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it’s spring soon :(

let’s see if this new honeymoon phase will make me loose weight fast 💨 i have to loose all the recovery weight before spring or i’ll ✨kms✨ lmao

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why did i ever stop.

i would be at my goal weight by now but no. instead i’m 110 pounds and probably climbing, too cowardly to flop onto my scale to measure how blubbery i’ve really gotten but so fearful of not knowing.

did i recover or was it a year long binge.

when is the last time i starved? really starved?

i’ve been feeling like a black whole as of late. I feel like i consume and consume and consume and if i keep letting myself go i’ll become obese and unhealthy and unable to move. i don’t want that. i want to be slim and healthy and doing everything i can. i want to control my life and i can’t do that if im stuck being controlled by food.

was it october? no, earlier. The october of the year past?

Halloween always gets me. “I’ll recover! i can have as much candy as i want and that will make me recover!” oh please.

all that does is make your body (my body) confused and even more unhealthy.

if i’d kept going maybe i’d be in a hospital, but at least then there’d be people to care about me.

90 pounds.

i was 90 pounds.

what a beautiful number. I want to enter the double digits, feel the joy like a child turning 10. Double digits.

if i could go down back to 90 pounds i’d be underweight. That’s not healthy, but it’s beautiful. i want to be beautiful. Which do i care about more?

i wish my sense of beauty fell within what is healthy. maybe it does. whose to say. People live long lives under and overweight. people live short lives at healthy weights. whose to say which is better.

i may as well be beautiful for the few years i have left as a teenager.

i may as well live worry-less for the few years i have left as a teenager.

i need to sleep. sleep is healthy. lack of sleep is unhealthy. too much sleep is unhealthy. sleep the perfect amount. i have to sleep, beauty sleep, beautiful sleep for beautiful weep

ing.

crying crying what is wrong? oh nothing, though i cry.

my classes are similar to how they were when i started this. maybe it’s a sign. go back, go back. or maybe it’s “look how far you’ve come!”

who knows. whose to say.

new snow, shoes today.

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I wish I could look at myself in the mirror without being disgusted at what I see. I can tell my friends to be strong and to love themselves but I can't do it myself. I feel worthless. Like I don't deserve to be loved.

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i don’t want to be observed anymore

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i hate everything

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Ed and anxiety struggles:

Accepting change isn’t always fast

I feel like a fraud

Christmas plan

Waking up to snow, calms anxiety (for me atleast)

Binging aftermath

Anti binge guide

Anti binge guide part 2

Some rules to help follow

Depression and anxiety tips

Weight loss tips

Weight loss tip part 2

Your life becomes an eating disorder

Appetite suppressant tip and trick

Starving tip of the day

Fasting tips

How to deal with hunger

Skinny rules and reasons to keep going

Safe foods and recipes:

Cinnamon apple treats (put you in the Christmas mood ☺️🎄)

Chia pudding oats

When to drink tea

Low cal coffee mug cake (150 cal)

Tomato soup (100 cal)

Chocolate cookies (70 cal for all 14!)

Pita bread (30 cal)

Bread (0 cal, no joke)

Chocolate mug cake (100 cal)

Cloud cakes (63-127 cal for all)

Banana snack (~90 cal)

Egg white breakfast (35 cal)

Chocolate banana (112 cal)

Chocolate cake (140 cal for entire cake!)

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Christmas sweet tooth? (116cal)

I have found the best snack for christmas that I love doing and it’s only 116 cal. I personally don’t eat all of it in one go but you could!

Recipe:

1 red apple (mine was 175g).

Coconut milk (12ml)

Cinnamon (3g)

Instructions:

Cut the apple into as many pieces as possible, pour them into a bowl. Put the coconut milk in (distribute the milk around) and pour the cinnamon in and mix. Heat your oven to 200 degrees and put them in for however minutes you want (depending on if you like it crunchy or not). Enjoy.

