i see. — i don’t hate you, minwoo. that would require far too much energy, and i happen to enjoy not thinking about you as often anymore. is that the answer you were looking for? 

MINWOO 📲 JAEHYUN

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fmdxblue‌:

— i’m thinking about how there are a lot of people out there, right now, who hate me, and how you are someone who hates me as well — please, jaehyun … i know what i did was awful, okay? but it’s been nearly two years.

— it’s natural for people to dislike you, no one can be liked by everyone. — is that supposed to mean something? i know how long it’s been, i used to live with your ex. like i said, i don’t see how what i feel for you now matters.

MINWOO 📲 JAEHYUN

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puppybaek wants cuddles ♡

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fmdxblue‌:

— it’s not entirely random, jaehyun. i’ve just been thinking a lot. — your feelings toward me will always be important

— it’s extremely random, minwoo. thinking can cause a lot of unwanted trouble i’ve found. — i wish that was something i believed. i’m not sure what i feel for you anymore, truly depends on the day.

MINWOO 📲 JAEHYUN

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fmdxblue‌:

— hey … jaehyun … — do you still hate me?

@fmdxjaehyun

— well that’s certainly random. — are my feelings towards you that important anymore?

MINWOO 📲 JAEHYUN