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100 calorie tomato soup

Ingredients:

1/2 cup onions, chopped - ~10

1/4 tsp garlic, minced

1 1/2cups diced tomatoes, canned - 75

1 cup low sodium chicken broth - 10

1/2tsp basil leaves

1 tbsp bellinos balsamic vinegar - 5

1 dash salt

Directions

Chop onion and mince garlic. In a small pot, spray with cooking spray and saute onion and garlic until soft, about 5 minutes.

Dump all remaining ingredients in. Tomatoes, chicken broth, basil, balsamic vinegar, and salt.

Bring to a boil over medium heat. Once boiling, reduce heat to medium low, cover and simmer 15 minutes.

Dump soup into a small blender, or use an immersion blender. If you want to keep this chunky, only blend for 2-3 seconds.

Return to pot and simmer another 5-10 minutes.

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158 kcal overnight oats/chiapudding

My overnight oats recipe, creamy, nutritious, perfect for breakfast and will fill you for hours!!

100ml Alrpo Soy No Sugars (33 kcal)

2 tablespoons natural oats (54 kcal)

1 tablespoon chiaseeds (44kcal)

5 chocolate chips (27kcal)

(1/2 teaspoon natural peanut butter (+/- 30 kcal))

Measure soy milk and chocolate chips and heat up for 1 minute in microwave in a bowl

Add oats, chiaseed and if desired, peanut butter

Mix and let it sit overnight or for at least 4 hours in fridge

You can add fresh fruit like apple with cinnamon for a more apple pie kinda flavour

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0 cal bread recipe i found on ed twt

“hi here’s my 0 calorie oat fiber cakey bread!! i’m obsessed with dipping it in chocolate pb2 honestly. btw pls don’t eat too much if you’re not used to eating a lot of fiber!! and drink a lottt of water w/ it so it can digest well and not constipate u!”

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you lost it once you can lose it again.

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let’s see if this new honeymoon phase will make me loose weight fast 💨 i have to loose all the recovery weight before spring or i’ll ✨kms✨ lmao

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i have wide hips with bones sticking out.

i have a waist smaller than the width of paper.

i am tall and lanky.

i can fit a fist between my thighs without even touching the skin.

i get compliments on my outfits all the time.

i have skin clearer than a pool of spring water.

i’m so flexible, people ask if i’ve ever thought of becoming a dancer.

my ribs are slimmer in frame than most peoples waist lines.

my fingers and hands are pretty and boney, with perfect nails and cuticles.

my calves and thighs are as thin as many peoples arms.

my hair is thick and luscious, having volume and shape but not much frizz.

my knees are shaped perfectly and are soft and moisturized.

my friends all love me and tell me the truth.

my face is more symmetrical than a drawing.

the colours and values of my clothes, skin, hair, and eyes all match to create the perfect colour palette.

my grades are effortlessly high, but i still have motivation and passion.

i know exactly what i want to be when i’m older.

my health is perfect and i have all the right levels of vitamins and minerals.

my accounts on social media never get disabled for any reason.

i read so many books every year, i have so much knowledge.

i l’ose weight effortlessly, because my metabolism is so high.

i never need to purge, because calories just flow right through me.

people worry about me, but never go further than telling me so.

all my plants thrive and live for so long.

i improve quickly in all my hobbies.

my socks always stay hole-less and intact.

my hair always suits me, even when it looks messy.

although i look thin and weak, i am strong and capable.

sometimes my knees hurt because i accidentally hit them together while walking, as my thighs are too thin to cushion them.

people find my body attractive and beautifully thin

my piercings never hurt after wearing earrings.

i enjoy all food i eat, without worry.

it is nearly impossible for me to gain weight.

no one ever forces me to eat food.

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my goal is to have a thigh gap so large and have so little fat on my legs that i have a thigh gap even when lying on my side

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hey guys i’m alive 😼

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help help i’m a shit person

i’m seeing a psychologist tomorrow

not for ed’s but because i told my counsellor i thought i might have adhd

what have i done i’m such an attention whore i’m probably faking everything i don’t deserve this

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cant tell if i need a hug or to get hit by a car